Unsent messages to JOSH
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 24, 2020, 9:57 am UTC
We planned our whole lives together at age 12 we told each other our fears, comforted each other when we felt like giving up. And when I finally released how badly I wanted you, you were gone.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 22, 2020, 11:30 am UTC
Even though we broke up, I thought we were supposed to be friends. Your texts are becoming colder and colder. Seeing the person I was supposed to marry slowly become a stranger hurts so bad. I still love you, please text me back.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 22, 2020, 4:32 am UTC
I’m not sure whether you realise how much your actions hurt me. I was never supposed to get attached and I think that’s what made it worse.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 21, 2020, 7:13 am UTC
I wish I could go back and make you see how much I loved you, how much I still do. I know you think we outgrew each other but I still can’t imagine myself with anyone other than you. You’re the only one I could ever want, even at the expense of myself.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 21, 2020, 7:12 am UTC
I wish I could go back and make you see how much I loved you, how much I still do. I know you think we outgrew each other but I still can’t imagine myself with anyone other than you. You’re the only one I could ever want, even at the expense of myself.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 20, 2020, 2:13 pm UTC
im sorry. i dont think ill ever get over how you left so easily last time. i wish i could. but maybe we're just better apart.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 18, 2020, 1:32 am UTC
i know you're grounded and have your phone taken but im still hoping to get a text from you every night
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 17, 2020, 9:23 pm UTC
i just wished you would forgive me. i forgave you and i love you as if youve not done me dirty at all, you upset me every other day and no matter what im always at peace with you. please just love me as if nothing happened so i know you actually give a shit about me.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 17, 2020, 4:04 pm UTC
Right person, wrong time. I know you were scared, and I can’t be angry about that. I think you made a mistake, but that’s for you to figure out. I’ll always be here.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 17, 2020, 4:03 pm UTC
Right person, wrong time. I know you were scared, and I can’t be angry about that. I think you made a mistake, but that’s for you to figure out. I’ll always be here.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 17, 2020, 4:01 pm UTC
Right person, wrong time. I know you were scared, and I can’t be angry about that. I think you made a mistake, but that’s for you to figure out. I’ll always be here.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 17, 2020, 4:01 pm UTC
Right person, wrong time. I know you were scared, and I can’t be angry about that. I think you made a mistake, but that’s for you to figure out. I’ll always be here.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 15, 2020, 8:01 pm UTC
If you just said "thank you" once... I'm happy for you but why did you have to take so much from me? I'm empty thanks to you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 15, 2020, 1:16 am UTC
Your mental illness took you so far away I grieve for you. It’s like you died. I miss you. I can’t move on Bc I keep thinking you’ll get better. You won’t. I
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 15, 2020, 12:30 am UTC
I have never felt the same way i felt about you. you were my best friend and i still love you. im sorry
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 13, 2020, 12:21 pm UTC
Ever since the first time I saw you I knew you were the one. Time has passed now and we've both changed but I hope you're doing well. Skittle
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 13, 2020, 11:45 am UTC
I walked into it knowing it would never work and it makes me so mad that I know deep down I'd do it again.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 13, 2020, 12:57 am UTC
you made me happy for 8 months. the best 8 months i could ever ask for. i just cant believe you didnt love me the entire time. thanks for leading me on 4 months after breaking up with me and talk to a girl that you ended up not even dating. i miss you sometimes though but i have to remember your an ass.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 12, 2020, 9:24 pm UTC
Im writing to you again even though high chance you wont see this but I miss you dearly,Josh if you see this its me broke I miss you so much.I moved but not to far from the old house I still have the first letter you gave me well you left under my doormate. I think about you so much and I just wish we could see each other maybe one day we will see each other at the park.Or maybe we will see each other at school cause I now go to school where my dad lives.I wish I could hug you and just be with you.I wish you were mine and I was yours.I really think about you more than I should but I would do anything to get to speak to you in person and just see you.Josh I miss you.You would have been the best boyfriend and I know it gosh damn I miss you and love you dearly.Why did you leave? Why wont you come back?Im working on myself Im better than I was In the past I just wish I could be with you.Josh if you see this just know if you remember my number which you probably don't but if you still have it from when we texted when I was 12 and you were about to turn 13 its still the same.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 11, 2020, 11:57 am UTC
Was I not good enough for you where did we go wrong we were so happy and strong and then that one night everything had to change
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 10, 2020, 7:16 pm UTC
i love you so much. i’m drunk at the bus station and i wish you were here to hold me. pls don’t forget me. i lobe u
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 7, 2020, 2:05 pm UTC
I did everything right but you still chose her over me and I will never feel the same way I felt when I was with you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 7, 2020, 1:42 pm UTC
you ruined me and to this day i’m not the same as i was before i met you. i don’t think i’ll ever be okay again.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 7, 2020, 6:54 am UTC
I loved you so much you had no idea. U were so kind and caring and sweet. Then that one thing happened and I hated you. I can never feel the same way about u again. So this is it goodbye Josh. I will always love you but I will also always remember that one thing and how it made me hate you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 7, 2020, 1:27 am UTC
I wish I was enough for you to stay. I haven’t moved on, I can’t picture any kind of future without you. I hope you come back, Iloveyou
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 5, 2020, 11:22 am UTC
