I used to write about you here when we were in love. Now you don't love me anymore, but I keep writing about you.

It hurts to know I have to move on. That I need to stop thinking about you so much. And looking for you in everyone else. Cause you don't feel the same way anymore..or you just never did.

you texted me the other day as if 7 months of being ghosted had not occurred. i want to go back but i know i shouldn't.

You did not deserve all this.

And u still don’t know how special u are.You see it in others but overlook it so recklessly in u that it hurts.

I reveal only so much that nobody can hurt me since the very essence is always hidden.

And u should not have had to deal with it.

I hope u are happy now & I am despite all so grateful for what u gave. It‘s appreciated. It always was.

And that was all that I was trying to tell u all along. Nothing more nothing less.

I still love my freedom. I still chase highs. I still have my own dreams to fulfill & my own money to make.

Love, Ally

P.S.: but ur fking rude so try to get a grip on that - but I know ur match will take care of that. She’s wonderful!

you broke my heart and made my soul shatter into pieces... it took me 4 years to realize that it made me the person who i am today, better and stronger...thanks

you changed my life and i'm still trying to figure out if it was for the better or worse but i know i'll never forget you or leave you bby i love you

Maybe if we met when we were older we would’ve worked out. I think of you often. I’ll always remember us that way

I love you so fkn much, but still i ask myself daily if it wouldn’t be better if we never talked again.

please stop asking if we can catch up. i don't want to talk to you. the breakup lasted three months because you would not take no for an answer. don't you understand that there's two people in this scenario? bruh all i wanna do is move to another continent so i never have to deal with you jesus christ i get that you're hurting and i was one of the only people who tried to understand but we're broken up!!! you made me feel like shit for being myself and i simply never want to speak to you again xoxo

I don’t believe you ever actually loved me I think you just got lonely at night and loved the fact that I love you

You taught me how to be loved and that I deserve to be loved. No matter how our relationship goes, I will forever love you

I told you to chose me or her and you chose her. I thought that you would have chosen me and now I’m absolutely broken. I just wish I was good enough

lamento haber sido tan mierda contigo, sí te quería pero no supe como actuar y terminé alejandote, perdón u u

I didn‘t love u since I don’t know u but you feel like no other & u fascinate me I can’t explain.
I just can‘t get rid of you.

But I love my freedom & I want to live my life on my own terms.

I know that’s selfish so I don‘t contact u anymore. „Free spirit“ like I said

Ally

I’m really confused as to what we are and where we stand. I’m constantly hearing all sorts of things about you that wouldn’t be considered good. Like you’re hot as fuck don’t get me wrong but I want to help you and you’re not letting me. A part of me wants to kill you, another part wants to kiss you, another part wants to help you. I shouldn’t even be feeling any of this. But fuck. I hate you. Sometimes.

you claim to love me, but you left during my lowest time. u were mad i didn't love you back. that's not love. that's selfish.

you said you've been thinking about leaving for 3 weeks. but why did you have to do it 2 hours before my bday...

ik i messed up. i should’ve tried harder. i miss you but now you want her and it hurts because i was happier with you.

ik i messed up. i should’ve tried harder. i miss you but now you want her and it hurts because i was happier with you.

Me enseñaste que era el amor, pero también la desilusión y el dolor. Me hiciste sentir insegura de quien era y ahora yo soy la mala por decidir pensar en mí. Ojala no nos volvamos a cruzar en mi próxima vida. D.

i'm sorry if i couldn't take your hints that you want to end this already. maybe it's time i do face the truth.

i still don't know how to process what we have. you make me feel happy one second and sad the next. i wish you could just tell me the truth with where i stand with you currently.

thank you so much for the time you've spent talking to me & for tolerating me. thank you for making me happy and for the times i get to look forward to your messages no matter how random it is. the start of our friendship was truly the best and i wish i could relive those times again. i guess lately it really just isn't the same with us and i understand that. i won't push anything further between us anymore. i'm sorry and thank you, bud. :)

