Unsent Messages

oh fuck I hope you never find this not that you'll know its you are as clueless as it gets.but I think its time finally let go what been bugging and god knows I'm not going to tell you so might as well tell the world...anonymously anyways the reason I stoped talking to you or cut ties or whatever is because i realized it was always going to be her .I rlly dont blame you.I mean shes likes stunning and funny and daring.but most importantly she is my best friend.i dont blame you because you never rlly knew how i felt exactly so i just blame myself.I was so sick of not being her, having to sit here n console you because she didn't feel the same way.So i had to let you go.but every now and again I feel by self being pulled back and one day maybe ill let myself run back to you,even though you'll always turn a back to me.But right now at this moment in time i have to let go forever.Im so young,were so young that forever dsont mean always never turning back .but i have to tell myself forever so i can maybe sorta kinda move on.Also fuck you for playing that joke on me and if you reading this yk what damn joke I'm talking about that was just a dick move.anyways i think you'll have a place in my heart but I'm not going to yk think about that too much because then ill just get sad again and omg I'm writing this at 4 am god help this is a bad idea anyways by shawty bae see when the stars align again :)