Unsent messages to L

I honestly hate you after everything you did to me, yet there’s still a part of me that knows if you were to come back I would let you in an instant.

i can’t remember how you smell, the sound of your laugh, your favourite colour or how your hand felt in mine.
thank fuck

Aun recuerdo nuestra frase, no quise lastimarte, no estaba lista quisiera verte una vez mas para disculparme pero no creo posible eso

i miss you so much it’s been 2 years, i know we’re just online friends but you mean a lot to me, you said you would come back and text me on my birthday but you never came. i hope you’re doing well and i wonder if you still remember me. thank you for the memories and thank you for sticking up for me, i appreciate it so much. i hope we meet again unexpectedly, i love you.

Hey. You were someone I cared about and it didn't last very long...for you. You liking me was like sharing a jar of joy that we would both pick up and carry around that day but one day you forgot to pick up that jar and then over time you lost your jar of feelings. I didn't. I held mine every day but then I realized you didn't have yours anymore and you were distant. I broke my jar. And now I have no jar. But I don't need one anymore. I have myself. So thank you for helping me see that I am enough.

I didn't use your full name which is how I know your never going to see this but I just wanted you to know I love you so much. I know you probably mean more to me than I do to you but I like you more than my family lol. that last sentence wasn't that funny but anyways. I kinda feel the need to say sorry that I didn't put your full name but I know for a fact you know this website exists and I think I might just die if you ever knew I sent this. im sorry if I seem super clingy sometimes and I know you probably think im super annoying like everyone else but I really love you and I hope someday you can mean what you say now and we can be happy together. we can be those rich bitches that everyone else wants to be and travel the world and we can be the rich aunts who might not ever get married and have kids. falling in love seems nice and all but I think I could live without it as long as I have you.

u messed with my head idk what to feel i think im over u but one thing could change n back would come the attachment issues

I wish we never confessed our feelings to each other. I wish we could still be friends like we used to be. I miss us. Our little dates which were just "friendly". I miss the way we secretly looked at each other. I miss all the memories we could have if we never fucked up our friendship.
I'm sorry.
I love you.
A

Sometimes I wonder what would happened if you didnt sat to me in that class. Would I fall in love with you? Would you fall in love with me?

I love you. I really do. For a year now. I know we are going through some bad times both and we need each other.. so why won't you let me in? I just wanna be with you.

I love you so much and I don't think I'll ever stop. Even if you'd disappear from my life I would still think about you like a love of my life. I love you so badly that I hate you. You made my mentall health so bad, you made me feel so worthless, useless and UNLOVEABLE sooo many times. I hate you for it.. I hate you so much I wish you could see what you did to me. I know I hurt you too, I hurt you so bad I know. I am sorry for that but you hurt me so much too. Even tho I hate you so much I love you and I need you in my life so badly. All my world is turning around you, I don't know what I would be without you. You make me feel so safe, so powerful, so beautiful.

I know he hurt you and it makes you feel hopeless with love. But I can give you what he couldn't. I know he crushed you, I know he broke you. Let me help you, let me be there for you. Even tho you don't deserve me, I'm here for you.

I don't think you'll ever read this and even if you would, you wouldn't think of me. But if you are reading this.. I LOVE YOU, you deserve the whole world, I will never meet anyone like you, you make my heart melt.
I love your smile, your sparkly eyes, your beautiful laugh, your hair. You are perfect in every way. Don't let anyone let you down.
love you.
A.

please tell me how u feel, i’m too scared to make a move bc i don’t want to ruin what we’ve already got, but that doesn’t change the fact that i smile every time i get a notification from u.

You know those patching dinosaur paintings I made for us? Those are meant to be for lovers haha but your my best friend so it’s the same thing

I’m sorry it didn’t work out we had something very special and I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you. I love you and I hope you are happy!

I wish u could trust me like i trust u i wish u could talk to me about stuff because ur the only person i can talk to about stuff i wish u could as well... i think i like u but im not sure

u made me feel something after so long and left me and now i dont know what to do. where did i go wrong?im sorry.

you're such a nice guy, and i know you didn't meant to hurt me like that. but im fucking heartbroken.

im really sorry i hurt you, i meant it when i said i still love you. i couldn’t handle the pressure of a relationship.

Desde que te conocí sentí que mi vida cambió totalmente, pero nunca quise arruinar la amistad. Luego fue pasando el tiempo y nos fuimos alejando, pero te juro que nunca en mi vida te deje de querer y que si pudiera volver el tiempo atrás te diría todo lo que siento por vos una y mil veces

it took you 6 of my closest friends to get over me... i'll never understand why you didnt j talk to me

It’s beautiful, really. Knowing I got to know the younger you. As new people come into your life, they never will.

