I can’t remember anything about you, how you looked like, how you sounded like, how tall you were, what made you you. But I still remember how much I loved you and how easy it was to forget you scares me.

I like you and i don’t know how to tell you, you’re just another stranger on the internet or at least I thought you were but I can’t stop thinking about you. I probably mean nothing to you. But that’s okay, that’s how it should be. I don’t deserve your attention.

you’ll never know how much i wanted to be with you and how badly i fell in love with you, because my mind won’t let you get close to me again

i wish i was the one you beg to stay, the one you joke around with, the one you wish i was more like. i wish we could go back to when it was u and me vs. the world, instead of u and her vs. me.

Maybe you don't mind leavinng me alone without giving me an explanation,I know you didn't fell good but you never told me. you were not a bad person, u were a very important person to me.I love u too much and I'll kepp doing it. I don't know if you fell the same but if you come back I'll keep waiting.

I feel like everything is changing and now I can't even speak to you at all. You once told me I could always message you when things were hard but I don't know if that still stands. I wish we could just talk

I hate how I can't even say your name. I hate that the reason why I don't talk to you is so I don't fall back in love. I hate that I don't hate you.

I wish we never met. Why can’t I get rid of you out of my head? I keep seeing things that remind me of you. Your name follows me everywhere. Sometimes I feel such an ache for you. I feel like you took a part of me and now I’m not whole anymore. I hope it goes well for you with her. She is nothing like me. She never will be. I’m one of a kind. And you lost out on me big time. Maybe I can’t remember, but maybe we didn’t even get on that well? My memory is so foggy. Days just form into one. An endless cycle. Why do I do these things to myself? Will you come back? Part of me wants you too, I hate myself for that. I just want to tell you what you’ve done. It’s Christmas...I’m meant to be happy. However I’m not. It’s been a week. It’s a little easier. I thought of you today. I remembered the moment I saw you for the first time. How you hugged me. I cant explain that feeling. It was like a blow to my stomach. I choked up but kept it together. I felt so lonely, missing you more than ever. God, I wish I hugged you tighter the last time I saw you. When I told you that before we stopped talking, you didn’t even care. You just stopped caring. I miss the old you. I loved you. I don’t know how I feel now. It’s hard to stay mad at you. It hurts me to think about what you’re doing with her...are you looking into her eyes the same way you looked into mine? Does she make you laugh more than I did? Do you talk better/ more easily with her? Does she keep you interested? Do you spend all night calling on the phone for hours and watching movies together? Do you text her goodmorning? Do you tell her how pretty she is? Does she kiss you like I never got the chance to do? You said I did all these things...and then you became uninterested. Why would you toy with me like this? What did I do to deserve this? And you were selfish enough to ask me why I wasn’t going to be there for you anymore? Haven’t you done enough? I cant keep going like this. I miss you so much. It hurts my heart. I think I still love you. Here’s to hoping I can move on with my life. Without you

La verdad no se por que no puedo decurlo pero eres una persona que adoro con todo mi ser y me da miedo que en algun momento me dejes sola ya que eres una persona realmente tierna y amable.

Así que aquí vamos de nuevo
Sinceramente jamás creí que volvería a escribirte y mucho menos a ti
Y si te lo preguntas si, es un mensaje súper largo mío como los que te enviaba hace algún tiempo y no te gustaba leer. Quiero decirte que la última vez que hablamos me dijiste algo que me hirió mucho
Dijiste que “siempre me quisiste pero no lo suficiente”
Y lamentablemente solo me aferre a ti
Me aferré a tus miserias o lo que fuera que me dieras lo que sí sabía es que no era amor.
Ahora estás con alguien más y se te ve muy feliz
Quizás soy una loca por seguir escribiéndote este mensaje
Por a pesar de todo el daño que me hiciste seguir escribiendo
Pero de algo estoy segura, es que es el último
Ahora conocí a alguien muy especial y por dios que me ama
Me ama con locura
Me ama tal y como soy
Y entonces entendí porque a pesar de tanto tiempo juntos jamás funcionó contigo
No solo era que no me amabas si no que iba a venir algo mejor
Ahora entiendo que el amor es una de las cosas más bonitas
Y se que debo esperar de alguien que dice amarme
Llore mucho y sufrí mucho pero también aprendí mucho contigo
Sobre todo a ver qué no debo esperar miserias de nadie y mucho menos de alguien que no vale la pena
Te deseo lo mejor

you left me 4 months ago. i’m still hoping that you’ll text me again, saying you want me back.
i love you.

we fought so much that we were addicted to it, because we couldn’t imagine a life without it. At least not together.

you’re back in my life again. i am so scared to see what’s going to happen next. let’s go for another round.

I knew I loved you when you kissed the plaster you’d just put on my burnt finger. I knew it hadn’t gone away when we kissed naked on the street in the pitch black night.

Somehow I thought that you were different, turns out I was wrong
(you still have amazing taste in music tho)

Cuando te pregunto algo, no es para que lo evadas, es para que me des respuestas.
Pero como se que no vas a responder, prefiero callarme y decir que fui una estúpida al preguntar.

