Unsent messages to R

i wish i never met you. but you've helped me change to the better versions of myself every time our paths cross. so fuck you and thank you.

I’m forever thankful for you as you made me feel something I’ve never felt. I know it was my fault and no one else is to blame but me. I’m hopeful I will someday forgive myself but as of now thank you.

I’m sorry I rejected you at that time. So much problems were occurring and I couldn’t even love myself. You were my right person but at the wrong time. I was blindly in love with someone who didn’t even notice me while you were there the whole time. I want you back but I don’t know if your even willing to be friends again. I’m thankful that you made me feel something I’ve never felt before and for that I thank you.

You're a coward. I know that now, but then again so am I. You should have just told me that you didn't love me anymore once you felt it. The thought of you pretending to care for that long is what hurt most of all. But it's okay. I never cry over you anymore.

I showed you that I really want something with you and you don't care about me, it hurts not to be with you ...

I did so much to be with you and you threw it all away. It's almost 2 years and I still fight with my mom about you. I hate you more and more everyday, yet I still cry when I think of your eyes. When is this going to stop?

At least once a day, I remember I could’ve called you that morning and then maybe you’d still be here.

Why did u let me fall for you? Why did you tell your mom about me when you knew it would never happen?

Llevo escribiendo una serie de cartas a tu nombre hace un tiempo, por el momento son solo 3 y esperó algún día ser capas de escribir la última y solamente dejarte ir de mi mente

I keep your love notes in a drawer, i know you don’t feel that way anymore, it just feels nice knowing you really used to....love don’t get better than you.

Everything for us happened too fast. We were best friends and like each other in the same year that we meet. Then we stop to talk for so many reasons.
To this day, I still liking u.

te ame tanto, pero no lo logre expresar. Eras unica amandome, y creiste que no te valore, pero te ame como nadie nunca te va a amar

this is all so overwhelming... it’s all getting to be too much... but still, I will keep on loving you

my dad is an asshole and i still love him, no matter what he did to me. the same thing happens with you

Jamás te he odiado, siempre he pensado que fuiste la mejor persona del universo, creí todo lo lindo que decías sobre mí, pero, luego de 3 días de dejarte estuviste con alguien, espero equivocarme. Es hora de dejarte ir porque no me gusta sentir odio hacia ti, ojalá y te arrepientas toda tu vida porque no volveré.

Im scared that we will not end up together or you will get tired of me. I don’t want to have my heart broken again. I love you, I hope you love me too

I hope we end together, dont get tired of me, stay with me as long as you can, I promise to love you more than I already love you.

I hope we end together because every day you make me happier. Dont get tired of me, stay with me as long as you can, I promise to love you more than I already love you.

You need to let me go, please stop talking about me. I am trying to move on and be happy. You shouldn't have added me. If you need to contact me, i didn't block your number. I can't promise I will text back.

why could you forget about me so easily?after everything we've been through?after how much i loved you?

i truly love you and i wanna spend my life with you, i truly believe we are soulmates. But i also don’t wanna see your face ever again.

what happened to you? What happened to you loving me? When did you fall out of love?it hurts to miss you.

it feels like a pit in my stomach when i see you with her. i’m glad your happy i just wish you were happy with me

I fell out of love with you but I still love you so much and I hope that you are doing fine and don´t miss me.

Thank you, you showed me how beautiful life can be. I wish I could still have that beautiful life I had back then.

if it weren’t for you, i wouldn’t be where i am today. i don’t like where i am today. you changed it all for me. yet you still own my heart. you’ll always be my special one.
blue was our favorite color, it’s mines still, dk bout you tho.

I love you I think you are one of the most beautiful things that has happened to me and you improve everything that is wrong I hope this beautiful thing that we do never ends and if it ends I hope you always remember it and always be by my side even if you are not mine I also hope I never suffer by your side and if it happens it would be a big disappointment I love you so much boo, I never want to lose you and thank you for everything especially for making us talk about everything, it is more and more fun to be with you and I am excited to know It will happen later, I love you a thousand and I am here for you always

Hey,I like you,a lot.. You already know though. I know it’s weird since it’s all online,but I hope one day after this coronavirus shit is over i can hang out with out and just have fun with you,bc your super cool. hope we can see each other irl one day. :)

Why are u so kind with me ? Why do u want to help me ? Do u feel obliged ? It's because u love me ? Why do u don't say that u love me ? U don't love me ? U stay with me because ? Because what ?

hey , i dont know why i thought we woukd last but i was just in a really low place back then . you kept playing with my emotions but i didnt want to go i wasnt over you and it took me so long to be full over you because i had never fallen in love before my heart felt physically unable to cope you changed me and i think that was for the best . i did start to love myself more buy you werent with me because you loved me u were with me because u pitied me nd my mental health. i dont love you anymore because ive seen how you are now and ive moved on and im living the best life i coukd live