It’s beautiful, really. Knowing I got to know the younger you. As new people come into your life, they never will.

I know we weren't perfect but I really did love you. I still think about you and how things would've been right now if we were still together. But you would still constantly continue to destroy me no matter how much love I would try to give you. So please don't get upset when I am finally with someone else and happier without you. I've given you so many chances thinking you changed each time but the only thing that kept repeating was our history. I've finally realized my worth. I don't want you anymore and I'm not sorry.

I wish you knew how much you hurt me and how much I still care for you. maybe then you'd feel the same.

i wish we could’ve figured everything out. we still could, it just hurts. do you think about what we could’ve named our baby too?

even though we never so much as spoke, you made my life so much happier. i’m going to miss you halfway across the world

I’m sorry we got so distant, I wish I could turn back time and change things, but I can’t. I hope you’re happy and I’ll always remember you as the girl who made me laugh and made me love you unconditionally.

Así que aquí vamos de nuevo
Sinceramente jamás creí que volvería a escribirte y mucho menos a ti
Y si te lo preguntas si, es un mensaje súper largo mío como los que te enviaba hace algún tiempo y no te gustaba leer. Quiero decirte que la última vez que hablamos me dijiste algo que me hirió mucho
Dijiste que “siempre me quisiste pero no lo suficiente”
Y lamentablemente solo me aferre a ti
Me aferré a tus miserias o lo que fuera que me dieras lo que sí sabía es que no era amor.
Ahora estás con alguien más y se te ve muy feliz
Quizás soy una loca por seguir escribiéndote este mensaje
Por a pesar de todo el daño que me hiciste seguir escribiendo
Pero de algo estoy segura, es que es el último
Ahora conocí a alguien muy especial y por dios que me ama
Me ama con locura
Me ama tal y como soy
Y entonces entendí porque a pesar de tanto tiempo juntos jamás funcionó contigo
No solo era que no me amabas si no que iba a venir algo mejor
Ahora entiendo que el amor es una de las cosas más bonitas
Y se que debo esperar de alguien que dice amarme
Llore mucho y sufrí mucho pero también aprendí mucho contigo
Sobre todo a ver qué no debo esperar miserias de nadie y mucho menos de alguien que no vale la pena
Te deseo lo mejor

La verdad no se por que no puedo decurlo pero eres una persona que adoro con todo mi ser y me da miedo que en algun momento me dejes sola ya que eres una persona realmente tierna y amable.

I was going to text you on New Years eve but you unadded me, I didn't mean to hurt you I didn't mean to make you confused or sad or hurt I was just scared to open up and love you okay. I wish we could at least still have a friendship... I'm not asking for a relationship as much as I wish. I guess you moved on... it hurts because I just want one more FaceTime one more message one more hug. I want to be there for you because you told me about what was a going on with your parents and I wish I told you how I could relate but I just comforted you instead. you haven't told anyone about them so I just wish you knew you could still talk to me about it I really do because I wouldn't judge you I don't judge you okay I listen to the secrets and the storys and the vents so please know I'm here please tell me how its going how home is how your parents cause I know its hard but please tell or talk to someone if its not me. Trust me you worry to much about what other people think... they won't think your weird or not like you if you tell them something about you trust me... I loved you then I loved you when I broke up with you and I still love you know. I just wished you knew how much everyone cares about you. oh and your biggest secret is quite funny like come on I thought it was going to worse haahah. I don't think we will get back together and Im fine with that because we are well and truly just so different from each other... I'm fine with it I just miss you.

It took me a while to realise i've been in love with the wrong person. All this time,it was you.It was you who gave me butterflies,it was you that was always on my mind no matter who i was with.I'm in love with you,but it's too late now.I don't think you feel the same about me.We talk everyday,but i don't think you realise how i feel towards you.

You're probably in-love with her. I'm still in love with you. I hope it works out for you, like it never worked out for us. The days we don’t talk feels like years. Like that Paramore song I love, “your silence is the most violent.” God I miss us. I’m sorry I pushed you away but I wasn’t going to be treated that way. I don’t even know if there will be an us in the future. How could I possibly trust you again? Telling each other we are soulmates, telling me you don’t like me going on dates, telling me I could maybe wait like I waited for you and you waited for me? So many things...and yet, I would say yes to being with you in a heartbeat. And that’s the worst part. I love you, but I’m accepting our fate now. Maybe we’re just not meant to be, no matter how right it felt. I don’t need love right now. I’ve got myself, and I’m okay with that. The thought of being with you still lingers. I still have random conversations in my head and think of your reply. But you want her instead. And that hurts so god damn much. I feel tossed aside and that is why I left. I’m still in love with you.