I’m sorry we got so distant, I wish I could turn back time and change things, but I can’t. I hope you’re happy and I’ll always remember you as the girl who made me laugh and made me love you unconditionally.

I wanted you to myself, i know it was selfish and bitchy but i love you to damn much and i scared if i give you space ill lose you forever

I think I like you. But I'm not sure. I just know that you're on my mind atleast 3 hours a day and I'm not complaining about it.

Cuando te cruze por el pasillo y me ignoraste me dolió mucho más que si me hubieras rechazado. Me enamore de vos, no lo planee y nisiquiera me había dado cuenta. Fuiste mi primer amor pero antes de eso eras mi amigo

fuiste la primera persona de la que me enamoré en serio, lo que yo sentía si era de verdad, te sigo amando.

i want to message u so bad right now and tell u how bad i miss u. I am upset about other things and about u and i want someone to talk to about that but i really only want to talk to you. But i need to have self respect and realise that you do not care. You don't miss me. i am crying in my room to 00's music and you are happy as hell, and ur probably messaging her.

gracias por los momentos que vivimos, se claro con lo que quieres desde un principio, no ilusiones a nadie mas porfavor bai

What ended us?
Tbh I don't fully know. But maybe it's when I found out u never never cared about me. U were willing to dispose of me. Or when I realized u don't care about anything I have to say. Maybe a combination. I don't fully know. U need me out of your life anyways. And I'm starting to think that too.

yes you were leaving and i know you wanted me to tell you to stay but as much as i wanted to i still had to let you go.

fuck you. i have only ever waited for you and no matter how many times you did me dirty i never said a bad word about you. i spoke so fucking highly of you and for some fucked up reason i thought you would do the same. i know that what is happening is the start of you trying to come back again but i dont know if i can do this anymore. i deserve so much better. im done. im sorry.

i know that no matter how angry i am at you it will never last. i hate having a soft spot for you, i wish i didnt.

i feel guilty for getting angry at you, its not your fault and i know that but i cant stop. i just wish things were different.

i really liked you but apparently you were so fucking jealous of me that u started to bully me I still love you with my whole heart but I FUCKING HATR U U MOTHERFUCKING UGLY ASS FREAKING RAT

You cant hate me cause I'm gay. You used to be my best friend. I shouldn't have to hide who I am because I fear you. IM GAY does that bother you??? leave me alone. and no, I never had a crush on you wtf you're not even my type

I wish you could’ve understood it’s not my fault it never was my fault. I’m not better but you could’ve been.

you were good for what I needed at the time, But I can't miss that version of myself, I'm too much of a romantic.

I miss being happy. God I feel so weak, all I want is for you to text me and we talk, just like the old times. I miss you. I hear and see your name everywhere. It hurts me to think of what you’re doing and saying to her...I would’ve done anything to be in her position. That sounds so dumb and selfish. You tossed me aside for someone else. I guess that’s what our friendship means to you. Come back and don’t come back at all. I hate you and love you.

Sometimes I wonder what you would say if you saw me cry. I wonder what you would do differently if I told you what was wrong. I wonder what would you think of yourself.

i knew everything would fall apart after you took off the bracelet. we promised we’d keep them on forever.

Can we call it even? You hurt me and I hurt you. We spent too much time getting even.Let's make it work. I still miss u

i’m sorry, i’m sorry that i hurt u more than anything. sometimes when our eyes meet in the halls it all floods back again

I don’t understand how you can dislike yourself the way you do. If only you could see yourself through my eyes. You inspire me daily, and I’m eternally grateful for you. I love you.

I hate how much I still love you even after you hurt me so many times. I hate that you dont even seem to care even though you know it

being in love with you made me so blind. you’re emotionally unavailable and a douche. fuck u and ur girlfriend

You could give me 100 reasons to believe you but I’ve given myself 101 reasons to believe I don’t deserve it.

we never were a thing. we barely even spoke but i am obsessed with you. i don't even know if it's a crush or you're just my favorite person. i need to get over you. it's been over a year now. it hurts. i still think of you all the time. even when talking to others. i need help.

I wish you knew that by you no longer loving me, I question every word I say and every action I take in fear of everyone leaving me again.

You said that you’d always love me as a friend. I was too hurt to understand, but I get it now. I wish we were friends.

even though we never so much as spoke, you made my life so much happier. i’m going to miss you halfway across the world

we stayed up so late because we didn’t want to waste our short amount of time we had together. miss u sleeping on me

you are the one person i have never even come close to getting over. i genuinely think i’ll be in love with you for the rest of my life.

We are both online waiting to say something. At night I'll keep my phone close in case you want to talk. goodnight

i miss you more than words can describe. i wonder if you truly are over me sometimes. it hurts. i love you.

we both know we had something special. Even our friends could tell. I will forever be asking why you threw it away, and why you don't still feel anything.