I love you too much but i'll never be enough for you, not after her. I know it's time to let you go but you mean so much to me even as a friend. Idk if i will ever fall for someone when you exist in my life. I can't escaped thinking of you, of us, our similarities that you'll never notice and will never want to because i'm me, an ugly friend of yours who you look at as a cute sister. This pain and emotion is endless, i can't handle it anymore. Seeing you makes everything even worse. As I'm writing this my heart is beating so fast. I wish you could see yourself the way that i see you. I've never seen someone more special than you, you are all i've wanted but i guess the timing is wrong. I know that you feel something too but will never break it to yourself because you don't want to, why would you? I'm nothing compared to you, her or anyone you've liked. Your texts kill me everytime. I wish i could die so this painful life would stop

Lu , me hiciste sentir muy amada perdóname por querer haber atentando contra mi vida cuando me dejaste , pero entiende eras todo para mi, me hacías muy feliz , se q eras celosa y tóxica pero eso para mi no significaba nada:(( solamente quiero volver a verte y decirte q me hiciste muy feliz

All I wanted was a relationship with you, all I wanted was to feel loved but you just wanted someone who would give you what you wanted even if it was selfish

I hope one day you realize how much I loved you and I loved you because of your personality not because of what you have or your body or just because I wanted to feel loved for a moment, no, I wanted to always feel loved by you but you prefered the life of not apreciating the people who actually love you and prefer going for the horny and pretty girls

Hey, tell me.. is there someone new now? Do you have someone else to talk to from day to night? Someone to drink with? Someone else's family you wanted to impress? Is it really no longer me?

Remember when you told me that youre falling too fast? you should've told me that you move on fast as well.

I'm so scared of loving you but you were so good at reassuring me that I thought I'll never lose you.

Putang ina. Akalain mo yun marunong pala ako magmahal, kaya lang sana hindi na lang. Sana hindi sa'yo.

te hubiese gustado si fuera más bonita?
porque a mi me gustabas aunque tú no te consideraras lindo.
yo te veía perfecto.

i liked you, i really liked you, but why you talked first to me if you liked other girl??? its been such a long time, i dont like you anymore, but i still thinking about you, i still thinking what if i had done it better? Could have worked if I had told you I liked you at that time?

We became best friends after school. Talking to you saved me so much. Then we started falling for each other and we got together. I don't understand. You have a long term boyfriend and I have one too? When? What the hell?

I should have hugged u a little bit longer. i didn't know that was gonna be the last hug i got from u.

I miss you, all the time, I think about you all the time. You changed me, made me want to continue, made me forget life, my problems

I love you and miss you so much. I wish you were in my arms and I could hug you forever. I hope one day I can see you again. I wish I were her. But it's okay because she makes you happy.

youre gone right now,i mean you come back soon, but i realized my feelings are so much deeper, and it scares you, you might not feel the same, i dont just like you, i think i love you.

att jag aldrig var tillräcklig för dig gör ont varje dag. jag trodde att du ville ha mig men du ljög, du ljög för mig hela tiden. och valde henne tillslut
du sårade mig och du fattar inte ens själv

i wish you realized how much i need you, you seem so distracted by life to not notice me calling out for you

Lol I’ve never told you this, but I started playing softball and video games because of you. That sounds really dumb, but it’s true. Now I genuinely love doing both so Thankyou :)

Lol I miss playing video games with you. When you asked me if I ever played video games and I said yes, I was just lying. I just wanted to spend time with you, so I learned how to play and now I enjoy it, but now every time I play, I think about you.

i am in so much pain i dont understand how you could just forget me like this you never text me anymore you act like you dont care was everything you said just a lie?? i really dont understand you fucking told me you loved me?? like what the fuck did u even mean that shit? u rlly dont act like u do now. and i want what is best for you 100% which is why im not mad you broke up with me but i am really upset because now u dont talk to me and i feel like all of our love was a fucking lie. u view all my shit and never say anything u see i be sad over shit and dont say nothing and i genuinely feel like u dont fucking care at all and its a really sucky feeling. ive been heartbroken before as u know but it has never ever felt like this because i saw actual potential in you and us and our bond no matter what we were to each other and you were special to me and i would fo amything for you to talk to me again i know u r coming home soon im too scared to txt u but i rlly feel like we shud see each other again and talk ab shit. u will never see this and if u do ik u will make fun of me for doing it on this cringey ass shit but i just never wud b able to send this lmao. i felt so lucky to have met you and i believe we met for a reason. it sucks to feel like ur fine with just letting this bond die out. u prolly will never see but if u do, text me i still love u loser and i think ab u all the time. i hope youre okay i hope ur mental health is okay i hope u r happy thats all i rlly want ig i just dont understand where i stand to u anymore or what the fuck changed idek what im saying at this point its 2am and i fucking miss u
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im actually insanr yea i know whatevet tho i just rlly care ab u