Unsent messages to M

i hope you know how happy you make me every day, even if i can't tell you directly. you mean so much to me

I don't know what it was, but I know it was not love. Yet, you still cross my mind every day. I need answers. I can't love anyone else, until I forgive myself.

it’s time for me to realise that i can’t be happy until i find unconditional love and happiness within my self . so that’s it starting from today i’m falling in love with my self because i deserve to feel happy and be successful

how does it feel to know someone genuinely loves you unconditionally? i would do anything to have that.

Money, Sex & Fame

Fking boring, also something u can get everywhere from anyone – takes more to get me interested. I thought u all could offer more than that.

I really don’t get it

Respectfully,
From me to everyone!

thank u for being my big sister when i had no one. thank you for always reassuring me that ur here for me. it broke me when u stopped contact with me. u told me once i hope u never rely on anyone other than me when u need anything, i still only rely on u even though we don’t even make eye contacts school anymore

I miss us at our best everyday. I wish I didn't damage you as much as I did because I'm worried it will never be the same. I still have love for you that will never go away.

you were a true friend and you helped me through so much. we were both toxic, wrong place wrong time.

Your friend texted me tonight to stop hating you. I don’t hate you. Every time I see you I think of all the things that make me not good enough. All the things about me that made you cheat on me. And every time you would talk about other girls to me. I was never enough. I will never be enough for you.

i used to think you were really weird and an asshole and jus all around a bad person. since i started talking to you i’ve felt way happier. you’ve treated as ive always wanted to be treated and i’m so greatfull for you. words can not explain how perfect you are in every way. your precious smile, the way you look at me, hold me, when im sad you always find a way to comfort me. like when you got me my mcdonalds order without me asking, even though it doesn’t seem as much it really meant alot. you always make me feel safe when you hold me. i think i might be in love you.

When you left I thought it was loneliness I felt... It took some time, but I realized it was actually
freedom

I still don't know to this day what happened. The only thing painfully clear to me is the distance between us now. I should have just asked when I had the chance. I'm sorry.

It’s not that I don’t love you, you just took me by surprise, I’d never considered I’d fall this fast

we’re still speaking but we both know it will never work. i wish you’d stay, i’d do anything for you. i love you and i wish you loved me back. i’m sorry

hi! i miss u a lot, i tought you were the one for me, and i was the one for you, but i guess it wasnt like that :(

Started to feel worthless and not good enough, i am not sure if it's cause of u or me, i trusted u too much, that's why

2 months of texting and complicadet periods between us, all to end up of us being strangers with big ego

I'm sorry if we don't talk anymore, and I know it's all my fault. I miss you and I left cause I was too scared because I was starting to have feelings for you, and you know how much I was scared to fall in love. Every time I talk to some guy I always think about you and about our conversation. I miss you, please come back.

Hey,
Im sorry to hear that, i wish i could be there for you in person and hug you tight, never intending on letting go. Just remember that this is for your own happiness and he doesn't have the right to control that. Im proud of you for standing up for yourself. I hope to see you soon
PS: say hi to her from me.....

You guys really don’t get the difference between fantasy & reality - it was never about one person I built my own world with idealism

And yes I had a soft spot for one person in specific I won’t deny that

The way u dropped hints was so damn cruel but u know that, all this make believe - but a great show I must admit & also the biggest turn off ever so thanks

And guys, let a girl dream for gods sake

I won’t even try to defend myself for anything, it’s just too beyond to me.

Just know that your words are getting to me quite bad, but I don’t think it will change anything so I don’t even try

But I’ll be fine with time, this can‘t shock me that much anymore

Bye guys,

And with all due respect, don’t be so brutal - It‘s so incredibly ugly

it's so weird to see your height marked on my kitchen's wall even though you don't come here anymore. I miss you.

Guys don’t even try

I‘m not angry just hurt & somehow amused by my own foolishness.

Guess I‘m indeed wayy too naive & I should have known better

Anyways, you can get way to cruel so please take care of it

A

You put me right back into another heartbreak

& u made me question my sanity for so long

I‘m no saint but like I said, it‘s all about intentions - that’s my baseline

But anyhow, ur life will be wonderful & everything will turn out fine

I wish u well, wholeheartedly

Honestly, I‘m just exhausted.

This is doing both of us no favor

I hope you can forgive me & I‘ll try my best to not let my hurt turn into bitterness in return

I love my freedom, goals, dreams & yes, I loved you in a way

And I genuinely hope you are happy

This is my last goodbye

A

I will not prove myself to u.

I love you, and it hurts that I can‘t express it enough but it wouldn’t be fair or relevant either

I hope u know that u deserve the world & know that ur songs made me realize what love should be like

Somehow love will always be connected to you & that really hurts.

But I‘m grateful for it at the same time.

