i wish u had a daughter u prayed for, to watching my reflection while breaking down its what i see in your eyes

Will you ever listen to me and help me heal? Why did you have to get angry at me for putting too much pressure on you when I asked for help with my mental health. All I want is to know you are there to listen but you can’t even do that without making it about you.

you werent the first person i loved. nor will you be the last. you tand by my choice of moving out at 16 - im sorry you actually have to be insane and i hate how i have to learn to love and let go and let my little brother leave my life.

I wish i could tell you more, I wish that you could understand for example why Im always on my phone. I wish you should not be mad if you just knew why. I love you bytheway

i know youre struggling and so am i but i promise ill do anything to make you happy youre my mum i love yoou so much and i know i dont show it sometimes but im so greatful to have you as my mum, i want to save up and buy you stuff you deserve because you buy me stuff even tho you can afford it. I just dont want you to leave me because if you do ill be more broken then i already am

I know im not always the perfect daughter but I just really want to make u proud I just wish u could see that

You messed me up in many ways.
But I will never say I don’t love you, cause it wouldn’t be true.
You always say it’s my fault but I was just a kid.
Your words hurt me to this day.
Sorry I wasn’t the right child and sorry I never will be.
Believe me when I say I’ve tried, your standards are too high.
I love you but will never be the loved one, no matter how hard you try.
I’m trying everyday but I can’t say the words I wnat to you, I’m to scared.

I love you and miss you so much. You’re my inspiration and I’m trying to follow in your footsteps. I love you so much

im sorry. maybe in another life ill make you proud. ill never forgive myself for disappointing you this much. love you forever.

I wish you had of been around more, i feel like that part of childhood is a huge hole, like missing. Does that make sense? I wish i knew you better I still love you,

I miss you so much it's killing me. I would give anything for one more hug, even after all this time. I love you I love you I love you

you caused me so much pain and you are the reason for my depression and the scars on my body. Thank you

i literally don't feel like your child sometimes. i know it's my fault but you don't seem like you care. I still love you (even though idk what loving someone feels like)

You were never there for me you never saw me growing up why i just wanna know you saw my other sibling grow but not me why I wish I will never be like u some day

TW self harm

Sorry, but I self harm. I know you said you thought it was dumb and if you ever found out I did it you wouldnt be there for me. But I did do it, in fact, it's an addiction. And you're one of the main roots of my problem. Fuck you. From the bottom of my heart, I love you, but fuck you

All others mother gave them happiness but u gave me depressed u was never there for me,I never had that feeling growing up with a mother and all it’s because of you I HATE U, and I always will I will never forgive u never....

I love you so much , I’m so glad your in my life!! Thanks for always helping me when I’m down and don’t know what to do , your the only person who has stayed by me, I love you so much sorry for being a bum hole and stressing about everything, I just feel like I’m worthless and
Nobody loves me.

when you see me you look at a girl that is happy and full of joy but when i turn around and go back into my room I think about ending my life. to remove all the pain from today, yesterday, and the future. to simply fall asleep and never wake up

I know your stressed. But please don’t take it out on me please don’t try to make me feel any worse about myself. Please. I don’t want to end up hating you mum

I think we are growing apart and having more arguments now because you’re stressed but I also think it’s because I’m bisexual and I don’t know how to tell you.

you blamed me for everything; your illness, your trauma. it hurt, you knew that, you just didn't care. I'm not 'lazy' btw

how life would be brighter with you here. it should of been me, not you. I’ll forever be your baby girl.

hi mum. i'm gay. im getting married in a month, i really wish you could come. please dont burn this one

When i think about you i get upset and on others day i think about you and get filled with rage and sometimes happiness but today im upset.

Why couldn’t you make it easy for me to be accepted and be loved instead you treat me like shit and now I’m more lost than I’ve ever been. Why couldn’t you just love me the way I asked but instead you made me cry myself to sleep every Night

mama, i can't process the fact that any moment by now you could die, you could be gone. when I wanted it all to end the only reason I stayed alive was you, it was your good night kisses, your little gifts before I had an important tests, your ily's whenever I needed one. I dont know when I wont have the opportunity to see you again, but when it will happen your death is gonna kill a part of me too, i don't know if i can take it. you're truly beatiful mama, youre the best woman out there. I love you to the moon and back

im so sorry mum. im not happy, after everything u do for me to make me smile. i love you so much but i cant do this alone...

i’m so sorry that i don’t spend enough time with you. i’m just tried. tried of life tried of school tried of everything. but i won’t tell you cause i know it would break your heart as you have given me everything i have ever wanted and for me to not want it anymore is selfish

i wish i was the daughter you wanted. i try so hard but it's still never enough. your never satisfied.
you always have something to say, about some shit that i cant change. you drain me. you dont understand at all, and you wont even stop and think about all the pressure im under. you dont give a fuck about me.

I'm gay. and I'm not sorry about it, if you don't support me I will find someone who does but I will always be your child no matter what.

