From: ABC
To: M
Date: December 14, 2020, 12:23 am
you were my first everything. i keep waiting for you to come back. i keep hoping you will. but i break a little more each day you dont. im in a weird place from wanting to move on and wanting to run into you arms and have you never let go. you were my safe space. my happiness. and now i dont have that. i dont have you. and i miss you more than i can put into words. i would have given you the moon if i could. i dont know why it was so easy for you to leave me when i was so invested in you. i love you and i miss you. you are on my mind constantly. even in my dreams. you have shown up in every single one since you left. we've been apart now longer than we were even together but i still think about every moment i spent with you. sometimes i hate that you show up in my dreams every night. but its the only time i get to spend with you now. even if its a false reality.