i love you more than i love myself, but the more you control me, the more i start to love myself more than i love you...

You were my first love, my best friend. Really my only friend. I knew you since primary and know ur pulling this shit? seriously Fuck you. Have fun with my other best friend.

I should have hugged u a little bit longer. i didn't know that was gonna be the last hug i got from u.

We really could have had something you lost out. You seem so nice but there's something wrong and I don't know what it is. I really liked you and I couldn't hold back that's why I kissed you. Yes I kissed you but you initiated it. You did me dirty but I corrected it. Have a good life.

not to my first lover but to my "real" friend. i loved u so much but u broke my heart because u were mad at other people. the words u said without thinking hurt me so bad. why why why. i know you know that i'm very soft and i cant take shit. why did u do that. after all just fuck you

I wish I wasn’t falling for you so hard. I’ll leave soon and it’s tearing me apart to not being able to tell you.

I keep walking past this park where we kissed for the first time, and with a heavy heart, I hope deep down that you do the same sometimes.

I stopped begging the day I understood u weren't pushing me away bc of who I was but bc of who u are.

you were the first girl I properly loved and fell for. I'm scared to tell you because you are my best friend and I don't want to lose you. watching you with other people breaks me but nothing beats seeing you happy.

All those years i was oblivious to it, but it was always you. I guess i'm glad i didn't realize it until after you were out of my life; it would've hurt too much back then. Thank you for everything.

i can't type your name out because it's very weird and distinctive but also cool but also funny how every time you're drunk you tell me the same stories about your family history and life background and about how you want to read maths and philosophy books in their original language, why the fuck do we have to be on exactly the same wavelength we have the same the same sense of humour and outlook on life and you work so hard but also ask me about my life and can see into my fucking soul i am going to kill you why are you in the room underneath mine you can probably hear me typing right now why do you have to have a girlfriend i am genuinely genuinely genuinely jealous why the fuck do you act like she doesn't exist fuck giselle im sure shes lovely thats the problem but she cant be that amazing if youre so fucking flirty why do we have a string that runs from your window to mine why do you randomly message me when the conversation is so unncessary why did you pour popcorn over my head why do you sit so close to me when you are drunk having drank the same drink as me why have you drunk texted me twice why did we go on an 11pm trip to tesco i am going to fucking kill you why do you have to be from the same place as me you remind me of home and my family and my friends and our houses are like 30 minutes from eachother what the fuck like my friend literally knows your friend why is it that i always find myself in situations that seem so meant to be that it is actually infuriating i could throw my laptop out of the window why the fuck can i hear you moving around why does it matter if i throw my greek textbook just to piss you off why the fuck do you have a girlfriend why do you laugh like that and wear a fucking necklace and a ring that's so cute you are so sure of yourself yet so insecure at the same fucking time please leave why are you here leave me alone stop turning up either break the fuck up with her or leave me alone those are your options i can't believe you patted me on the head why do we have drunk selfies together on my phone why do you check my phone like its yours why do you know about my life and family
you are a lovely person but i don't just want to be friends with you but i have to be i can just sit here and wait because its not as though there is anyone else but thats what i did before and it ended in my heart being fucking shattere
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how is the situation so similar yet so different i dont think you would genuinely manipualte me why the fuck do you have to exist but not only exist why have we ended up in the same place at the same time in the same accomodation block with your room directly under mine i'm actually pissed off this shit is not fair

With every message you sent me you fixed a part of me that I didn't know was broken.
My love, my life.

I wish I would’ve told you that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you . But I can’t... because you’ve found someone else to spend the rest of your life with

i get sad everytime
something good happens to me, because i don’t get to share it with you anymore. i miss being each others biggest fans

That poem you wrote about me... I still think about it from time to time, I can never get myself to hate it.

We became best friends after school. Talking to you saved me so much. Then we started falling for each other and we got together. I don't understand. You have a long term boyfriend and I have one too? When? What the hell?

I fucking love you. In all ways. I think about you all the time and I am so fucking happy you think of me too.

you used to tell me that whenever I felt sad, I should take a nice long shower and that it would work all the time. I never tried it because I was always happy when I'm with you... until we weren't anymore. but I'm here to tell you, it did work

i liked you, i really liked you, but why you talked first to me if you liked other girl??? its been such a long time, i dont like you anymore, but i still thinking about you, i still thinking what if i had done it better? Could have worked if I had told you I liked you at that time?

te hubiese gustado si fuera más bonita?
porque a mi me gustabas aunque tú no te consideraras lindo.
yo te veía perfecto.

i cant believe i loved you. you were the first thing i thought about every morning & the only thing on my mind. i looked past all your toxic traits. you constantly invalidated me, which led me to believe I wasn’t sick enough. i wanted to get worse so bad, i did everything i could to become sicker.

you make me retch
i hope you get what you deserve

I dont belive u felt nothing at all. No matter what u say we both felt it. We both knew. Life got in the way. Maybe a another lifetime.

