Unsent messages to M
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 30, 2020, 4:15 am UTC
i wish you the best, i always have. i think maybe my sun is beginning to rise. i’m sorry i burnt ours up but i loved every moment of it with you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 29, 2020, 2:31 pm UTC
I don’t really know how to explain it, but I genuinely liked you and I was never so happy to meet someone
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:48 am UTC
You said you love me always and forever. You said you loved me more. They both are lies. I love you bubba plz love me
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:26 am UTC
sometimes i start to miss you.. then i realize i just miss the feeling of not knowing what depression was.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 29, 2020, 1:20 am UTC
i love the way your eyes go from blue to green, it depends sometimes. But you make me happy and you just don’t know it. I really like you and hopefully i tell you soon. Thank you for opening up to me though. I’m glad you can tell me anything.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 28, 2020, 4:28 pm UTC
did you not want to tell people because you were embarrassed by me or did you never even like me enough to say it out loud?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 28, 2020, 3:41 am UTC
I wish you didn't take me so for granted, I'm so exhausted but I can't stop loving you. You're slowly killing me, please be gentle, I can't take it anymore.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 27, 2020, 2:39 pm UTC
I'm genuinely sorry i didnt treat you the way i was meant to, i was foolish and i wish i could take it back and redo it all over again.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 27, 2020, 1:52 pm UTC
I still wonder why you fell for my bestfriend and not me. I loved you so much and wanted to tell you so bad and I now regret it because your not even my friend anymore. I miss you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 27, 2020, 12:35 pm UTC
Hey, I acknowledged you. I know we're friends, but I don't remember things. That’s why I don't say anything. When I see messages like that I want to scream because I'm helpless.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 26, 2020, 11:17 pm UTC
I wish you realized how selfish you were being when you wanted me to love you even if you didn't even know what you wanted.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 26, 2020, 11:03 pm UTC
Even after everything you put me through, a part of me still secretly wishes that we can find our way back to each other one day.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 26, 2020, 10:33 pm UTC
its weird because i hate u so much but then i see something or hear something about u and it all just hits me so hard and makes my heart drop. i mean, man, we were so in love. two kids just crazy in love with eachother. u were my whole world marek. sometimes i just think back to the time we cried in eachothers arms, or when u would come up behind me and hug me and we would just sway back and forth. or how youd kiss me one million times just for fun. or when youd tickle me until i almost peed myself. or how you would run your hands through my hair. i miss the feeling of being in love with you when you loved me the same. when your head would be laying on my chest and youd fall asleep in my arms. id just lay there staring at you and taking in the moment thinking about how lucky i am to have someone who loves me so much. what we had was so special. no one really understood us except for us. you were my very best friend and you gave me purpose. it hurts me thinking back to how in love we were and that u meant so fucking much to me, and now we are just strangers. i hate u for what youve done to me and put me through, but a little piece of me will still always hurt. a little piece will always wish that u would have never fallen out of love with me and maybe we would have worked out.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 26, 2020, 9:01 pm UTC
m i love you so much. you're my favourite person and I'm so involve with you and everything about you. you will never see this but if you do hi lmao. you mean so much more to me then you think.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 26, 2020, 4:09 pm UTC
you broke me two years ago and i don't think i can ever be fixed. i can't even be happy with the person i love anymore
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 24, 2020, 9:52 pm UTC
I miss you more than anything, you left me behind but we could've been something amazing. i miss you i hope we can go back ?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 24, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
I need you so much in my life. You were my best friend and I can't live without you. I'm afraid of losing you completely.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 24, 2020, 6:04 pm UTC
oh yeah, also...
i’m sorry i didn’t choose you. i promise it was for the better... i wasn’t in the state of mind to date you yet.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 24, 2020, 12:16 am UTC
I used to feel sad because I thought I loved you. I actually loved that you loved me, but you didn't.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 23, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
I’m not sure if I love you, I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to love you but I wish I could because you are so deserving it would just never work out
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 23, 2020, 10:25 am UTC
You cheated on me, convinced me it wasn’t cheating, and made me feel like I was bad guy. you suffocated me, I don’t love you anymore.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 23, 2020, 7:39 am UTC
i realized a while back that we shouldn’t have crossed that line. maybe if we met at a different time we’d still be friends. but i don’t want you back in my life anymore.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 23, 2020, 3:34 am UTC
i still lay awake wondering how after all of that, u didn’t even care to say goodbye. i guess always & forever, mind and heart had different meanings for us.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 22, 2020, 2:54 am UTC
i really like you. you get me a lot. more than anyone else i think. you’re the flowers in my house. i wish i could tell you. but i’m already with someone i know i love a lot more. still, i want to listen to records on the floor with you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 22, 2020, 2:15 am UTC
I loved you for a very long time, even though I haven't seen you in years, I still feel the love like it was yesterday
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 21, 2020, 9:41 pm UTC
i told you i wanted you to find someone you wouldnt be scared of and you replied 'ur right' right about what?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 21, 2020, 12:50 pm UTC
I never got a message. Maybe it wasn't you. I hope it wasn't, I don't think I can handle it if it was you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 21, 2020, 3:44 am UTC
im not sure how to tell you this but here i tell you everyday that i love you but the thing is you dont know im in love with you when i bite my nails and you ask what im thinking about i tell you its about him but its not its about you or when i smile cause i hear your laugh and you ask why i smiled and i tell you cause it sounds funny its cause i think your just amazing or when i grabbed your waist in your room i was ready to risk it all honestly i know your happy with him and thats all i want for you but i just wish you knew how much i love you and wish you were happy with me instead
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 20, 2020, 9:04 pm UTC
thank you for showing me that the quality of a friendship is much greater than the amount of years of knowing them. Thank you for the best year?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 20, 2020, 6:19 pm UTC
why are you with him? you know what he did to me. M, it was rape. Why do you look at him with love and not fear?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 20, 2020, 6:57 am UTC
it’s been two years and i still get butterflies when i see you. we’re not together but sharing memories with you is enough
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 20, 2020, 3:41 am UTC
I miss you like crazy.. like the person you loved before you stopped loving me... I wish you still loved me...