I wish I could tell you everything I am going through but I just can’t and I’m sorry, I don’t know how to fix me but I’m trying trust me.

i feel like i disappoint you a lot. i know i'm the problem child and i'm so unmotivated all the time. i'm sorry for that. you always push the things that go wrong onto me and make it out to be my fault. i know you much rather have you friends children as your own. you couldn't even eat dinner with your own children tonight. sorry i upset you so much.

it’s been five years since what you did. i started feeling depressed and nothing’s changed and i can’t bring myself to leave you forever but i think it would be best. things aren’t even that bad anymore but i’m just sick of my body reacting to things like i’m in a life or death situation. everything’s apparently better and it’s been a few months since some scary stuff has happened but i don’t feel better. i keep reacting like it's the end of the world. I think I've seen you, that i used to consider my world, almost leave me so many times now that everything that goes wrong feels that extreme. I should be feeling so good these days, but i just feel stuck. How do I move on from all the stuff I've been through. How do I live life if it always feels like I'm about to die??? why can’t you just be my mum again. when i was little you said your favourite colour was pink

I hate you but I love you equally the same. I don't even know if you're a nice person, I don't know if you manipulated me on purpose. I feel sick when we're apart but hate being around you, I'm in limbo. I only know I'll never forgive you :)

Why was I never good enough for you? I miss you so much but you've treated me so horribly I feel wrong to miss you. I just wanted to be normal and have a dad who's alive and a mum who's present and loves me. I don't think thats too much to ask for. I just want you to love me.

im sorry. i hope one day things will be different. i'll never not love you even though its hard to show it.

I love you, but it hurts that you constantly tear me down with your remarks you think are just jokes. they aren't funny, they're hurtful and damaging, and they are one of the key reasons that i cannot look in a mirror because i now hate what's looking back at me

we finally have a stable life and home but I can’t get rid of the scared feeling. what if it all goes away?

I love you, have always taken care of me and done what any parent could I love you, sometimes it just get hard. Every time you judge my appearance it hurts it really does, I try to do everything and anything I can I am sorry I can’t never be enough.

i'm sorry. if you truly knew who i was you would probably be disappointed me. I could really use a hug right now.

It’s too hard, I wish I could stay but I can’t. I wish I could tell you that when your time comes I’ll be gone after you. I can’t stay for any longer. It physically hurts. Goodbye for now. I love you.

we used to be so close but now i feel like i can't speak to you at all. i hope one day we're better because i do love you but you make it so hard.

I just need u to tell me ur proud of me , for u to see all the battles I’ve fought with no one beside me . Because no one ever sees my tears bc I’ve been strong for so long, I’ve hidden my pain behind a facade of happiness and humour , I just feel so empty. Nothing makes me happy anymore, no matter how hard or loud I cry , no one comes running in , no one comes w tissues or hugs and bc of this I feel like I’m drowning . I wish u knew this , I wish u could feel what I’m feeling bc I want u too feel the pain I’m going through bc of u , but even then I’ll come and tell u it’s okay , because that’s what happens all the time to me. The kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

I'm not the perfect daughter you've always wanted, and I'm not even sorry, because it's your fault I'm like that.

I'm losing myself and I don't think you realise. I'm trying so hard, but struggling too much. I just wish you'd see.

please i beg you to change your views on JK Rowling. I dont know how to tell you that i wanna start T and get top surgery. Im trans and you just decide to call me your 'daughter'. Please change your fucking views, youre fucking transphobic. I miss the old you.

Sometimes I hate you. I hate how you can’t take responsibility for what you done to me. But sometimes I love you because you’re my mum and we have no other family , you’re all I have

thank you for truly making me find my place in this world without you i would be completely and utterly lost

i wanted to prove to the world that i am worth a lot. idk what happened but i now know that im not. im sorry for letting you down. im sorry because i flinched at you raising your voice. im sorry that i cry at every instant of you yelling at me. im sorry that im selfish. im sorry that im tired. im sorry that im not enough. if only i could tell you. if i could scream at you every single shitty thought that has ran thru my mind. if only i could hate you because you taught me to hate myself. im sorry that i couldn't be what you wanted. i just want help man. i just want to be okay again.

why do you shout at me when I haven't done anything wrong. I'm trying to my best to keep myself alive but it hurts a lot when you said that I don't make any effort with anyone in the family and more with my friends and I'm trying my best but when its constant shouting and arguments in the living room it just makes me not want to be in there. yeah, I may speak to my friends more but that's because they understand more they wouldn't shout at me for not saying thank you even though I did or criticise me for what I eat. it's just so stressful because I'm literally trying my best to be happy but I'm just not and you said you don't want to see me like that again but you were the cause of it. I just sat there crying as you shouted at me for like half an hour basically telling me that I don't mean anything to the family and that really fucking hurt because don't you think I know I'm becoming withdrawn and it's for that exact reason the less you know the less I say to you the less reason you have to shout at me. Also please just stop commenting on what I eat its really not helping when no matter what I eat it's not good enough. I just feel like you don't think I'm good enough in general which is why I literally sit in my room and cry every night but that's what you don't see. but I'm fine I guess lol.