Unsent messages to M
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 17, 2020, 6:15 pm UTC
looking back, i feel stupid for not realizing it’s always been you. it always will be you. i’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 17, 2020, 5:10 am UTC
i’m not gonna put ur name on here. i just miss when we were bestfriends before anything more happened between us. u were always so understanding and always there for me. we shouldn’t have dated bc it messed things up. the things u said ab me and acted the way u did rlly hurt me. you’ve changed so much
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 17, 2020, 5:01 am UTC
I miss u, I still need u, and I love u, I think about u every day... Todos los días me preguntan por ti, come back love of my life.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 17, 2020, 1:16 am UTC
I miss the way you mocked me for the things I said Bc you said they were the cutest thing you have ever heard
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 15, 2020, 10:43 pm UTC
It’s been 4 years... I’m beginning to think I’ll never feel the way I felt about you with anybody else.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 15, 2020, 8:01 pm UTC
I fall in love with you every day since last year but you don’t know it because you think we are just friends. Call me
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 15, 2020, 11:34 am UTC
gracias por enseñarme a querer de verdad, nunca me creí capaz de hacerlo antes de conocerte, y gracias por hacerme sentir lo que me hiciste sentir. te quiero para siempre m.
N.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 15, 2020, 4:01 am UTC
i feel our love in the depths of my soul. with you, it feels like the color pink. ive never felt this before.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 14, 2020, 11:52 am UTC
I wish we had more time together, and I wish I had the courage to tell you how much I love you. Yes, I believe I've fallen in love with you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 14, 2020, 4:08 am UTC
I still love you and I wish you’d knew. The thought of you becoming a soldier makes my heart sink. Don’t say goodbye.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 14, 2020, 1:47 am UTC
You're so disrespectful, you taking me calling you out on your shit as 'crazy' or 'controlling' I'm just reacting to your actions, you constantly hurt me but I love you so I stay, It's almost like you're trying to constantly upset me, then when I express me being upset you act irritated, why do you do this? It's the small lies, they build up in my head and make me doubt myself completely. I can't get my head around why you did what you did, it destroyed me, why would you cheat on someone you love you just don't do that, You spread lies about me, let your family and friends hate me when you were cheating the whole time, you were being so sneaky, I suspected something but you told me you loved me yet I wasn't the only one you were saying that to. The day I saw it myself I physically felt my heart hurt, you destroyed me yet I'm still with you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 14, 2020, 1:25 am UTC
Demasiadas cosas. No podría explicar ni en mil mensajes todo lo que se genera al pensarte. Me marcaste para siempre , en demasiados sentidos. No te amo, al menos ya no pero esta claro que aprendí a hacerlo a tu lado, y desde entonces me ha sido imposible. Tengo miedo de que en mi interior , un temor más profundo de lo que pienso y totalmente inconsciente me lleve a evitar el amor. Como defensa , como escudo. Me hiciste vivir en un paraíso solo para dejarme claro de que la felicidad no era para mi, y me abandonaste sola luchando conmigo misma. Ante todo eras mi amigo. Yo te quería.
No he vuelto a amar , a amar de verdad, sin miedo y sinceramente .
No he vuelto a vivir un buen momento sin compararlos con los que pasaba cuando estabas en mi vida. Te perdí a ti, pero después de darme cuenta de que solo te idealizaba, vi que la que se había perdido era yo.
He pasado por muchas cosas, y todas podrían tener su origen en ti, de una forma u otra. Me destroza pensar que fuiste, y siempre serás de la personas más importantes y más devastadoras de mi vida, para bien o para mal.
Te he superado , sin duda podría tenerte delante y ni siquiera querer verte la cara, pero no he superado la avalancha de caos que se desembocó tras de ti, estoy en ello, construyendo día a día , luchando y tratando de volver a mi. Creo que lo estoy consiguiendo en cierto modo; pero esa chica, la que tú conociste y te dio igual romper es muy posible que muriese en el pasado , en el momento en el que te diste la vuelta sin dignarte a mirad hacia atrás para ver lo que dejabas. Me da miedo no volver a sentirme tan viva , han entregada a la vida, han honesta, sincera y realizada conmigo misma, tan segura e ilusionada. Me da miedo pensar que te di tantísimo poder.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 14, 2020, 12:22 am UTC
It’s funny think you saved my life and at the same time you made me so fucking sad , but i can’t stop love you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 10:05 pm UTC
even tho we’re done you still catch my eye before class everyday and deep down i’m hoping i still catch yours
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 7:14 pm UTC
I know it’s been months but I still miss your blue eyes traveling down my skin.