Putang ina. Akalain mo yun marunong pala ako magmahal, kaya lang sana hindi na lang. Sana hindi sa'yo.

I'm so scared of loving you but you were so good at reassuring me that I thought I'll never lose you.

i fell in love with you as soon as our lips touched. i cant fall asleep without you. i have to relearn how to live alone.

Remember when you told me that youre falling too fast? you should've told me that you move on fast as well.

i fell in love with you as soon as our lips touched. i cant fall asleep without you. i have to relearn how to live alone.

Hey, tell me.. is there someone new now? Do you have someone else to talk to from day to night? Someone to drink with? Someone else's family you wanted to impress? Is it really no longer me?

‘Saudade’. Deep emotional state of longing for something that’s gone. That’s what I feel for you, darling. I love you

Always tried to be good enough for you and every day you set the bar higher higher
Until I realized no matter what I did
I wasn't good enough for you since the very beginning

You took it. You took my happiness and gave it to her. I thought you’d take care of it and eventually give it all back. But now it’s not even my place to say I love you. I just hope your smile is bigger than when you were with me. I just hope she looks at you the way I did.

hi idk if u care or not but i think about u almost everyday. youll always be apart of my life. may we meet again. love you forever

ty for showing me what love isn't it took me 6 months to get over you, but also fuck you bc now I m scared that the next guy will cause me the same pain

I saw a message that shows how some people see bad even in the good just because they want to. Affection, praising, gifts? It means I've put 100% of myself to make someone feel special and loved. It means I've been hurt so many times and I wanted to treat someone how I wanted to be treated. It means I wanted to show the person that the friendship means the world to me. That's all there is. I’ll know better now.

the way i looked at you wasn’t fake none of it was fake , the only thing that went wrong was time and i wish i could change it but your moving on ... so ig i will too :)

You gave me so much false hope, and then you left. You made me feel like i wasn’t enough and i will always hate you for that.

i need closure but i can’t face talking too u so this is my closure . you were my first love and we both knew deep down . u were there for me in my hardest times but u also made it so difficult at times . maybe in a different life it would’ve worked out but atleast for now . be happy for me :)

i don’t even know if i like you in that way but hm you were the only person who i think cared for me. i know you don’t like me like that and you probably just check up on me now and then cause you feel bad for me. i hope that i’m less of a burden now :)

I hope one day you realize how much I loved you and I loved you because of your personality not because of what you have or your body or just because I wanted to feel loved for a moment, no, I wanted to always feel loved by you but you prefered the life of not apreciating the people who actually love you and prefer going for the horny and pretty girls

thank you for teaching me that if i made a wish and threw a coin into the sewer vent and it fell right threw, my wish would come true. you were my wish.

te sigo queriendo, aún no supero q me hayas dejado por ella, le contaste sobre nuestras llamadas a las 5AM?

I miss your arms around me, that sense to security is gone, I hate the way things got left, I miss your touch

I hate how I would say goodbye,then i would come back.Now I have to move on, just like you want me to.

I need to be better for you-I will be better for you, I promise. I’m not sure how long it’ll take but I’ll get there. We’ll be alright.

I try not to think of you, but a piece of you is still in everything. Theres some songs that ill never listen to again.

ur manipulativeness makes me feel heartbroken but in some way I also feel seen by you. you'd have to see me to be able to treat me like shit, right?

my friends convinced me to finally ask you why we stopped talking, they just don't know we're talking again now

Fuiste una de las mejores personitas que conocí, lástima que anduvimos en el momento equivocado, te deseo lo mejor, espero triunfes y alcances todas esas metas que me contaste, quiero que seas feliz, que brilles, que encuentres a tu personita especial, créeme que eso me hará muy feliz.

Your absence has taught me how to love myself since you not only proved, but also stated that no one else could or want to love me. I'm all pieced together now so please, leave me the hell alone.

Sabes, pensaba que te había superado al 100% pero no fue así, tú sabías que a ella no le agradaba y aún así decidiste juntarte con ella y permitir que se burlara de mí, la verdad no me importa lo que hagas pero saber que a pesar de todo lo que te conté, no te importó hacerme daño, gracias!!!