Orange isn’t our color, but it’s u and I owe u that for what I’m about to make I go through
Just remember, u’ll always be a part of me and I miss u already
It’s time

Tengo el puto corazón diciéndome su nombre al oído siempre, empiezo a cansarme, creo que hasta tengo miedo de hartarme de usted, de ya no querer saber más de usted.
La quiero porque si, la quiero en mis malos ratos, y en los buenos la querré también, todavía la quiero, por si le quedaba la duda, tengo mil mensajes que no he mandado, pero los guardo, y este sin duda es el más importante, no sé si es una despedida, un hasta pronto o no sé lo que sea, sigo pensando en usted y mi corazón se acelera como la primera vez, es tan extraño, tan lindo, y tan doloroso, a usted la quiero cuando no me quiero ni yo, la quiero hasta cuándo no debería, cuando tengo mil preguntas en mi cabeza, sus ojos cafés me dan todas las respuestas solo con mirarlos un segundo, en cosas tan simples lo encuentro todo, usted siendo una persona tan sencilla me atrapó, quizá después de todo eso, simplemente no eras para mi, es seguro que no debí haberte amado tanto, como dicen "Fuimos un cuento breve que leeré una y mil veces", sigo esperando mensajes que nunca recibí

It was unfair for you to say I was temporary and expect me to stay. And I did. The more I forgived you the more I lost myself. I’ve made peace with us but sometimes I still have flashbacks and that’s something I’ll have to deal with

you made me see galaxies i never thought i could. thank you for being honest. even if it broke me.
always n forever

i was so in love with u let u hurt me over and over just so u would be happy now u walk past me like we’ve never met.

i told my mom today how i'm sad 'cause i can feel our friendship drifting apart and that i know only i can notice it. she told me it's okay to be sad and that maybe you were a friend who only wanted something temporary. maybe she's right. maybe i should start accepting that fact. sorry for caring so much. stupid of me to believe that everything was real.

you never said
"i love you" back, but i want to believe you did.
I want to believe that i made you as happy as you made me during the year.
It was a lonely time for everyone, was that the reason? were you just feeling lonely?

I know it’s been months but I still miss your blue eyes traveling down my skin.
You made me feel worthy, but I don’t think I need you anymore.

merci de m'avoir appris à aimer de nouveau. même si je me suis brûlée les ailes, j'ai presque pu toucher le soleil.

even tho we’re done you still catch my eye before class everyday and deep down i’m hoping i still catch yours

It’s funny think you saved my life and at the same time you made me so fucking sad , but i can’t stop love you

i can't tell if i miss you or if i just miss being a child but everytime i see a my little pony i think of you. i wish i could reflect on memories with you but you are probably embarrassed to have known me. you look so happy now, never fix the gap between your front teeth. thank you for the best four years ever.

Demasiadas cosas. No podría explicar ni en mil mensajes todo lo que se genera al pensarte. Me marcaste para siempre , en demasiados sentidos. No te amo, al menos ya no pero esta claro que aprendí a hacerlo a tu lado, y desde entonces me ha sido imposible. Tengo miedo de que en mi interior , un temor más profundo de lo que pienso y totalmente inconsciente me lleve a evitar el amor. Como defensa , como escudo. Me hiciste vivir en un paraíso solo para dejarme claro de que la felicidad no era para mi, y me abandonaste sola luchando conmigo misma. Ante todo eras mi amigo. Yo te quería.
No he vuelto a amar , a amar de verdad, sin miedo y sinceramente .
No he vuelto a vivir un buen momento sin compararlos con los que pasaba cuando estabas en mi vida. Te perdí a ti, pero después de darme cuenta de que solo te idealizaba, vi que la que se había perdido era yo.
He pasado por muchas cosas, y todas podrían tener su origen en ti, de una forma u otra. Me destroza pensar que fuiste, y siempre serás de la personas más importantes y más devastadoras de mi vida, para bien o para mal.
Te he superado , sin duda podría tenerte delante y ni siquiera querer verte la cara, pero no he superado la avalancha de caos que se desembocó tras de ti, estoy en ello, construyendo día a día , luchando y tratando de volver a mi. Creo que lo estoy consiguiendo en cierto modo; pero esa chica, la que tú conociste y te dio igual romper es muy posible que muriese en el pasado , en el momento en el que te diste la vuelta sin dignarte a mirad hacia atrás para ver lo que dejabas. Me da miedo no volver a sentirme tan viva , han entregada a la vida, han honesta, sincera y realizada conmigo misma, tan segura e ilusionada. Me da miedo pensar que te di tantísimo poder.