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 19, 2020, 7:04 am UTC
hi , i’m sorry that i’m such a horrible friend you deserve better you don’t deserve something as shitty as me i’m sorry i wish i was better i fucking wish you deserve everything good in life
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 19, 2020, 3:01 am UTC
you know how my mom said there was someone walking around our school she wanted me to marry...it was you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 19, 2020, 12:57 am UTC
I will never forget the drive we took to the beach.
You’re a stranger now but I still feel the ocean breeze in my hair.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 11:05 pm UTC
i wish you knew how to have a real mature conversation about whatever it is this time. no matter what it is though im here. just next time, dont act like this again please. i dont think i could handle a fourth round of it and all the pain and confusion that comes with it. this ones pink cause thats the color era we were in.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 7:14 pm UTC
I was back today and looked to where you used to sit, I didn’t even mean to. Of course you weren’t there.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 12:46 pm UTC
we were just kids when we fell in love, but i still hope our paths cross again in the future. t’estimo.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 12:44 pm UTC
we were just kids when we fell in love, but i still hope our paths cross again in the future. t’estimo.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 6:22 am UTC
I still don’t understand why things happened the way they did...and I’d still take you back in a heartbeat
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 2:45 am UTC
i hate that i wasn’t good enough for you. i hate how we ended things. i hate knowing that if you called me right now i would answer, even after everything you put me through. i hate that i’ll probably never see you again. i hate seeing old pics of us together. i hate finding little things that remind me of you. i hate that every time i think i’m finally doing better, somehow i’m reminded of you and it all comes back. but most of all, i hate how i still love you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 18, 2020, 1:54 am UTC
u told me when u found out ur 1st thought was to end it all. & in that moment i knew i loved you & will forever.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 7:12 pm UTC
hey, how are you doing? i hope your boyfriend left you, i mean you did cheat on me for someone else just because they gave you attention. im sorry i wasnt the best for you, i hurt you so much just by being stubborn. to be honest i'd blame our breakup on me because of how i started to drift. i didn't think i'd need you so bad until i was slowly losing you to someone else. im sorry i was the worst girlfriend.
i wish i was there for you more like how you were there for me. i really wish things ended differently. i wish i showed how much i loved you. i wish things didn't go to hell and that you would still be there waiting for me. i always had that thought in the back of my head, i wasn't worth it, i didn't deserve your attention, i didn't deserve you. I have to many “wishes” on how i could've fixed things. If i showed you i loved you all those times i said i didn’t, would you have fallen a little more? I pushed you away in my times of need and hurt you just because i was scared.
“please i’d do anything for you to stay”
I wish we could’ve fallen in love again. I miss the times we’d stay up and talk all night. How you couldn’t stay up too long because of your parents, but it had been 6 am already. How you wanted to show me off so badly but didn’t want to give that impression. How you were so bad at 8ball and i always won yet there was something so endearing about watching you get a little mad. Remember when we played minecraft together? God we were both so terrible at it yet i enjoyed every second of it. Remember when we treated the cats like our kids? How you’d do sanrio pixel art in the middle of our survival world.
“i’ll take care of you forever”
the whispers of i love you’s at 3 am on a bad night. the constant reminders that we’d be together forever. i knew that one wasn’t true but it was cute how you’d get upset when i said we wouldn’t. It was such a long shot thinking i could keep you as mine for a long time. I met you in a time of need and didn’t think i’d need you so bad. It was the simple conversations for me, the occasional “asdkdjaka” to paragraphs of how much you loved me.
i really wish i didn’t let you go. even after our breakup we still talked :( you’ll always hold a special place in my heart. I’m sad that i couldn’t bring myself to block you and that i cried every night looking at our old convos.
“the love of my life and soulmate”
this message is getting too long. I just miss you that’s all. i tell myself that i’m over it but everytime i think about it, i really loved you too much and relationships would never be the same for me. i’ve said this before, this wouldn’t be the end of our love life’s, it’d just be the end of me wanting to love someone without constantly being scared of what’s to come. i was just comforted by the fact that you managed to loved me.
sometimes i want to go back in time and meet you again and just fall in love over and over again
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 5:32 am UTC
after everything u told me, i thought u would know not to do this of all things again. but here we are.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 5:29 am UTC
fuck u. from the bottom of my heart fuck u. u deserve all the shitty things in life. this isnt and never was my fault.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 3:31 am UTC
1 year ago I made you a mixtape with true love will find you in the end... I hope in the end you’ll love me back.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 2:27 am UTC
this is the last time im using this ok im not lying when i said this fucks w/ my head.
i cant bring myself to be the first one to do it
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 12:10 am UTC
mai ningú no ha aconseguit fer-me sentir com ho fas tu. tan de bo els nostres camins es tornin a trobar. t'estimo.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 17, 2020, 12:07 am UTC
we were just kids when we fell in love, but nowadays you're still my favorite person. you'll always be special. i hope our paths cross again in the future. t'estimo.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: September 16, 2020, 7:48 pm UTC
I can’t believe I still feel so deeply connected to you after all this time. I wish I would’ve told you how I feel.
