Unsent messages to M

I still remember the taste of your lips, the cologne you loved, the way you hid you're smile. i remember all of it. i want to say im over you but im not sure if i am. ik i should be but i still think ab the first time you said you loved me. the first kiss, i cant stop remembering. it keeps replaying in my head like a broken cd.

from the start i had loved you, you said you loved me too. i guess you said the same to the 4 other girls tho. -"first love"

I wish you knew how much you’ve changed me in such a short time, you’re so warm and I was so cold. I think we loved each other in our past life, I’m glad we met again I’ll find you in every life.

Siempre fuiste alguien importante para mi, pero las coas cambiaron super drásticamente, te comenzaste a alejar poco a poco, hasta que, por discusiones o peleas que podrían tener solución causaron otro más que ya no, aun asi, te extraño, por que nunca había tenido a alguien como tu, me enseñaste un buen de cosas que no se me olvidaran, espero que te este yendo muy bien en todo, por que apesar del distanciamiento y que trato de aparentar otra cosa, aun te sigo queriendo, cuidate ♡︎

Aún te extraño, no sé cómo pudiste escogerla... Tengo envidia de como eres con ella, conmigo no eras así.
Espero en un futuro volver a estar contigo y reírnos como lo hacíamos antes

I’m so so sorry for what I did. I fucked up and the only reason why, was because I wanted you. But you didn’t cared :(

I think about you every day, how you said you didn’t want me, but I still hold out hope you’ll come back, realise you made a mistake, realise I am the one you want.

I love you with my entire being and I miss jokingly flirting with you.
I hope you‘re happy with her.

I hope I didn't lose you forever and that if it was meant to be we will find each other again some day

I liked you so much it hurt and you knew. yet you still continued to hurt me. I’m sorry I’m not her. I’m sorry that I didn’t fit your standards of beauty.

I'm beyond sorry for how I acted. I've apologized but I can never show how much I regret it. It was so long ago but that doesn't mean it did not happen.

I want it to be you I still want it to be you. You made me feel things I never felt before. You hurt me but the love I have for you is some much stronger.

You made me so happy and made me feel a happiness I never felt before I just want that back please. Please tell me it was real.

I like you so much and I don't even know what to do. I think you like me but I just can't believe it.

Even if I knew the outcome, I would still kiss you that night. At least, in this way I remain with that moment in my heart.

In some alternate universe exists a version of us that ended up together. Sometimes I still wish it could have been this one.

It kills me cause you were never mine to miss, I miss our late night chats. I need them so much rn michael.

You distracted me from everything going wrong in my life, why did you have to change for your friends. Ugh I miss you.

It’s been 2 years since we’ve spoken. There isn’t a day that I don’t look at my phone, wishing it was you texting me.

You have no idea how much
i like you
how much you make me smile
how much i love you
talking to you or how much i wish you were here

stop what the hell r u talking about, get my pretty name out of your mouth we are not the same with or without...

we’re not together. we never will be. you’ll always choose her. i’ll always be last. i haven’t know you for long, but you make me smile.

i can't bring myself to respond to you. it's hard to talk to you, and often times i find myself wishing we never met. yet, despite it all, i hold a deep fondness for you within. it dies with me. someday, you'll just be the best friend i fell for back in highschool, and you know what, that's okay. i'm at peace with that.

I wish I never met you sometimes, but then I remember how it felt to love you and realize I would never want to give that up. Fuck you for that.

I still dream about you every night. You’re still there and I can’t contact you. It’s pain that never dulls. L

After all these years you’re still the one I want.
I know I’m with him but my heart belongs to you.
Sorry.

Gracias por todo, solo me usaste y jugaste conmigo:(
Espero que te vaya bien. Te quería a mi lado, pero ahora te quiero lejos de mí.

you were and always will be my first love nothing can take that back, i welcomed you into my family with the most open arms i could but it wasn’t enough. you still chose her but now i’m happier then ever and i know that i never have to settle for less

despite anything that happened i hope you’re doing well. i hope you’re with people who make you feel good green and i hope you’re feeling all the colours that you can. hny

i wish you would look at me the same way again. with the eye contact that made me believe there’s a purpose to life.

i never intended to be romantically involved with you, i promised myself i wouldn't get involved but now i cant go a day without thinking about you.

oh fuck I hope you never find this not that you'll know its you are as clueless as it gets.but I think its time finally let go what been bugging and god knows I'm not going to tell you so might as well tell the world...anonymously anyways the reason I stoped talking to you or cut ties or whatever is because i realized it was always going to be her .I rlly dont blame you.I mean shes likes stunning and funny and daring.but most importantly she is my best friend.i dont blame you because you never rlly knew how i felt exactly so i just blame myself.I was so sick of not being her, having to sit here n console you because she didn't feel the same way.So i had to let you go.but every now and again I feel by self being pulled back and one day maybe ill let myself run back to you,even though you'll always turn a back to me.But right now at this moment in time i have to let go forever.Im so young,were so young that forever dsont mean always never turning back .but i have to tell myself forever so i can maybe sorta kinda move on.Also fuck you for playing that joke on me and if you reading this yk what damn joke I'm talking about that was just a dick move.anyways i think you'll have a place in my heart but I'm not going to yk think about that too much because then ill just get sad again and omg I'm writing this at 4 am god help this is a bad idea anyways by shawty bae see when the stars align again :)

you changed my life and i'm still trying to figure out if it was for the better or worse but i know i'll never forget you or leave you bby i love you

