In my dream last night i thought i saw you but it turned out to not be you and i felt such real disappointment. I miss having you around

I never fell in love with you in that way, but lord did i love being your friend. Im sorry that i had to lie to you and end with making you think it was your fault. In all honestly im a coward and i was too scared to admit that im gay. I never wanted to hurt you and i was just confused, but i knew in the end that you deserve more than i could ever give you. I hope one day youll understand and we can be friends because i do miss you so much it hurts sometimes. Either way thank you for being there for me to love and hold onto and thank you for understanding me and making me feel comfortable the way i never had. Im sorry.