Unsent Messages

its weird because i hate u so much but then i see something or hear something about u and it all just hits me so hard and makes my heart drop. i mean, man, we were so in love. two kids just crazy in love with eachother. u were my whole world marek. sometimes i just think back to the time we cried in eachothers arms, or when u would come up behind me and hug me and we would just sway back and forth. or how youd kiss me one million times just for fun. or when youd tickle me until i almost peed myself. or how you would run your hands through my hair. i miss the feeling of being in love with you when you loved me the same. when your head would be laying on my chest and youd fall asleep in my arms. id just lay there staring at you and taking in the moment thinking about how lucky i am to have someone who loves me so much. what we had was so special. no one really understood us except for us. you were my very best friend and you gave me purpose. it hurts me thinking back to how in love we were and that u meant so fucking much to me, and now we are just strangers. i hate u for what youve done to me and put me through, but a little piece of me will still always hurt. a little piece will always wish that u would have never fallen out of love with me and maybe we would have worked out.