Unsent messages to M

Hi! Even tho i moved 5 hours away, you are still on my mind and i hope you will be happy with her (even tho i really want to be her)

You said you were in love, I did too. But then you left and now I wonder what/who changed your mind...

I don't care how toxic you are or whether I really love you or not, you're the only one who makes me feel anything and when I'm with you all of my feelings make sense.

I truly hope you're happy knowing you ruined me. I was doing so great but one comment from you put me right back in that dark place. Thanks a lot.

although you've probably forgotten about me, i want to say that you'll always have a special place in m heart. i'll always love you.

i wish you understood that most nights i sit up in my bed in sheer darkness and silence just thinking about you.

the thought that one day you might love me is exhilarating. the thought that one day that smile, the one that makes your eyes disappear, could be because of me is all i think about.

why won’t you ever give me a real chance? im in love with you bruh I stooped down so far Im writing to an anonymous website. I just want you to see how I see you. Love me like I love you. just give me a real chance instead of using me as someone to hookup with when ur bored then ghosting me after a few days. I trust uu. I love you. For gods sake bruh I’d doo literally anything for you. I always wondered if uu looked at me the way I look at u. Do you think abt me as much as I do for you ? What’s your intentions on my heart “m”?please I don’t wanna lose uu?.

You promised you wouldn’t hurt me. We were young so I couldn’t blame you. But now that we’re older I find myself still blaming me for doing nothing wrong.

I know you don’t remember the first time we met but I do.
Surprisingly as I have very bad memory but how could I forget when your smile lit up a room or the cafeteria as that was the first time I ever saw you.
I honestly just want to thank Autumn for introducing us.
You changed my life, for good, as I am now confident in myself and figuring myself out. I couldn’t do that without you.

Why did it have to end like that? You were my first love and we just fell out of love, we watched ourselves distance each other and now we don’t even talk. That hurts. We used to talk everyday and literally were inseparable, now we’re strangers that’d like to forget we even knew each other, at least that’s how I feel.
I don’t want you back but I miss the feelings you made me feel. Loved. Appreciated. Special.
I know I’ll end up finding someone else but I feel lonely. Lonely enough to text you late night then regret it afterwards.
I don’t miss you, I miss the thought of you.
I hope you realize you are gay and quit pretending to be someone you’re not.

I wish I knew you felt that way about us. I wanted to give you all of my heart for the rest of our lives but you changed, you did everything you said you wouldn’t. I felt the worst pain having to break up with you but so much relief because I knew I wouldn’t feel sad like I used to seeing you change. I wanted to hold you but things got in the way of that and I didn’t get to see you for a whole year. I felt myself falling deeper into emptiness when we slowly stopped talking. I hope your new bf makes you happier than I ever did. I hope he doesn’t cheat on you again you know your worth more than that I made sure I taught you to know your worth. Please keep yourself happy I love you and never will stop. I just know for the time being your better off without me. I hope one day our paths cross again and we fall in love once more.

I was always ashamed of being intelligent until I met you, because it was crazy how similar we were yet now we are here.

You didn’t text me first at all I always text first baby please this is supposed to be 50/50 not 75/25 :(

I miss you and i hope you’re doing swell, i know nobody understood you like how i did and i really hope the boys aren’t making you feel bad nor is your uncle...i just want you to be happy and wish i could’ve done that for you, just know i really did try and really did love you more than anything.

i know that we never could stay together cause you're taken, but you really changed all my world without even planning it, i'm really falling in love with you, and that's the reason i gotta say goodbye

I wish you actually liked me instead of just wanting me for my body. I wish you nothing but happiness. Thank you for helping me discover who i am. Maybe if i get you the detective koala you might like me how i like u.

I fucking hate you for what you did. But I would still take you back because you're the only person whos made me feel butterflies.

I hold my breathe everyday, praying that you walk towards this connection again. God put a little of your soul with mine. I smile at our childhood home video. I’ve never felt this way before. Come see me. We’re always under the same moon.

yours always

I’m so sorry that i had to leave you but i hope you understand it’s for the better, and we were just better off as friends.

I wish you every blessing this world holds, that‘s why I left

One of us deserves happiness & I chose u, my love

fuck dude you're so toxic but you're my bestfriend and i don't know what to do about it. i really don't. do you talk shit about me or is it just her? i'm genuinely curious.

i will never understand why you felt the need to develop a relationship with me when you knew you'd eventually leave.

i miss the way things used to be between us and ik its my fault and if i could fix it all right now i would.

you are the reason i have trust issues. i trusted you with everything i had and you threw it all away and left me. i hate you so much it’s indescribable. i hope you regret it for the rest of your life.

