Unsent messages to R
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 3, 2021, 6:57 am UTC
I am furious at you because you don't need me as much as I need you but I think I might like you. I can't keep falling for my best friends. I haven't even seen you for a year. please call me back.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 3, 2021, 3:15 am UTC
You know what you say hurts me yet you still say it, I do whatever I can do be good to you and you repay me with that
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 3, 2021, 12:52 am UTC
You changed my life, I still mis you sometimes. I kinda hoped we eould talk again, sorry things ended the way they did even though it was your fault
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 2, 2021, 5:53 pm UTC
In such a short time we fell deeply in love, without thinking about the consequences it would bring us.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 2, 2021, 12:23 pm UTC
I try not to think of you, but a piece of you is still in everything. Theres some songs that ill never listen to again.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 2, 2021, 8:53 am UTC
i don’t even know if i like you in that way but hm you were the only person who i think cared for me. i know you don’t like me like that and you probably just check up on me now and then cause you feel bad for me. i hope that i’m less of a burden now :)
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 2, 2021, 4:06 am UTC
i cant believe i loved you. you were the first thing i thought about every morning & the only thing on my mind. i looked past all your toxic traits. you constantly invalidated me, which led me to believe I wasn’t sick enough. i wanted to get worse so bad, i did everything i could to become sicker.
you make me retch
i hope you get what you deserve
From: ABC
To: R
Date: January 1, 2021, 10:31 pm UTC
I wish I wasn’t falling for you so hard. I’ll leave soon and it’s tearing me apart to not being able to tell you.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 31, 2020, 9:30 pm UTC
I miss you. I’m sorry for not being as supportive as I could’ve. I wish we could talk things out. I love you sm even though I don’t show it
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 31, 2020, 9:23 am UTC
you knowingly ruined my life time and time again, but i still want you. maybe im just stupid like you said.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 31, 2020, 7:58 am UTC
fuck u fuck u fuck u, u promised me so much, and yet we are here. Heading into 2021 without the laughter and friendship. U DUMB SHIT
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 31, 2020, 6:37 am UTC
I liked talking to you. I liked you. I wasn't supposed to because you're my best friends ex but we did connect and I know I said we didn't but we did and now you're distant and somethings off and you won't talk to me and it feels sucky :(
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 31, 2020, 5:39 am UTC
why. i’m trying my best and you don’t seem to understand that. you saved my life but for some reason you keep making me feel worthless. I really need you
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 30, 2020, 12:55 am UTC
I still remember how it felt kissing you for the first time. I’ve never felt that kind of magic since and I’m not sure I ever will.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 28, 2020, 11:17 pm UTC
i have no idea how you made me fall for you but now i cant get up and everytime i see you with him im pushed further down
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 28, 2020, 7:36 pm UTC
Ojalá te hubieras lanzado. No sĂ© si serĂa el alcohol o serĂa otra cosa, pero me habrĂa encantado poder haber pasado la noche junto a ti, tal y como me abrazabas y solo pido que se repita esa noche y que nunca acabe. Ojalá te hubieras lanzado, lo estaba deseando, aunque mi corazĂłn me diga que no es lo correcto.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 28, 2020, 8:47 am UTC
Lo que nunca te dije.
SĂ, me gustabas. PerdĂłn por no decĂrtelo antes e irme sin despedirme. Fuiste la primera persona en hacerme sentir bonita.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 27, 2020, 11:31 am UTC
i badly want to be official with you but you make me question your loyalty every time we argue & you go and entertain other females
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 27, 2020, 2:49 am UTC
Both of my boyfriends cheated on me but liking you hurt just as much. How is it suddenly my fault for liking you. I really hope you grow as a person and realise how much words can hurt. I hope this growth brings self love your way so you realise it’s not impossible for you to be loved. I think I could’ve. If you’d given me the chance. It could have been perfect, a love that started on a roof. I only hope you can be nicer to the next girl that comes along. I hope that girl isn’t me, I’m sick of being submissive to lads like you. Grow up.
P.s. you were the one seeking attention, the difference is, you got it.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 27, 2020, 1:17 am UTC
You really hurt me, and you don’t even know. And now you’re back with her...