I hope some day ur not the reason why I can‘t find love

I made my mistakes & I can’t take them back, but know that there is someone who cares for u even if I don’t know u that well

And I was selfish for reaching out, I wanted closure & the truth

So it’s up to u to release my hope or keep me there

My caption is just there to remind u that I won’t forget u either way

And finally, even though it would hurt to know that this was always just a game to u, it would give me peace

Para ti, que pudiste con todo, te amo, sabes donde estoy, recuerda que siempre orgullosx de ti estaré

desearía no haberte conocido, odio la manera de como me haces sentir y ODIO el hecho de escribirlo en una página anónima porque me gustaría decirte en la cara cuanto me destruiste.. lo peor es que aún así no podría

I deeply care for you, know that will never change & never has.

I hope that ur match can give u all the love that I know you deserve - I was too afraid to show you, I am sorry.

I fell for you more than I‘m willing to admit on here

& my friends have known that for years but kept me away because they wanted to protect me from you

In fact they would hate me for this

I don’t think anyone will get how much you mean to me in order to not reach out

That would be the most selfish & mean thing I could ever do to u two & I already betrayed myself a little with that

I would hate myself for it

But whatever is about to come my heart will always keep a place for u & that‘s said without any bitterness

Yes, I’ll think of u, but that is nothing new to me so it‘s fine

And I can‘t prove myself to you

U have a wonderful girlfriend & like I said, I want the best for u.

But believe me however life turns out, I can wait, know that your heart will always be familiar to me

Guys please, I can talk for myself

To be honest it scares me deeply to feel like that for you since I’m not even aware of ur own truth - It’s always just guessing & then feeling crazy for it

Through all these years u made me feel yellow.

I just fear that I can‘t be the same for u.

So I decided to keep u in my heart without any claims at all

I hope you are happy

nobody has ever loved me the way you have. nobody has made me feel the way you do. you’re my person. the only person i have and will ever call my soulmate. i would do absolutely anything for you. you are the love of my life and i’m not going anywhere. i am so genuinely in love with you and all i want is you to be happy. you mean the world to me.

En lo demas ni te fijas, Mia, en lo demas ni te fijas. Que tanto mal te hice para que tengas que decirme todo eso?
Solo te pedia ayuda, no que fueras mi psiquiatra. Ojala algun dia te des cuenta tambien de tus errores

I've been in love with u since kids, i never knew how to tell u. and i dont even know if you love me as friends rn, but i hope the best for you. you're the reason i wanna be a better person you made me regain love for life and im really thankful for that.

Talvez nunca seré para ti un amigo. Realmente te quiero como un hermano, ese hermano que nunca tuve o mejor amigo que perdí. Sé feliz porfavor y mucho más, hazla feliz. Ella se lo merece.

you cant think its ok to date my best friend only for you to tell me you loved me all this time , i lost her bc of YOUR mistake i wont forgive u

Just one last message:

My heart will always want the best for u & u two are wonderful!

And that’s said without any bitterness since I love to go after my own freedom, dreams & goals

I wish u happiness, always

Just one last message:

My heart will always want the best for u & u two are wonderful together!

And that’s said without any bitterness since I love to go after my own freedom, dreams & goals

I wish u happiness, always

I romanticised you even though you are 16 and too busy to understand love or the way that I need you right now.

I still love you, and a part of me thinks that you know that. I will always love and care for you, even if I date someone else. I’ve heard that you know you’ve found your soulmate when you can say “I love this person despite...” and not “I love this person because...”. Well, I love you despite the lows we went through. I love you despite how you can sometimes be immature and react poorly in situations. I love you despite your flaws. Do you think we are soulmates? Do you think we could date again and it be better? Have you matured and gained confidence? I love you but you know I can’t get back into a relationship like ours, despite all the good that came out of it.

I hate u.I hate u!I HATE u. I want u to stay the fuck out of my life. Don’t act the there is nothing wrong and this is just a small thing. I can’t take this anymore. Please just stop.

I know that I love you
&
I know that I can‘t trust you

You would have deserved it to know everything but it wouldn’t be fair.

I still don’t know if that was all a game to u for years

You never showed me any real intentions.

I‘m not safe enough to open up. And u can’t blame me for that.

My friends were always right with protecting me from u.

Not because ur a bad person but because we always end up in disaster.

I guess it‘s our pride...

Ur so different from everyone I ever met

I don’t think I can find someone like that

But I‘m forever grateful that at one point in my life our worlds crossed

It‘s so unfair to love you.

I just can‘t get rid of it - u got me in too deep & I can‘t get out

Once again I ruined ur happiness & I can‘t forgive myself my own selfishness

Why do we hurt the people we love the most?

I just don’t know what I could say to you.

Yes I‘m still in love with you for years now but what would it change?
Nothing.

Ur in a wonderful relationship & I wish u every blessing this world holds

What the fuck do u expect me to do?

Laying my feelings wide open just for u to turn it against & humiliate me?

Nah, I‘m good.

I‘ll keep them to myself.