I don't like you and were just friends but I get mad when you don't answer and I get mad when u have a girlfriend but I would never want to date you

Thank you for being such a good friend. I don't know how you are still friends with me after everything I put you through, but I will always have a soft spot for you.

i told mom it isn't the same anymore with us. she made me realize maybe you were meant to be a temporary person in my life. either way, i'm glad i met you. i'm sorry if i'm giving up. seeing you lose interest in me/us hurts. i can't keep doing that to myself.

i wish things didn't turn out like this but i've realized it wasn't my fault you chose them. we just didn't work out

I love you a lot and I really miss you. I just want a hug from you so bad and for you to say that you love me back and mean it but you probably don't lol but that's okay I gues...I hope you're doing okay M , I don't think I'll ever not love you even when you're mean to me or hurt my feelings.... :(

I’m sorry about the way i treated you and i wish we could just sit down and talk about everything that’s happened in the past year

I really loved you with my everything but it was never enough. Maybe I was never enough but even though we parted ways without me ever telling you the truth I hope you live the happiest life but please forget me.

I hate you, I hate that you were everything I wanted and you knew that. I hate that you were still in love with her and I knew that.

i miss our friendship, thank you for making me to the person I am today. i wish you nothing but the best

we both promised eachother we weren’t going to hurt eachother, but we did. we were toxic. but i still love u my love. i hope ur happy.. i still haven’t moved on.. gosh, the things i’d do just for a text from u..

After being heartbroken and not thinking I could love again. I met you. The first time I ever hung out with you, I felt like myself and had never felt like that ever since my last relationship. I want you so bad, but sometimes I think you don't want me as your actual girlfriend. But I really hope you do. Every time I'm with you, time passes like its nothing, the whole world stops, I can just look at you and talk with you for hours . I hope with your schedule, you want to make it work. From the moment I met you, I knew you were different and we had something. You're literally perfect. god I'm falling for you so fast...

Every time i get a notification im hoping that its you. i always get butterflies when i hear your voice. i feel like im losing you but im not gonna give up easily because your worth fighting for. i really love you M i jus wish you knew how much you meant to me

i don’t really know how to start this lol but you make me feel loved but and the same time i shouldn’t have to be questioning my worth and if i’m good enough for you don’t say “i love you” if you don’t mean it, it hurts me even more tell me you don’t want to talk to me don’t leave me on delivered that makes me overthink a lot and stress if you like ur best friend tell me so we can just stop making me look stupid please i feel you drifting away and it kills me falling in love with another female i wished she respected our status i dropped every single person/guy friend for you i was expecting you to do the same but i just see you constantly texting ur female friends and making new ones every single day you said it was only me and you only wanted me don’t make promises you know you won’t be able to keep and today was ur birthday and ur cousin posted you he said “hit his line” like if i seem like a joke to you that broke my heart it’s the second time someone post you with a caption like that if you aren’t feeling me it lost feelings please tell me i rather you be honest with me than finding out some other way

Your kindness and passion sparked feelings I didn't know I could feel. It's been a long 3 years, but I accept your choices and wish you nothing but happiness.

you never actually loved me you always faked it and now the love i have for you is fading away and i’m sorry i wanna love you all my life but it’s hard.

ik u think I've changed and I have but I never wanted to I don't want u to think I'm a bad person from the things I've tried they don't define me as a person. why do u judge when u would hate being in that same position. I love u and I'm so grateful but u really hurt me.

I won't ever be the same. You broke me. But you didn't care enough to understand what you put me through.

When I think of you I smile and giggle a little. You remind me of a hot summer day with friends. Your bring the best out of me. You make me laugh and really happy. I know you do not feel the same but I just want to say you are the first person who I really think of everyday. When I talk to you I never want it to end. ?

I hope you still think about me the way I think about you. It's been 3 years and I still cant move on

You were the first boy I felt comfortable with and genuinely wanted to be around in such a long time. It hurts that you got scared of love and left for someone new. I understand, but at the same time, it's painful to know how disposable everything was to you, because it wasn't disposable to me.

i wish i could tell you how i fr feel, i wish i knew if you felt the same, i think you do. why won’t either of us just admit it? why do you ignore me just to come back every once in a while and give me the world, then leave and act as if you hate me? i don’t understand why you do it. i’m in love with you tho, and i think you know. if you’re in love with me too, then why do you talk to other girls? i asked someone about it once, he told me you talk to them while you’re waiting for me to tell you how i feel, but it’s so hard to tell. everything you do is so confusing, yet i still wanna spend the rest of my life with you.

please live out our made up lives we made together with someone else that makes you happier than i did

sometimes i just want to let you know how much I appreciate you but I don't think ur on the same level as I am?

You don't realize that each time you text or call me it hurts because I still care more than you ever did.

you will always have a little piece of my heart, you showed me what love should feel like and for that I thank you.