Unsent messages to M
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:05 pm UTC
you left me without a reason, and i’m always going to ask myself what did i possibly do wrong for you to stop talking to me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:01 pm UTC
we’ve never dated, i know that.
but i’ll never forget the hugs that u used to give me randomly, even if we weren’t close friends. i remember when i used to hate you in 6th grade, and i always wished that you were in a different class than me. but then, two years later i found myself thinking about you everyday, and whenever u talked to me, i felt anxious and nervous, something that it doesn’t suit me. one year later and now you don’t talk to me anymore. idk why, and ig i’ll never going to understand where it all went wrong. i still wish u the best tho.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:00 pm UTC
we’ve never dated, i know that.
but i’ll never forget the hugs that u used to give me randomly, even if we weren’t close friends. i remember when i used to hate you in 6th grade, and i always wished that you were in a different class than me. but then, two years later i found myself thinking about you everyday, and whenever u talked to me, i felt anxious and nervous, something that it doesn’t suit me. one year later and now you don’t talk to me anymore. idk why, and ig i’ll never going to understand where it all went wrong. i still wish u the best tho.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:48 pm UTC
I wish u could see how I never wanted to hurt you. you were one of the most important people in my life and I pushed you away because I was afraid of getting hurt and abandoned. You are truly my soulmate and you may hate me right now but I’m sure we’ll find our ways back to each other. I love you with everything I’ve got.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:31 pm UTC
The night you left, you took me with you. Now I’m just empty but finding myself means having to find you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:29 pm UTC
I hate it when I am with you but I hate it more without. I don’t want to want you anymore. I wish our times would line up.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:23 pm UTC
i want to hate you i really do,but i just cant. you mean a lot to me i just wish you would realize you fucked up and say sorry. youre petty and so am i but i wish you would come back. i miss my best friend:(
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:15 pm UTC
im sorry and i always will be. i wish i tried with you because i could have helped. we meant something even though i acted like we didnt. i love you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 6:14 pm UTC
I thought you would actually love me too. But now I know, and now everything is fine. I like you, be safe.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 4:29 pm UTC
I'm sorry for everything that ive put you through, its all my fault, i cant do this anymore, i love you so much
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 3:16 pm UTC
You put your head onto my shoulder the first time yesterday. Even though it was only a few seconds, it gave me a piece of peace for a moment
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 10:49 am UTC
When you cheated on me, my love for you vanished istantly and you became nothing for me. Hope you're doing well
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 12, 2020, 4:12 am UTC
I wish we could've stayed in your bedroom, stealing kisses forever, but reality had to set in at some point.
K
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 11, 2020, 6:06 pm UTC
U played with my feelings 4 months ago... and it still hurts. But that okay! I'm tryna move on cause u do to
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 11, 2020, 4:41 pm UTC
Non mi stancherò mai di ringraziarti per il modo in cui mi ami. Hai infranto tutte le regole che ci impedivano di esistere e mi hai donato vita e felicità. Sei una persona speciale: hai luce, anche se non riesci a rendertene conto. Vorrei solo che riuscissi a vedere la tua vita nel modo in cui io vedo te. Hai tutto il mio amore, sempre. Tua, E
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 11, 2020, 3:33 pm UTC
we still have so much we wanted to do together, how'd you let that go so easily. im not mad at you, i love you and i just really wished this wasnt the end of us, but it is.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 11, 2020, 3:27 am UTC
I lied that night I told you I didn’t think about our times together. I look back fondly on those times and hold them near. I still think, talk and dream about you; about us. I hope you’ve found peace and happiness and I hope, one day, I do, too.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 10, 2020, 4:02 am UTC
i fell in love with you the first day i saw you. i’m with you everyday, we fall asleep inches apart, we wake up together but i can’t tell you how i feel. it’s killing me.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 10, 2020, 12:11 am UTC