Being just friends with you is so hard, but I can’t not have you in my life so I guess I’ll have to live with it being like this.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 26, 2020, 10:55 pm UTC
I dreamt of you again. Twice in a day. The 2nd was so painful that I couldn’t wake up & was crying already. Imy.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 26, 2020, 9:05 pm UTC
De verdad que te querĂa en mi vida para siempre pero por ser como eres te he ido dejando de querer pero me vas a doler toda la vida.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 25, 2020, 11:55 pm UTC
I can’t even bear to type out your full name. Every time I hear your name my heart breaks a little more and my stomach starts to hurt, it’s like butterflies of pain eating me from the inside out. Even they know you’re not good enough but I want you.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 25, 2020, 4:58 am UTC
i can’t stop thinking about you. it’s gross, i don’t wanna fall in love with you. you’re my best friend and we’re both with somebody.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 24, 2020, 8:02 pm UTC
hej ! jesteś super fajna, bardzo ciebie lubie i ogólnie to mi sie podobasz. ale no raczej nie będziemy razem bo sie przyjaźnimy i byłoby dziwnie. poza tym po prostu sama mysl ze należe do alfabetowej mafii i to że podoba mi sie dziewczyna w chuj mnie przeraża.... poza tym ciebie tak ciężko rozgryźć haha, może jak kiedys będę bardziej komfortowo czuła z moja orientacja to sie zgadamy
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 23, 2020, 6:55 pm UTC
i’m literally so in love with you but you don’t even know, you don’t even remember half the things you’ve said and i wish i could tell you but you’re my best friend rip
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 23, 2020, 4:11 pm UTC
I wish I could go back, to support you, to stop you before you overdosed, to love you like you deserve to be loved. To not leave you the way I did.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 23, 2020, 10:25 am UTC
i want to tell you so many things but i cant. im to scared to say them, i didnt even think we'd talk for this long but i was wrong. and i want you to know so many things, but first i need to know that your not getting bored
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 23, 2020, 5:45 am UTC
as much as i hate you for everything, please never stop smiling. it would hurt me too much to know you did.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 22, 2020, 1:05 pm UTC
you gave up while I was just getting ready to jump, I'm not hanging on a cliff but it sure feels like it
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 22, 2020, 2:46 am UTC
I didn't realize I had fallen for you until now. You have someone new and it hurts. I'm sorry I didn't realize earlier.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 22, 2020, 1:04 am UTC
I literally never stopped loving you. It hurts that you never loved me back. But I want you to be happy.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 22, 2020, 12:24 am UTC
What hurts the most is that with you I actually thought someone could want me for more than my body. I was wrong.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 21, 2020, 2:06 pm UTC
you will never know how much it hurts to watch u leave slowly and not being able to do anything about it
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 21, 2020, 5:25 am UTC
You were in my dreams a couple times. I think I did fall in love with you, I just didn't want to say it
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 20, 2020, 9:29 pm UTC
i’m sorry that i said all those hurtful things to you, i didn’t mean it. i wasn’t in a right headspace at the time. i hope you comeback to me.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 19, 2020, 11:35 pm UTC
I watch you spend all night flirting with another girl, just for you to go back to bed with me. It's not fair how much time I spend trying to be good enough for you just for you to not think about me and throw my feelings away because you know you still have me.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 18, 2020, 10:27 am UTC
i hate you so much. you played with my feelings over and over for the past two years. but I hope everything is going well for u, it seems to be.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 18, 2020, 8:49 am UTC
POTANGINA shet bakit ganyan. Gusto kita pero hindi pwede kasi meron iba,,, kaibigan lang tayo pero bakit minsan pag kausap kita sumasakit ng dib dib ko,,,,hindi ko alam kung linalaruan mo lang ng feelings ko kasi alam tunkol dati,,, pero hindi ko alam,,, hayaan na lang kita,,,
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 17, 2020, 6:38 am UTC
Sometimes I feel like I’ll never be able to love like that again. All I see is you. Why is this still so hard.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 17, 2020, 2:55 am UTC
I guess this is it. After almost 3 years of breakup, we’re finally letting go of each other. Please stay safe.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 16, 2020, 8:31 pm UTC
My mood switched and i stopped talking that night because i knew you weren’t gonna miss me as much as i was gonna miss you
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 15, 2020, 7:22 pm UTC
ty for showing me what love isn't it took me 6 months to get over you, but also fuck you bc now I m scared that the next guy will cause me the same pain
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 15, 2020, 7:07 pm UTC
You took it. You took my happiness and gave it to her. I thought you’d take care of it and eventually give it all back. But now it’s not even my place to say I love you. I just hope your smile is bigger than when you were with me. I just hope she looks at you the way I did.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:39 pm UTC
not to my first lover but to my "real" friend. i loved u so much but u broke my heart because u were mad at other people. the words u said without thinking hurt me so bad. why why why. i know you know that i'm very soft and i cant take shit. why did u do that. after all just fuck you
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:13 pm UTC
We really could have had something you lost out. You seem so nice but there's something wrong and I don't know what it is. I really liked you and I couldn't hold back that's why I kissed you. Yes I kissed you but you initiated it. You did me dirty but I corrected it. Have a good life.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 9:47 pm UTC
You were my first love, my best friend. Really my only friend. I knew you since primary and know ur pulling this shit? seriously Fuck you. Have fun with my other best friend.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 8:31 pm UTC
i miss you, a lot. i still haven't quite figured out who i am without you, but i'm getting there. you'll always have a place in my heart.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 7:46 pm UTC
I wonder if you miss me like I miss you. I wonder if you realise you ruined the word love to me. But I hope your okay. I hope you love her like I loved you.
From: ABC
To: R
Date: December 14, 2020, 11:18 am UTC
if I could be anywhere it would be with you in the summer lying down in the grass & listening to that album
