Unsent messages to M
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 8:53 pm UTC
I wish I could hate u, but I can‘t.
I wonder how many more years u’ll be the reason I can’t find love.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 6:43 pm UTC
Read it. Read it, you bastard, like you said you would, or will it become another loss I am forced to accept?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 6:29 pm UTC
I never thought I’d miss someone like I miss you... but they still make me feel bad, for being with someone like you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 5:33 pm UTC
things were confusing , I tried too forget you. But I love you , and I’m dying because I don’t know if you love me too.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 5:59 am UTC
I miss our late night talks, i hope u don´t get bored of me, even though i feel like you are getting now.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 1, 2020, 1:50 am UTC
I would have liked to take care of you while you were sleeping and to be every time your chest ached from dreaming that your heart stopped beating
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 9:54 pm UTC
merci de m'avoir appris à aimer de nouveau. même si je me suis brûlée les ailes, j'ai presque pu toucher le soleil.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 8:33 pm UTC
you never said
"i love you" back, but i want to believe you did.
I want to believe that i made you as happy as you made me during the year.
It was a lonely time for everyone, was that the reason? were you just feeling lonely?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:03 pm UTC
I didn‘t love u since I don’t know u but you feel like no other & u fascinate me I can’t explain.
I just can‘t get rid of you.
But I love my freedom & I want to live my life on my own terms.
I know that’s selfish so I don‘t contact u anymore. „Free spirit“ like I said
Ally
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 10:19 am UTC
You did not deserve all this.
And u still don’t know how special u are.You see it in others but overlook it so recklessly in u that it hurts.
I reveal only so much that nobody can hurt me since the very essence is always hidden.
And u should not have had to deal with it.
I hope u are happy now & I am despite all so grateful for what u gave. It‘s appreciated. It always was.
And that was all that I was trying to tell u all along. Nothing more nothing less.
I still love my freedom. I still chase highs. I still have my own dreams to fulfill & my own money to make.
Love, Ally
P.S.: but ur fking rude so try to get a grip on that - but I know ur match will take care of that. She’s wonderful!
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 9:43 am UTC
I found that no matter what u say or do, if people want to stick to a specific version of u there’s no point in convincing them otherwise.
And that hurts.
Ur such a special Person. I‘m glad u found ur match & I wish nothing but the best for u two.
I really do. Sorry.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 6:28 am UTC
sometimes our songs comes on the radio. and for a moment i just sing and forget all the memories, but as soon as i hear that line, it all comes flooding back.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:29 am UTC
you were the best thing for me, but yet the worst, i wish it could be the same but you know it cant and you know what you did
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 30, 2020, 5:28 am UTC
i miss you, i do, no matter how hard i try to not i do, you hurt me so bad i just don’t know how i can’t hate you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 29, 2020, 10:51 pm UTC
I still loving you but not in the same way, also this it's not bad, be happy and don't push me away from your life plis
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 29, 2020, 8:37 pm UTC
Did u realize that u manipulized me with those little secrets?
But that was fake
&
I wish I could hate you for it.
But I can‘t.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 29, 2020, 8:32 pm UTC
I will never forget the way you looked at me every time you saw me, and sometimes I think you still do. I think I will never stop loving you, and I hate that in some ways you know.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 29, 2020, 8:26 pm UTC
Me siento demasiado segura a tu lado, ojalá sintieras lo mismo que yo pero sé que no, te quiero, ojalá nunca haber contestado a aquella llamada
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 27, 2020, 5:04 am UTC
stop making excuses for yourself, you enable yourself and then make people feel bad for you and then make more excuses later on. if you were serious about what you say you were you would act upon your problems and fix them. the world is not going to dance around you forever, you need to realize this
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 27, 2020, 4:15 am UTC
you were the one that healed me and you were the one that broke me, life will never be fair on both sides
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 26, 2020, 8:51 am UTC
I’m glad you don’t blame me, but I still blame myself sometimes. I genuinely liked talking to you. I think things just moved too quickly, and I wasn’t ready. I shouldn’t have been so harsh.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 26, 2020, 8:05 am UTC
i miss you. even if it was just a friendship i still miss you. i feel terrible about what i did and i want you back in my life.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 26, 2020, 3:29 am UTC
La vida nos junto para que aprendiéramos el uno del otro pero no nos hizo para estar juntos, se feliz "amigo". Te quiero aunque nunca te lo haya dicho.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 26, 2020, 1:47 am UTC
I fucking miss who you were but I don't even recognize you now. I guess you could say the same ab me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 25, 2020, 4:00 pm UTC
your the only person who made me realise that i wasn’t made to be loved. yet to love. broke a friendship over nothing.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 25, 2020, 2:39 pm UTC
fuiste la primera, la primera con la que soñé, la única con la que pude llorar y reír sabiendo que no me ibas a juzgar
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 25, 2020, 8:11 am UTC
I love you and I will continue to love you despite all the damage you did to me in the past.
The connection I have with you I will never have with someone else.
