Unsent Messages

hey, how are you doing? i hope your boyfriend left you, i mean you did cheat on me for someone else just because they gave you attention. im sorry i wasnt the best for you, i hurt you so much just by being stubborn. to be honest i'd blame our breakup on me because of how i started to drift. i didn't think i'd need you so bad until i was slowly losing you to someone else. im sorry i was the worst girlfriend.

i wish i was there for you more like how you were there for me. i really wish things ended differently. i wish i showed how much i loved you. i wish things didn't go to hell and that you would still be there waiting for me. i always had that thought in the back of my head, i wasn't worth it, i didn't deserve your attention, i didn't deserve you. I have to many “wishes” on how i could've fixed things. If i showed you i loved you all those times i said i didn’t, would you have fallen a little more? I pushed you away in my times of need and hurt you just because i was scared.

“please i’d do anything for you to stay”

I wish we could’ve fallen in love again. I miss the times we’d stay up and talk all night. How you couldn’t stay up too long because of your parents, but it had been 6 am already. How you wanted to show me off so badly but didn’t want to give that impression. How you were so bad at 8ball and i always won yet there was something so endearing about watching you get a little mad. Remember when we played minecraft together? God we were both so terrible at it yet i enjoyed every second of it. Remember when we treated the cats like our kids? How you’d do sanrio pixel art in the middle of our survival world.

“i’ll take care of you forever”

the whispers of i love you’s at 3 am on a bad night. the constant reminders that we’d be together forever. i knew that one wasn’t true but it was cute how you’d get upset when i said we wouldn’t. It was such a long shot thinking i could keep you as mine for a long time. I met you in a time of need and didn’t think i’d need you so bad. It was the simple conversations for me, the occasional “asdkdjaka” to paragraphs of how much you loved me.

i really wish i didn’t let you go. even after our breakup we still talked :( you’ll always hold a special place in my heart. I’m sad that i couldn’t bring myself to block you and that i cried every night looking at our old convos.

“the love of my life and soulmate”

this message is getting too long. I just miss you that’s all. i tell myself that i’m over it but everytime i think about it, i really loved you too much and relationships would never be the same for me. i’ve said this before, this wouldn’t be the end of our love life’s, it’d just be the end of me wanting to love someone without constantly being scared of what’s to come. i was just comforted by the fact that you managed to loved me.



sometimes i want to go back in time and meet you again and just fall in love over and over again