Unsent messages to M

It's been a year since everything happened, thanks for everything but I wish I hadn't opened that message.

I miss you. I go through stages of being furious with you for everything you did, and then deeply aching for you with all of my being. I wish we could go back in time, to when everything was perfect

I miss you. I go through stages of being furious with you for everything you did, and then deeply aching for you with all of my being. I wish we could go back in time, to when everything was perfect

I can’t be with you because I know I’ll hurt you and it kills me because I know we would be great together.

i know it’s for the best. but i really wish it wasn’t. i’ll always love you, i just want you to be happy and okay.

And yet I want to go back to that night, tell you that I love you, give it a try. But I’m here and I’ll never forget the stars above us when you said that you’ll be fine.

I think I need to go to therapy and talk to someone about you. I am still so angry after all these years.

so well...um hi
maybe i regret leaving you ?
maybe i just realise now what i had with you ?
maybe its hurting just now lol idk whats wrong but i cant with the fact that you moved on.
I was the one leaving but im realising just now how much im missing your texts and your smile and the way you think & see the world.
Well ig now im the one who has to let go of you so yeah

i wish i knew what you're thinking. i know i wasn't the only one that felt something. ps i'm holding you to that rex or clairo concert

I don’t miss u. I miss the memories we made and I mistake my happiness associated with those for feelings for u and I wish I didn’t

It hurts to know that when i had moved on after all of these years u're still clueless of how much i loved u and how much u hurt me.

it’s been about a year since we broke up. Why can’t I stop thinking about you? I try and find you in ever person . You’ve moved on so I am choosing to say it here and not to your face .

you didnt see it but when we were cuddling yesterday and you said you loved me, i cried. i thought that i was dreaming.

i cant get you out of my head, everything reminds me of you and eveyrthing keeps taking me back to, you. I know ill never have you but theres just something so great about you and it seems like ill forever think of you. but ur a dick and you dont deserve me so.... this is goodbye, i cant ever look back becasue everytime i do you hurt me even tho u dont see it, i should stop snapping you, its unhealthy. so goodbye, ill no longer try get ur attention at surfing or shull, ill stop giving you mysterious looks and ill stop trying to look nice for you. theres no going back babe. youll forever be that mysterious guy i think i used to love.

Thank you for showing me what it means to love and how it feels to be loved. You make my heart so happy.

do you remember laying on the ground that night like nothing else mattered except us?
i still love you...

I think I fall in love with you too soon. I love you since we first met and I know some day you will know that.

It hurts so bad that everything is too complicated around us. All I want is a chance for us to be together and have fun because life is so short.

It still itches, the way we´re not talking at all even tho we ended things on good terms. It hurts not knowing if you had moved on, or if you´re feeling as bad as i do everyday i wake up without you.
Sometimes i feel stronger than others, but the emptiness remains. I wish i could know what you thing about this situation, because is fucking killing me.
You said you were not in love with me, and even tho i keep reminding myself that it should make things clear.
I still think you did love me, i could feel it through your eyes.
It´s been months since you left, when are you gonna leave my mind?

i’ll always have love for you no matter what but i’ve obviously moved on just that love for you will always be there.

i'm over you but there's a part of me that never stops thinking of you. And I hate it bc you don't think of me at all. you don't deverve it after all the shit you put me through. Wish I could hate you but I could never.

who would've thought that your words would've pierced me in the most intoxicating and painful way ever?

you seem like such a perfect person. i feel as if i could do something and you’d leave. but you’re in love with her, she prettier and i understand. i just wish she hadn’t of introduced us

I really thought that we were meant to be, and let you hurt me many times.
I would let you do it again.

You probably will never see this but you made me realize my worth and beauty. Even though we teased each other on a daily, you made me smile and it was worth it. Hope you are happy because you deserve it

im so tired of being lonely. and I thought you felt the same. turns out you have plenty of new friends.

you’ll forever be my moonlight. maybe someday i’ll be something like that to you if not then something like that again..

hey, i love you. but i don’t think i can do it anymore. i dont think i can be the person you deserve. im not in love with you like you are with me and it hurts both of us. i deserve no one and you deserve better. i think that this week im telling you this. im tired of seeing you sad because im crying and unstable, when you deserve someone you can laugh with. i will love you forever, as a friend, as a person. thank you for all the good times, for being my first love. you are incredible and i wish that you show that lucky girl the same (or even more) love that you showed me. love you always

I wish u came in my life when i was okay, sooner or later in life. I wish you could kiss me while holding me one more time and tell me how my eyes make u want to kiss me. I wish I was over him at the time. Thank you for this summer. I wish I told you I loved you.