You're so disrespectful, you taking me calling you out on your shit as 'crazy' or 'controlling' I'm just reacting to your actions, you constantly hurt me but I love you so I stay, It's almost like you're trying to constantly upset me, then when I express me being upset you act irritated, why do you do this? It's the small lies, they build up in my head and make me doubt myself completely. I can't get my head around why you did what you did, it destroyed me, why would you cheat on someone you love you just don't do that, You spread lies about me, let your family and friends hate me when you were cheating the whole time, you were being so sneaky, I suspected something but you told me you loved me yet I wasn't the only one you were saying that to. The day I saw it myself I physically felt my heart hurt, you destroyed me yet I'm still with you

Orange isn’t our color, we’re a mess, how could it be
But it’s u, and I owe u this for what I’m about to make u go through
I’m heartbroken
I’ll miss u more than u can imagine and I don’t even know if I want u to miss me
D

i hate you for what you did, i hate the 'nice guy" act you maintain, i hate what you left me with. it wasn't worth it.

I still love you and I wish you’d knew. The thought of you becoming a soldier makes my heart sink. Don’t say goodbye.

I would have liked to take care of you while you were sleeping and to be every time your chest ached from dreaming that your heart stopped beating

i want to be the reason that u cry urself to sleep. i want to be the only thing that keeps u up, i want u to think about me until it hurts, like u’ve tattooed my name onto ur heart.
i want to watch the stars with u, i want to watch the world turn, watch time pass, watch the time pass by and watch thunderstorms come and go.
i want to cook for u and read to u and kiss u in only the way u kiss people that u love, i want to hear u moan my name bcs ur mine and i’m urs. i don’t believe so much in souls but h belong to me as much as i belong to u.
i want to get high and call u at the most ungodly times and have u pick up bcs yk and u need to hear my voice as much as i need to hear urs, bcs i need to know that u exist and that what we have is real and that there is some comfort from how cold this life is, regardless of everything else, i have u.

You were my best friend, I could call you at any time and you would answer. Then after that one week it all went wrong. A lot of times I wish that never happened and I could just call you. But I don’t think we could ever get that back if we tried. Thank you for teaching me both love and pain

i'm over you but there's a part of me that never stops thinking of you. And I hate it bc you don't think of me at all. you don't deverve it after all the shit you put me through. Wish I could hate you but I could never.

i lowkey miss you even if we’re still friends and talk from time to time but it’s just not the same :( we’re not as close anymore

I wish we had more time together, and I wish I had the courage to tell you how much I love you. Yes, I believe I've fallen in love with you.

i’ll always have love for you no matter what but i’ve obviously moved on just that love for you will always be there.

It still itches, the way we´re not talking at all even tho we ended things on good terms. It hurts not knowing if you had moved on, or if you´re feeling as bad as i do everyday i wake up without you.
Sometimes i feel stronger than others, but the emptiness remains. I wish i could know what you thing about this situation, because is fucking killing me.
You said you were not in love with me, and even tho i keep reminding myself that it should make things clear.
I still think you did love me, i could feel it through your eyes.
It´s been months since you left, when are you gonna leave my mind?

I miss our late night talks, i hope u don´t get bored of me, even though i feel like you are getting now.

It’s been three months and you’ve moved on. -hope she makes you happy
- i wish I didn’t care. Take care.