You made me feel worthy, but I don’t think I need you anymore.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 2:53 pm UTC
i told my mom today how i'm sad 'cause i can feel our friendship drifting apart and that i know only i can notice it. she told me it's okay to be sad and that maybe you were a friend who only wanted something temporary. maybe she's right. maybe i should start accepting that fact. sorry for caring so much. stupid of me to believe that everything was real.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 9:23 am UTC
thank you so much for the time you've spent talking to me & for tolerating me. thank you for making me happy and for the times i get to look forward to your messages no matter how random it is. the start of our friendship was truly the best and i wish i could relive those times again. i guess lately it really just isn't the same with us and i understand that. i won't push anything further between us anymore. i'm sorry and thank you, bud. :)
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 9:10 am UTC
i still don't know how to process what we have. you make me feel happy one second and sad the next. i wish you could just tell me the truth with where i stand with you currently.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 8:38 am UTC
i'm sorry if i couldn't take your hints that you want to end this already. maybe it's time i do face the truth.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 13, 2020, 4:06 am UTC
please stop asking if we can catch up. i don't want to talk to you. the breakup lasted three months because you would not take no for an answer. don't you understand that there's two people in this scenario? bruh all i wanna do is move to another continent so i never have to deal with you jesus christ i get that you're hurting and i was one of the only people who tried to understand but we're broken up!!! you made me feel like shit for being myself and i simply never want to speak to you again xoxo
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 12, 2020, 9:46 pm UTC
I'm sorry that I don't remember our first time. I'm sorry that I don't even know at what age I lost my virginity with you. I've done a fucking great job... I'm sorry that I don't feel the same anymore :(
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 12, 2020, 9:28 pm UTC
You are the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I don't even know if I love you anymore.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 12, 2020, 5:56 pm UTC
No puedo creer que tú fuiste él, pensaba que se iba a sentir como un sueño, las mariposa en el estómago o como muchos describen su historia de amor "mágico", creo que si hubieron momentos mágicos pero son los que menos hubiera deseado tener contigo
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 12, 2020, 5:22 pm UTC
i think we were each other’s person. maybe in another life it would have worked out. i love you always
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 12, 2020, 6:30 am UTC
You showed me that movie type love exists. Now I get to watch those memories like old film reels. Thank you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 11, 2020, 11:24 pm UTC
Seeing you grow makes me prouder than you could ever know, but the fact that it’s without me shatters my world.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 11, 2020, 10:46 pm UTC
Everytime I See a couple getting together after a lifetime it reminds me how we thought this will be us...
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 11, 2020, 10:33 pm UTC
you broke my heart. not what you did and i dont even know why you did it. i honestly dont really care. you broke me because you were willing to lose me. you should lose me. but i cant lose you. i thought you had more respect for me. i cant believe you thought so poorly of me. i cant believe im still worried about your feelings. i wish i cared less.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 11, 2020, 1:14 am UTC
I love you, and I know I shouldn't feel what I feel, but I do. I hope you find someone who loves you like I would, in another life
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 10, 2020, 10:59 pm UTC
even though you forgave me i still hate myself for hurting you. i pray that we reconnect with time. you’re my rose garden
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 10, 2020, 4:21 am UTC
I love u and I still want u I’m just scared of getting hurt and u leaving for another girl cause there’s too many to count no matter what u say
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 10, 2020, 3:33 am UTC
You dedicated me we fell in October but something inside me feels that it was only because you felt sorry for me :-(
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 11:48 pm UTC
i made you a playlist. You didn't like it. I guess I'm your favourite playlist. You sure like to play me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 11:16 pm UTC
I fucking loved the shit out of you, but she makes me happier. maybe it’s better this way, hope you’ll find someone to love.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 10:02 am UTC
Nunca entendí realmente lo que pasó entre nosotros, a veces me jode que parezca que sigo pillada por ti. Creo que me confundo, no te echo de menos a ti, echo de menos querer a alguien como te quería a ti.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 8:19 am UTC
u made me feel worthless bc of the way u left me, but i wasnt the problem, u are, stop being such an asshole and go to therapy, u need it
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 7:18 am UTC
i don’t understand you. you say you never catch feelings but regularly talk to your ex. do you even want to hang out with me? do i even like you?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 6:52 am UTC
You were lucky to have me love you. You were privileged that I loved you enough to not hurt you and destroy your life like you did mine. You should be thankful I walked away protecting your reputation. Will never expose you to anyone and will forever take your secrets to my grave. That’s a promise.
- m, in another life.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 4:05 am UTC
i never thought i'd feel like this again, thank you for reminding me what it felt like to have butterflies.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 9, 2020, 2:35 am UTC
I know we’ve never had a relationship and I know you’ve never looked at me romantically. But I think I love you, I know we’re best friends and it’s wrong but I love you. I’ll probably never tell you that but it’s killing me that you don’t know. I love you and I just want you to hold me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 11:36 pm UTC
No hay mas comunicacion entre nosotros dos, pero aún así me siento conectada a vos. Como un teléfono a una línea que no esta pagada. Las llamadas llegan, pero no puedo mandar señales yo.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 7:10 pm UTC
i shouldn't have gone back to you. i hate you and i hate the tattoo i have of your name. im getting it removed.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 6:38 pm UTC
u r just a fuckboy, u left me with so many issues and my bf doesnt deserve to repair what u ve broken. he s such a lovely guy and he deserves the world. fuck you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 5:26 pm UTC
we had matching red phone cases. I still have your Face ID on my phone. I miss you even tho u hurt me :/
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 3:27 pm UTC
me alejé de ti porque eras una persona maravillosa y me asustaba enamorarme realmente de ti y jamás ser correspondida. espero algún día poder regalarte un maruchan
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 4:38 am UTC
I want to kiss you so badly but, I’m so scared to make the first move because I want it to be perfect.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 1:05 am UTC
i was with you as we felt the country shift towards a better future. i have no doubt we will spend that future together
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 8, 2020, 12:07 am UTC
i rented ur favorite movie but i dont have the guts to watch it. im afraid i'll realize i made a big mistake. only after i left i realized ur the only one who really got me. im afraid i'll realize our timing was all wrong and now we have no time left. i still think about u sometimes
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 7, 2020, 11:08 pm UTC
i wonder if i would have done something more we would be together but i guess i was afraid to lose you as a friend
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 7, 2020, 9:30 pm UTC
I love you so much even though you were no good for me. I can’t seem to forget about you..I hope you’re doing well out there.