I know that the only thing you want is to confuse me or at least that shows, I would like to return with you, but I know that if I do, I would lose, hurt and heartbroken again. I feel that the only thing I would do would be to doubt you, your words, everything, after what happened I no longer know whether to believe what you say, I know that I am not the girl you want now, I have tried so many times to fall in love again like I did once, but things will never be the same again, when something breaks even if they hit it again it stays the same, and so I, I broke, but little by little I am healing, not yet I am the person I want, I don't even look like I want, but I am moving forward.
I also want to stop talking to you, I don't want to have problems with myself again, but I'm afraid that if I do, I might regret it, so I don't know what to do.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 25, 2020, 2:28 am UTC
I don't understand why I feel so scared of losing you when we've already broken up for over a month. It's not like I can lose you again.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 25, 2020, 1:31 am UTC
oceans apart but always see the same moon. my love forever lives in your heart. same gold anchor around our necks.
- forever yours, d
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 10:39 pm UTC
Sigo esperandote, no paro de pensar en todo lo que pudo ser y no pudo, ojalá siguieras acordandote de mi cada vez que pasas por el ojalá, yo no paro de verte en todos los sitios donde fuimos felices, te quiero
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 9:42 pm UTC
Contigo sentía que había luz en la gran oscuridad que me rodeaba pero ahora que estoy sin tí se que soy valiente.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 9:30 pm UTC
there's already physical distance between us. why the silence?
how can we be strangers if you've seen my soul?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 8:12 pm UTC
after you hurt me i forgave you, and every time the hurt from what you did comes back, i keep going to you for comfort. how fucked up is that.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 6:40 pm UTC
i know you won't ever see this but I wanted to say that I love you and still are waiting for you to text me. I know you've hurt me in the past but I'm willing to give you a second chance.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 4:30 pm UTC
Thank you for teaching me to let go. I was only hurting myself by caring much more about you than you ever cared about me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 12:37 pm UTC
most days i feel like i cant breathe, i'm a mess without you. you mean so much to me and i hope your flying high
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 7:24 am UTC
I wish you knew how much you mean to me. I know you but you have no idea who I really am. I plan to keep it that way so you will keep loving me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 2:08 am UTC
I wish you could love me like I love you. It hurts to know that we'll never be together, but i have faith in another life i might have a chance. I hope you find someone that can make you happy, because unfortunately, I can't.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 2:03 am UTC
it hurt so much seeing you touch her in front of me. why am i still dating you? why cant i leave you??
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 24, 2020, 12:06 am UTC
please don't leave.. I don't think you understand when I say I'll be here forever I promised I keep promises.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 11:38 pm UTC
I hope you find someone out there who will treat u better then I did. I miss you sm man. I wish I was enough for you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 10:50 pm UTC
we've been talking for so long and i think i love you. lol
im just so scared you're going to stop talking to me when you leave
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 10:36 pm UTC
? your name still has the black heart. I'm really sorry for all the drama i've caused. But i don't regret any of it if it would mean we wouldn't have had our little thing. I really liked u and low key miss h eventhough u didn't see a future with me. I do hope i did mean sonething to you. But i guess we'll never know. We're friends now and i'm 1000% ok with it. I m not causing drama ever again with u and our friends but just know u're still in the back of my mind at least once a week. You keep popping up, it's sk annoying. I'll see a car that looks like yours and u will pop up in my mind, a dog that looks like yours, the stars and rain it all makes u come back.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 9:02 pm UTC
do u still think about us? because i know i do and i won't deny it i miss it. all the stupid conversations and smiling at each other from across the classroom. i know it's been two months and i should be over it but i can't. i can't let go for some reason.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 8:01 am UTC
I really miss you. I’ve started to think about you more. After a month apart it feels like I don’t know myself, a part of me is gone. You were my life for so long. It’s such a shame that growing up means letting go of the things you love. And god I love you more than anything. I never thought I’d be able to love anyone the way I’ve loved you for years. I want it all back. I wish I could accept that this is the end but we still talk every day. I can’t cut you off it’s not right. Life is strange.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 1:47 am UTC
Wiem, że juz Cie nie obchodze i pomimo tego, że nie mamy kontaktu, cały czas o Tobie myślę i zawsze będę tu dla Ciebie, kocham cie cepie malinowy?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 1:47 am UTC
Sometimes I wonder how would that have been, I'm sorry I didn't even try, you'll never leave my thoughts, my eternal "what if"
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 12:42 am UTC
of all the people i have talked to since u left, no one was able to fill up the void u left inside me
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 23, 2020, 12:09 am UTC
hi i just want to tell you that i love you and i know i didnt really show you but i love you soo much and i was scared to tell you this almost whole year but sometime im not sure if you actually do love me because sometimes i feel like you dont care about me but sometime i feel like you actually love me and im confused. i never thought before that i will ever love you, we were friends for kinda long time but now i released that youre one of almost no one who never stoped talking to me because of some shit and i cant belive how much things have happend between us but im greatful for all of that. when i forget about that fact that i love you i still have you as one of my really really good friends maybe best friends. every time we hugged i felt so amazing... so thats all.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: November 22, 2020, 10:35 pm UTC
I couldn't sleep so instead I spent the night walking up and down the stairs trying to recreate the sound of your footsteps. The house is so quiet without you.