Que cumplas todos tus metas, tu eres tu propio limite..hagamos de nuestras vidas un lugar donde quisieramos estar siempre ❤✨

busco mi nombre deseando que alguna vez me escribas, pero nunca he sido lo suficientemente importante para ti. eres un capullo. ojalá algún día le importes a alguien la mitad de lo que me has importado, pero ahora tengo que dejar de hacerlo. tengo que pensar en mi lo que tú nunca has sido capaz.

I know we aren't meant to be, but I wish you had a place in your soul for me. I love you so much I wish I could tell you. I'll miss every part of you every single day of my life. But I know you will forget about me. I hope someday I can care about someone as much as I do with you, and I hope someday someone can give me the love you never gave me back.

Hey I miss you. I know you don’t miss me anymore and that’s hurting me more than anything. We don’t even talk anymore. The thing that gets me is that you had feelings for me. You chose to stop being friends rather than talking to me about it. You were my closest friend at the time and I had feelings for you too. I can’t believe I was that disposable to you because you never were to me. I have to let go. I thought you were my person but I don’t think you are anymore. This is me letting go of the possibility of you and me. I wish you love and happiness.

You told me you loved me. I think that was true at some point. It was obvious that I loved you. I just couldn't keep hurting myself going back to you. I don't regret leaving.

I saw you today, said hi, but I really wish I could hug and listen to your stories, but you never texted me back

I’m not mad that you don’t want me, I’m mad that sometimes you act like you do, and you take advantage of the soft spot I have for you because you know that in the end, I’m always gonna let you back in.

you deserve to move on and be happy, even if it's not with me. I'll miss you but it's better this way, for the both of us

Paso muy rápido, ni yo me lo esperaba. Fuiste mi primer amor imposible, una chica. Estaba demasiado confundida pero aprendí muchas cosas gracias a vos, sos hermosa en todos los sentidos, me encantaba todo de vos, vales demasiado. Sos alegre y das abrazos muy lindos,obviamente nos nos hablamos hace años...pero gracias por todo,por hacerme reír y preocuparte por mi, mucha suerte en tu vida.Espero que seas feliz.

La neta, sí me hiciste mucho daño. Aunque yo lo quiera negar, aunque yo me levante todas las mañanas y diga que todo está bien, no lo está. Por qué? Porque me siento mal conmigo misma todos los días, porque pienso que fue mi culpa que me hayas tocado, porque pienso que pude haber hecho algo mejor, que pude haberte cortado desde ese momento. No después, desde ese momento. Porque desafortunadamente, me gustabas. Y decidí ser tu novia, y decidí muchas cosas PERO nunca decidí que me tocaras. No me pediste mi opinión, te valió mierda que pasara. Nada más querías hacerme daño, nada más eso. Y apenas me doy cuenta de eso. Gracias a eso, me humillaste, hiciste que perdiera un chingo de amigos y de paso no me pediste perdón sinceramente aunque supieras que fue tu pinche culpa. Gracias a ti, me da miedo estar en una relación, porque pienso que así van a ser mis próximas relaciones. Gracias a ti, estoy super insegura de mí misma. No soy feliz. Así que lo que intento decir es... CHINGA TU MADRE HIJO DE PERRA. ESPERO QUE EL INFIERNO TE RECIBA. Pero todo bien... me arreglaré solita. Ya lo he hecho antes, sin ayuda de nadie. Lo haré. Gracias por su atención.

Bye, S.

We outgrew each other. This always seems to happen to me and I don’t know how to save us anymore. I will move on and look for happiness somewhere else.

I think we have outgrown each other. I’m trying to move past the year we spent together and be happy again.

I think you are so attractive, i've done things in the past and i'm sorry, I like you, you're cute, and so beautiful.

lmao my mental health sucks because you ghosted me after i told you everything that was happening in my life, like if you didnt wanna b friends with the girl who has too many mental health problems, even tho you told me youd always be here if i needed anything.

i have realized i love you... now that you’re gone. now that the thought of us no longer crosses your mind. now that you’ve found the love of your life.

Everything I go to write here starts with ‘I wish you...’ - that’s how I know we shouldn’t be together.

when i fell for you i wanted to get over you so bad, but i really couldn't so i just accepted it. I did things i never thought i would and you showed me what real love was like. I'm sorry that when you finally felt the same, i didn't anymore and I treated you in a way that you didn't deserve. Even though we've both moved on, you still and always will have a special place in my heart and deep down i really miss you. I know i don't like you like that anymore but just know part of me will always care.