Okay this has gone on for so long and it’s mentally draining me , it’s not fair on you for me to put so much pressure on you and I’m sorry. Everything that’s going on with us is so messed up and anyone with any common sense would have left by now but yet I’m still here... a part of me wants a clear answer from you but then a part of me doesn’t know if I can handle the real thruth. I’m tired of putting in more effort than I receive and tired of holding on and getting my hopes up just to end up being dissapointed over and over again. I love you and care about you so much but you just keep on hurting me over and over again. It’s not fair to me or you or anyone but the messed up part is that your hurting me and I know your not treating me right and that I deserve better but yet I still stay anyways, because when you love someone you hold on even when there’s so many reasons to leave. I know in my head that it’s not meant to be and that I’m crazy for still holding on but I still have a tiny bit of hope that maybe you’ll love me the way I love you. I know you already told me you love me but honestly I don’t believe that you’ve ever truly loved me because that’s not how things work you don’t get to love me and love her. I think you just get lonely at night and love the fact that I love you, you love the idea of me but you don’t love me. Now I know I don’t have perfect beautiful hair or eyes and that I have a lot of of flaws and I’ll never be anywhere close to perfect so
I get it I understand that why you don’t love me I understand why you don’t want me, but I’ve pushed everyone away because they aren’t you so you can’t be mad at me for trying to move on because you have your shot and you could have me if you wanted but you don’t. The thing I don’t understand tho is that we tried to live without eachother and not talk to eachother but it didn’t work and we both realized that we can’t and you say I’m on your mind 24-7 but yet that’s still not enough and that’s what I’ll never understand
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 9:28 pm UTC
It’s been three months and you’ve moved on. -hope she makes you happy
- i wish I didn’t care. Take care.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 5:03 pm UTC
i lowkey miss you even if we’re still friends and talk from time to time but it’s just not the same :( we’re not as close anymore
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 2:44 am UTC
I’m really confused as to what we are and where we stand. I’m constantly hearing all sorts of things about you that wouldn’t be considered good. Like you’re hot as fuck don’t get me wrong but I want to help you and you’re not letting me. A part of me wants to kill you, another part wants to kiss you, another part wants to help you. I shouldn’t even be feeling any of this. But fuck. I hate you. Sometimes.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 2:19 am UTC
I told you to chose me or her and you chose her. I thought that you would have chosen me and now I’m absolutely broken. I just wish I was good enough
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 2:11 am UTC
I don’t believe you ever actually loved me I think you just got lonely at night and loved the fact that I love you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 12:39 am UTC
you texted me the other day as if 7 months of being ghosted had not occurred. i want to go back but i know i shouldn't.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 9, 2020, 12:19 am UTC
I used to write about you here when we were in love. Now you don't love me anymore, but I keep writing about you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 7:10 pm UTC
you completely consumed me & i will never forget your scent, touch or voice whether you feel the same or not
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 11:09 am UTC
You told me we couldn't be more than friends and then kissed me on the lips. Twice.
Thank you for making me fall in love with you again.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 10:26 am UTC
my feelings for you were a complete joke at first, i didn’t realise how much you meant to me until those two long weeks. i always dreaded days where we would be apart, even though i knew something would never happen between us. because of her. everytime you talked to me, it was like a moth drawn to a light. i loved hearing you talk, and i still though even if it’s bittersweet. i love you and always will, and i hope you feel the same. even if nothing brings a genuine smile out of me anymore, i think of you, and it spreads from ear to ear. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 5:28 am UTC
I wished you actually loved me and stopped blaming everything on me and stopped hurting me physically and mentally I tried so hard and you always told me shit like I was just some thing to you which I was and it hurt Bc you were my first love
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 3:15 am UTC
You completely broke me, and I still loved you. You broke me bro, and I still gave you chance. You took me for granted.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 2:20 am UTC
Explain to me why is it every time you raised your voice at me, I was the one left feeling guilty and ashamed?
