Unsent messages to M

you took something so special from me, and although i’m full of jealousy and bitterness; i hope you enjoy it as much as i did or even more.

hi, I don't really know what we are doing with each other but I really hope it turns out to be a good thing.

I need your friendship so bad right now you were my comfort. Im sorry I can’t let you go I really tried.

ur my bsf n one of the ppl i feel most comfortable telling deep personal things to so it rlly sucks that i can’t tell u how much i like u and want to b w u

You ended it, when I wasn’t ready for it to end. You were and always will be my love. I know you don’t like me anymore but I would die just to spend another waking minute with you.

You told me you loved me a few months ago. I love you too, but you love him now. Why didn't you tell me sooner

I know I lost you because I was selfish and I can’t have u. But I wanted to tell u you made me believe in soulmates and the “right person, wrong time”.
I’ll always love u

I really thought that you liked me. But then I realised you did all this things because of alcohol. I could be any other girl.

Trust me, if I had known that everything was going to change, I would´ve told you that i´m in love with you. I don't think I'll ever know if you felt the same about me. If one day you come back, i´ll be ready this time.

We only met like 2 weeks ago but i feel so comfortable around you and i feel like i can tell you all my secrets. The little things you do make me so happy and hopefully our talking stage will become something bigger. I feel like you have opened up to me over the last couple of days and you have brightened up my world when it was becoming a very low place for me. I truly believe something with come out of this.

Even though nothing really happened between us, after three years every day I still think about what could have happened and what we missed out on.

i didn’t love u, i loved the way you made me feel. even though i know i deserved better, you were all i had.

estábamos destinadas a estar juntas pero no era el momento espero que algún día podamos estar juntas, lo siento por arruinar todo
aún te quiero

You stopped sending me DM’s. I never answered, but I didn’t want you to stop. I don’t want to want you, but I want to be on your mind as much as you’re on mine.

Hi,
Sometimes i just would like you to look at me and check my health, not only talk ab your problems and you.

I still get butterflies when i think about you, i cant spend one day without thinking about you and all the fun things we used to do, all our laughs, cuddles, kisses, our “fights”, i just miss it so much, you saved my life.

youve stopped picking up as much. you cut our convos short. today my depression sparked up really bad. i called you, you answered for literally 30 seconds and then hung up. to call someone else. you make me feel annoying for trying to talk to you. all i literally want is someone to care for somone to listen when i speak for once. your slipping away everyone does. there has to be something wrong with me

I'm so glad I finally got over you. You gaslighted and manipulated me. I will forever hate you for what you did to me.

U cheated on me .. with my bsf. Yet I don’t think I’m still over you . I miss u a lot but i shouldn’t . And u will never know .

I'm sorry for all the things I said after we broke up. I still think about you sometimes. I hope you do too.

I feel like you always put me second, that someone else’s accomplishments are better and more important than mine

You told me you loved me and that you really liked me, and it happened the same as before, you lost interest, you didn’t even apologize and that was the worst, I miss you

Hey, I really hope you get better soon. It sucks how our brains can lie to us. You are the prettiest, smartest and kindest person I know but somehow you hate yourself. I just don't get it. I want you to get the help you need before it's too late. We aren't just best friends but you are like a sister to me, and I don't know what I would do without you in my life. I love you so much and I hope you know that.

i hate that i never got the chance to tell you how much you truly meant to me. i hate how we dont talk anymore. i hate how youre happy without me, like i didnt even matter. i hate how i was always there for you and you laughed at my feelings. i hate how i can never have a serious converstaion with you alone. i hate how you will grow old and i wont be a part of your life. i hate how its all my fault. i hate how i should have told you straight up. i hate how youre eyes never lit up for me. i hate how i let myself fall for you. i hate that i cant get over you. I HATE YOU. or maybe me.

If I had the opportunity to start a new life just to get over you I’d take that opportunity so fast, I can’t stand likening a guy who still is falling for his ex

How could you have managed to make me fall for you? You’re such a strange person but every time I think about you butterflies form and I don’t know if I can stop these feelings

Espero que estes bien , que encuentres a alguien mejor que yo siempre te amare y recuerda lo que prometimos nunca te olvidare te quiero

I was just 16, if we tried again now it would be so different. Hope I didn't break your heart back then.

