Unsent Messages

You're probably in-love with her. I'm still in love with you. I hope it works out for you, like it never worked out for us. The days we don’t talk feels like years. Like that Paramore song I love, “your silence is the most violent.” God I miss us. I’m sorry I pushed you away but I wasn’t going to be treated that way. I don’t even know if there will be an us in the future. How could I possibly trust you again? Telling each other we are soulmates, telling me you don’t like me going on dates, telling me I could maybe wait like I waited for you and you waited for me? So many things...and yet, I would say yes to being with you in a heartbeat. And that’s the worst part. I love you, but I’m accepting our fate now. Maybe we’re just not meant to be, no matter how right it felt. I don’t need love right now. I’ve got myself, and I’m okay with that. The thought of being with you still lingers. I still have random conversations in my head and think of your reply. But you want her instead. And that hurts so god damn much. I feel tossed aside and that is why I left. I’m still in love with you.