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 8, 2020, 12:00 am UTC
me ha costado muchísimo esto pero ahí va
el año pasado cuando te sentaste al lado mío me queje si pero poco a poco me fui acostumbrando a ti y te juro que contigo era lo mejor del mundo. en el confinamiento no pude parar de pensar en ti y cuando hablabas en clase era aaaa en verano igual, no sabía y todavía tengo dudas de lo que siento hacia ti, cada vez que hablo contigo me siento bien genial y me intento acercar a ti porque quiero estar contigo, creo que ya tengo claro que te quiero y que quiero estar contigo y no paro de imaginarme mil momentos contigo, necesito que aclaremos las cosas porque no se lo que tú sientes, me miras y hablas conmigo dices cosas que me rallan tus amigos me hacen ilusiones y luego haces cosas que me desilusionan no me dejas las cosas claras, me gustaría hablar contigo saber lo que sientes pero sé que arruinaría nuestra amistad
i love you M hope une day we can que stay together
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 11:41 pm UTC
Why'd you lead me on after the things I told you all those calls losing sleep because of you...making sure you were okay giving you my time fuck,and lastly FUCK YOU. I hope you got your happiness back by taking mine away.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 11:10 pm UTC
i’ve never felt anyway about someone like i feel about you you make me so happy and showed me i do deserve to be cared for :,)
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 10:07 pm UTC
I fucking hate you. Like i love you so much that i just hate you. Go text other bitches, idc. I hope they make you feel the worst and idc how toxic i am rn but tbh you fucking deserve it for all these months playing me until you find the girl you actually like. I hope she treats you like shit. Fuck you man. Fuck you and your retarded standards.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 9:50 pm UTC
you were the only guy who ever made me feel so happy, i’m sorry i got attached and you didn’t feel the same. i miss u.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 9:49 pm UTC
i thought i was over you. but then i saw you for the first time in over a month while working, and all the emotions came flooding back. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 9:47 pm UTC
i’d just like to let you know that you were the first guy to ever make me so happy and not worry about my anxieties. ill miss you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 9:44 pm UTC
i fell for you but you didn’t fall for me. you were the first guy to ever make my heart feel so warm, so happy. all my worries disappeared in your presence. you’ll always have a place in my heart. i miss you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:30 pm UTC
I hate you. you made me end us. we text sometimes and I always answer, but when I need you you are nowhere to be found. you never ever deserved me and you knew that. you fucked up the only good love you'll ever get. good luck with that other girl.... pathetic
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:26 pm UTC
I don't want you, but you always helped me through the hard stuff, now your gone and I need help, I think im just using you.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 3:41 pm UTC
You told me you loved me, then a week later got into a relationship. Do you know how that feels? I thought i wasn't good enough for you, it took me a long time to realize that you're the one who isn't good enough.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:00 pm UTC
I met you in the past, but I forgot to ask your name
I kept you in my dreams, but it only seems to feed the flame
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:14 am UTC
i think im over you. for a second i believe it. everytime a song comes on i think of you. i miss the way you laughed at my jokes. i miss the way you’re ocean eyes light up.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:35 am UTC
You said you loved me, but you lied straight to my face. and yet for some reason I thought i loved you
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 2:31 am UTC
hola ps yaaaaaa estoy hartia de ti, si maybe im ocd pero tambien hay niveles loool que en tu familia no te quieren? no soy otuko no me dan risa lo que a ti joj. yes maybe my humour is broken idk, pero si me harta mucho tu presencia y quiero estar sola. Creo que a pesar que me gusta estar acompañada hay dias en los que neceisto recargarme, m gusta mi cuarto ya sea mi desorden o mi desorganizacion pero se que es MIO. no soy envidiosa supongo que es que me gusta que las personas sigan mis reglas. mmmm no se que decir no me gusta finjir las risas, no me gusta desmentir la depresion de otras personas pero no parece que la tengas, aunque si la tiemnes creeme que te apoyaria. No si es con quien te juntas pero tambien te has hecho medio mamadora naja y chocamos bastante. mi tocador esta hecho un desastre y mg que lo recogieses si no es tu casa tienes que respetar a la otra persona eso es EDUCACION quizas en tu ranchio no se acostumbre pero aja, y pues nada te quiero mucho y te apoyaria pero siento el efecto big brother bn cabron jajajaja claro que puedo convivir con cualqyier personalidad y ewuis pero neta jajajajajaj necesito tiempo a solas, creo que la proxima vez valorare mas estar sola. me gusta estar rodeadsa de gente pero neceisto mi tiempo ala vexz no se es raro.
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 12:47 am UTC
we live five minutes away from each other.. i wish i could summon the courage to go to your place and tell you i miss you even if you don’t miss me
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 7, 2020, 12:10 am UTC
hi I hope you're doing okay I miss you quite a lot I know you well and I know that you probably don't care about me bc if you did you would text me maybe you're bettering yourself as a person and I'm happy for you if you are but its time I let go of what we could've been. goodbye
From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 6, 2020, 11:53 pm UTC
i sometimes wonder if i would still be happy if i hadn't left you guys, but then again i can't remember if i was happy with you guys in the first place. ily and thank you