I wish I appreciated you more, enjoyed us and tried to work it out.
You were perfect I was just not over my ex.

you fucking broke me and me think it was my fault. you were my one source of happiness but then you left me broken. because you thought it was funny. i was always a joke to you meanwhile you were my everything. my one and forever. i will always miss you even when i find someone else. i love you now and forever.

You broke me. you always made me think it was my fault. you didn't even allow me to see my friends or do the things that made me happy.

hello, i know we haven't talked and i can tell you're angry and upset. How did you change so quickly? you were kind and caring and you genuinely loved me. What made you change? was it me did i do something. i don't still love you but sometimes i wonder if things could've been different if you stayed.you hurt me you caused me pain but you were also the reason for the best 4 months of my life. i hope you're happy now. and make her as happy as you made me...

you were my rock, my best friend, and my first love. Always there to pick me up after another bad day. yet i found a way to fuck up what we had. it's been 2 years since we last talked and i miss you more each day. Im sorry that i was afraid to dive into a relationship with you, after all ive been through i thought i didnt deserve you. I asked for some time to figure out what was going on between us but you gave up on us before i could ever tell you i loved you. and now youre with another girl one that i considered to be a friend. I know i can't take my actions back but i only wish you true happiness and that some day i get over you. youll always have a place in my heart. I love you and i wish i couldve told you that before it was too late

hi
you don't do that, you dont do what you just did. that shit hurt so much its nice to know that im just gonna be put on the side because you found an attraction for my best friend who now i dont even trust anymore. thanks for fucking me over.

We used to watch the stars and wonder where our place was there.Please look up again. Even if it’s not with me.

you were my first everything. i keep waiting for you to come back. i keep hoping you will. but i break a little more each day you dont. im in a weird place from wanting to move on and wanting to run into you arms and have you never let go. you were my safe space. my happiness. and now i dont have that. i dont have you. and i miss you more than i can put into words. i would have given you the moon if i could. i dont know why it was so easy for you to leave me when i was so invested in you. i love you and i miss you. you are on my mind constantly. even in my dreams. you have shown up in every single one since you left. we've been apart now longer than we were even together but i still think about every moment i spent with you. sometimes i hate that you show up in my dreams every night. but its the only time i get to spend with you now. even if its a false reality.

hey, I hope u know that I really love and enjoy talking to u everyday. im sorry i didnt have the chance to tell u that.

I don't need you but I want you. you gave me so much attention but now you fucking leave me on mf delivered. LIKE BITCH YOU HIT ME UP FIRST TF DOES THAT MEAN FOR YOU IGNORE ME. I am so much better than you and you know that I am everything you ever dreamed of so wtf is up. I don't know if you think that by doing that you are saving me from yourself but bitch I like your toxic self you stupid as mf. Please stop hurting me, ok? xoxo

i thought i loved him until i met u. then i realised that wasn’t love because it wasn’t with you and that’s the only love i want.

I liked you before you liked me. I found an excuse to send you the message first. I never send the first message. You just got into my head. At first I fell in love with the first impression of an inaccessible boy whose personality trait was smoking. I didn't know if I wanted to be in a relationship. I'm not good at words. By what I do I show how I feel. I'm still working on myself. I wanted someone to support me no matter what. You got bored of me. You got even worse in my head. I was thinking of you when a song from The Weeknd came out. I don't feel anything now. I went over it when I realized that I liked an idea created in my head. I'm still thinking of sending you a message to tell you what I didn't have the courage to tell you a few months ago but I remember that I deserve more. It was not meant to be.

hello:) yes i like you. i just wanted to let you know because the one who told you that i liked you wasn't even me. but I'm scared. I'm scared of what will happen in the future, of a heartbreak, of you rejecting me... so i don't know if i really want you more then a crush. ofcours i want to be in a relationship with you, but I'm just scared because this will be my first serious relationship. kinda embarrassing i know?. i just wanted to let you know. byeee:)

The mornings where we would wake up and just stare at each other while we make faces as you put your cheek on my hand is all I want

i just wish you would love me back. i always look at what you are doing at school but you don't even care about what i am doing and you also know that i like you, so why are you acting like i don't exist at all

I always told myself I didn’t like you but when I realised did like you I didn’t know I would miss you lol

I miss how special u made me feel and I miss talking to u like u were here with me. Being friends, hurts it’s not the same anymore and it’s Hard for me to talk to u

i don't care how bad you loved me, you showed me what love isn't and i'm glad i'm better now because of me not you.

M, I still think about you everyday. You know I have soft spot for you. I really want to talk to you cause you were my bestfriend.

I wish I had just told you how I felt when you did. It's too late now and all I want is you back but I cant hurt anyone.

I was a child, I didn't knew how to show my emotions towards you. When I realized it was late. I still love u.