Unsent Messages

I loved you, I really did but now you’ve just made me cry so much and you have made me loose all happiness I may have because of your selfish actions. When is anything ever about me? You never ask me how I’m doing. It’s always about you and you will say things that trigger me and make it seem like it’s my fault that your doing this to yourself. I need to break up with you for my mental health but if I break up with you your mental health will go down. I don’t know what to do as I only ever care about your happiness and you never care about mine. You know nothing about me, because you never ask. I wish I could break up with you. I wish it wouldn’t make you sad, like when I tried to before and you said the worst things, I couldn’t breathe I cried so much, this is all my fault though. I shouldn’t of got with you in the first place. I’m sorry. I truly did love you but you’ve gone too far. When that person asked me out I considered it. Not because I liked her but because she was the only person who was interested in me that actually made me feel happy, unlike you which made me feel empty. I don’t know if you noticed but whenever I’m with you it’s hard to hug you, I can’t look you in the eye. It’s obvious I’m uncomfortable and you don’t even notice. Because when have you ever cared about me. I wish you were happy so that I would be happy. But even when you text me saying that you love me, the guilt, the pressure the memories come to me and I cry. I don’t want to have to live with you. I’m sorry I’m so selfish and I know you want me. And thats why I could never say this to you, I tried once and that was the worst time ever. Please just move on. Please find someone else. Please move on. Go find someone that would treat you better. Go find someone that isn’t sad when you talk to them. Go find someone that doesn’t break down when every time your with them. Go find someone that loves you. I’m sorry I wish it didn’t end like this.