I dreamed of you last night. I thought I was done and over with you. Idk how to get away from you. U cross my mind everyday.

you told me i was special, but you told everyone else the same thing. so was i special? or were u bored?

You honestly made my life so wonderful. Shaped me to the person i am today. I love and miss you so much. You’re the best thing that have ever happened to me.

to this day i still have feelings for you and i realised how similar we are. sometimes i think we are meant to be. however in your mind i believe that is not the case. i realise that quite often but i just want another chance, i really do like you, i want to get to know you better and i hope we do have something in future.

You mean more to me than anything ever has and I feel like everyday I ruin what we have more and more but I still can’t help but love you

fuck you. i still carry the emotional and psychological scars you left on me. you didn’t care about me. yet you managed to isolate me from everyone in my life. even my family. you are a liar. you are an egotistical bitch. grow up. stop giving people trauma. go to therapy.

Hey there.
I wanted to say that I thought about you the other night. I saw you in a dream which was so weird because the thought of you or your name hadn't crossed my mind in months. I was happy in the dream. I hated how I was happy because all the times I thought I was happy with you, I really wasn't. I thought you were happy like you always said you were. I never knew why you left so sudden and till this day I still don't. I miss what we had, not you. I miss your laugh, not what you laughed at and I missed your smile, even though it was never always a real one. Thank you. Thank you for being my first ever love and heartbreak. Thank you for being the reason I first ever cried from emotional pain. I hope you're doing good btw. I hope you're happier and smiling more and laughing at random silly jokes. I hope you find one. One that'll love you as much as I did. I hope you love her just as much. Make her days and nights, just to treat her really well. That's all I wanted to say Mikey. Bye✌

I think I like you but i'm scared you're my first ever crush, you're the first person to make my heart ache when you're with others.

is it bad that i miss seeing you in the hallways even after telling you I didn’t care because I couldn’t trust you.

You’ll never read this, but...I feel so much more alive when I’m around you. I feel like I’m free. I’ve never felt like that with anyone before...

i never told u this when u told me u liked me but u were the first person I ever liked. and that was in fricking kindergarten. maybe I still like but u definitely don't like me. i wish I could take back everything I said because none of it was true. of course I liked u back but I didn't know how to tell u. i was just scared of commitment. I'm sorry if i hurt u

its been three years since I've met you, I don't even know why I'm texting you, you don't give a damn about me. and even if you did, you would never talk to me I've liked you since 4th grade and I miss our conversations through that hallway our laughs in recess, and how you told me I was your best friend.

im not scared of drinking, im scared of you because who knows who your'e gonna hook up with that night, and i don't want to see it if it isn't me.

We met outside where we would have so much fun. You dated my best friend. Then suddenly me and you became best friends. We played many games together. I would like it when you bothered me. I would try to annoy you and it never worked. I loved to text you it was so fun. We never got to hang out a lot. I had always wanted to tell you if you wanted to go on-call or hangout but i was always so shy. I never got to tell you how much I loved you. You probably didn't even love me back. I hate myself for dropping you. I should have kept you. I miss you so much but I'm scared to text you. I loved you in a friendly way. And now I only have memories. I wish I had a chance to tell you that. I do miss you but honestly you never tried in our friendship. I feel like you did not even wanna talk to me you would say you would but now look what happened to us. I feel hurt that you barely even tried. I was so tired of being the only one trying. I should not have let you go but that was my mistake.

I love you, I wish I could come see you and I promise things will work out. We can run away together and start our cottagecore life in the middle of the woods.

You were the first person I truly felt safe with. The first person I wasn’t afraid to love because I knew you were right. If only 12 year old me would’ve realized it...I just should’ve listened to my guts and stay home that night.

I want to be more than friends but it’s not only that I think about you all the time and you always make me happy.. and I still kinda have to admit to myself that I like you because you are a girl and I’m a girl...

I think u still don’t get that I fell for u way back in time - ur songs meant so much to me.

Love, Ally

i still remember you, my stomach flutters. i think about you from time to time, i wonder if you even remember me? you probably dont, i wish i had admitted my feelings for you sooner. i almost did, i wish i had sooner.

I knew from the start its not clicking but you pushed me so hard. We didn't click at all. Im so glad we don't talk anymore. I hate what person you actually are.

I know I said I love you too fast, but I would take it back so fast if it meant you stayed. I miss you so much.

I still dont understand why you told me that you had feelings for me just to say that you didnt the next day