Unsent Messages

I love you too much but i'll never be enough for you, not after her. I know it's time to let you go but you mean so much to me even as a friend. Idk if i will ever fall for someone when you exist in my life. I can't escaped thinking of you, of us, our similarities that you'll never notice and will never want to because i'm me, an ugly friend of yours who you look at as a cute sister. This pain and emotion is endless, i can't handle it anymore. Seeing you makes everything even worse. As I'm writing this my heart is beating so fast. I wish you could see yourself the way that i see you. I've never seen someone more special than you, you are all i've wanted but i guess the timing is wrong. I know that you feel something too but will never break it to yourself because you don't want to, why would you? I'm nothing compared to you, her or anyone you've liked. Your texts kill me everytime. I wish i could die so this painful life would stop