I'm just hoping for a sign of u so I don't have to go to that date bc I'm still of thinking of u & I'm still not over u... obviously
D

j’ai constamment une sensation de brûlure sur ma joue, comme une douleur fantôme, là où tu posais ta main.

honestly, i would have chosen you. had it not been your best friend liking me and confessing first we could have been. then again, i couldnt stand the stupid love triangle

You are my first love, the most unlikely one too. Even though i can barely compare it yet. But it's you

each time i close my eyes to go to bed i’m out right back in that seat, that night, hearing my own screams of fear. why did you have to hurt me that way?

The emptiness inside of me screams for you because you’re the only one that can fill it. My home is you.

i miss you so much but i’m certain you hate me. you don’t message or call me anymore, you ignore me when i reach out and i’m getting too tired to carry on now. if you ever think of me i hope it’s not full of hate or anything of the sort because i love you guys so much. please remember that you are all so so loved by me and so many people. i miss you guys everyday.

i convince myself i don’t love you but then as soon as i hear your name my heart hurts, why is it only you can make me feel this way? i miss you, i miss your eyes , i miss your laugh, i miss your hair , i miss hugging you and feeling your warmth around me it pains me to know we may never find each other again because if i knew the last time kissing you was the last time i don’t think i would ever stopped , and i’m so sorry i messed this up and i hurt you , you’re the one thing that was worth keeping in my life and i still managed to lose you , but thank you for trying so hard - you really did show me what it felt like to be loved.

I didn’t like the word darlin until u started calling me it. Now every time someone says it, It reminds me of u

i think i've finally stopped liking you. thank you for the memories, but i'd rather forget about them. hopefully, as time passes i'll forget little details about the days we spent together, and when i find someone, i'll stop looking for pieces of you. why is it that every poem i've written, every song i've hummed, every painting i've made, had to be about you? why do i tell stories about us as if 'we' still exist? you were the first one i've loved, intense, eager and problematic, but a learning experience all in all. i hope that this is the last note on here that i write about you. goodbye .

I‘m not over you but I sure as hell never want to see you again, telling me lies about waiting for the „right time“. Fuck off, sincerely R

everytime we tallk, its about them. its like u dont care about me anymore. i always listen to ur problems. but when i asked for help all you did was repeat what i have said. i dont think you realise how much it hurts hearing you talk about how much u dont have a life when im literally right next to you hearing all the crazy shit you do. i love you, but at the same time fuck you for hurting me when i finally started to feel better

I never stopped choosing you. But you always chose someone else. Every time. I still choose you. Every time.

i don't even know what happened. you are such a good person and when u wanted me back i had to be brave because i knew i'd just be hurt again... good luck in life :)

though i only knew you for a few months i cared for you deeply. however it showed that you did not feel the same. it was truly your loss babe

Cariño, te espere tanto tiempo que me he cansado de amar, pero no me canso de pensarte o de soñarte. Solo vuelve.

I know you're a busy person. But I always wonder if I'm holding on too tight. If my love is too suffocating.

I always hoped it was you in the end, maybe in another life we were something beautiful. But in this life we were only temporarily something and for that , I’m grateful you stepped foot in my life and made my childhood so much fun. I love you, wherever you may be.

i wish you could just come back. i know you’re still here, but ever since you got with them it feels like you’re not.

I don't understand why you decided to play with me, with my feelings, I'm constantly asking me what did I did to you.
You always asked me to be honest all the time, but you weren't honest with me, you lied, you Said that you loved me but you love her, you cheated on me with your ex-girlfriend, but, even of that I never did an scandal, instead of that I treated you with kindness, but it didn't matter, did it? Because you gave my phone number to her to call me, she told me everything about you and her, how you made fun about me.
But you know something, I have something that makes me different from your ex-girlfriend and it's that I love myself, because I've never had the need to call of send messages saying words with the intention of huerta Someone like she did.
I wish good Things to you, even when you tried to hurt me, I forgive you, we are humans, we make mistakes,
You remember that I always told you that we are all humans and we make mistakes but we have to try not to hurt the people who are close to us as much as possible.