I wish you didn’t give up on us so easily. I miss you. I haven’t been able to eat weetbix because it doesn’t feel the same anymore.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 4, 2020, 10:49 pm UTC
I cannot tell for the life of me if you are gay/bi and have feelings for me; just know that I love you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 3, 2020, 2:50 pm UTC
I always think about you. everyday I wish I had actually told you instead of saying I’d do it another day
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 3, 2020, 12:46 pm UTC
everyday without you hurts more and more . i have never cried harder than taking your pictures off my walls and seeing the empty space from where you used to be . i don’t know what i did wrong . you were always my very best friend , & i will love you until my dying breath
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 3, 2020, 8:25 am UTC
"hi josh, merry christmas!" insert christmas tree. i'm so glad i greeted a classmate that i don't even talk to before. i'm really happy a lot things between us changed. confessed to each other, now more like loving each other. i can't wait to meet you again someday, i really hope this journey we have together is forever. you're really someone special in my heart. i have never felt this with anyone. only you can make me the happiest and the saddest. i'm looking forward to make more memories with you in the future. we've planned all these little things, and you really give me butterflies. the best thing ever, i'm really lucky to have you. i really hope things between us just keeps getting better and better, i will never get tired of supporting you because i'm your number one fan like what i always tell you remember? i want you to stay strong, please wait for me, i will wait for you. i'm never gonna stop loving you, mahal.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 2, 2020, 11:50 pm UTC
I wish you nothing but the best and I thank you for everything from the bottom of my heart. Go have fun, enjoy life and know I’ll always be here if you need a friend.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 2, 2020, 9:26 am UTC
i really thought you missed me, i actually believed them messages where from you. i'm so gullible. fuck you and your bird
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 2, 2020, 3:25 am UTC
I have loved you with everything I have left in me the past 3 years. What else can I do for you to see
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 1, 2020, 9:40 pm UTC
you don’t even know that love you. you’ll probably say i don’t know what love is. but that’s okay. i’m not over you i’m not sure when i will be. i wanna talk to you about so many things but i can’t because we aren’t close.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 1, 2020, 5:31 pm UTC
I'm so lucky to have met you in my life the second time around but the timing for us isn't right. I wasn't fully healed when you came. You don't deserve to be with someone so broken and indecisive like me. I know you won't see this and I don't have the guts to tell you this. I'm just so thankful you came into my life but I have to let you go because you're too pure for me and I'm the type of girl you should run away from. I don't deserve the love you give me. I just hope you won't hate me because that's the last thing I ever want you to feel about me.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: October 1, 2020, 7:51 am UTC
its been a while. i said i was letting you go but i cant. my ex came back, who i would have done anything to be with but he doesnt matter anymore. i told him i cant be with him again because i love you. i just wish we still talked so it made sense why i said that.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 30, 2020, 7:43 pm UTC
i miss you so much every second of every day. i could never forgive you for fucking me up and breaking my heart but i still wish everyday that you’ll text me again. i just want to be held by you one more time.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 30, 2020, 7:02 pm UTC
we were so good together nothing even happened, you left out of nowhere and now you’ve changed into someone i can’t even talk to. every time i try, you just shut me out. i don’t know what happened to you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 30, 2020, 3:11 pm UTC
im sorry. im sorry i cant be good enough. please don't leave, i love you so much. im crying whilst writing this and id usually be coming to you. but you want to kill yourself and the fact that my words alone can't help is the worst feeling in the world. im sorry. feel better soon. i love you sm.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:59 pm UTC
hey, i know you dont see me the same way but i love you. I've loved you for as long as I've known you. whenever you even mention another girl i get so mad and jealous it makes my blood boil. i cant text you without feeling like a burden though. i wish i could tell you how i feel but i cant. text me
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:53 pm UTC
Dont let anyone who doesnt deserve you have you, please. i want you but i know i cant have you so just this friendship is enough, even though i feel like thats slipping away. imy
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 29, 2020, 3:41 am UTC
I miss you more than ever, you promised you would always love me and I promised too, you didn’t keep ur promise and that’s okay. I hope you are happy I still love you, love ur pineapple?
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 29, 2020, 1:12 am UTC
You were toxic and manipulated me into thinking i was the problem. Thank you for breaking me more. You’ll look for someone like me in everyone you meet, i deserve better. Fuck You.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 28, 2020, 9:17 pm UTC
you chose her over me when you told me you never would. now everyday i look in the mirror and compare myself to her & wish i was good enough for you. thanks
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 28, 2020, 9:16 pm UTC
you chose her over me when you told me you never would. now everyday i look in the mirror and compare myself to her & wish i was good enough for you. thanks
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 26, 2020, 4:56 pm UTC
we aren’t over forever right? because i’m holding on to this idea of you coming back. i can’t let go so i need you to tell me if i need to let go. are we actually done? i guess since we haven’t talked and you blocked me that’s a yes. but i still won’t believe it
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 26, 2020, 4:08 am UTC
its been easier to not think of you. but then the idea of us being good again comes and i start all over.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 24, 2020, 9:44 am UTC
hey. i think it's time to let you go. we talked yesterday and you didn't ask for me back like you usually do after fights. so i know it's over. i was holding on to this idea of us speaking after weeks and saying how we can't live without each other and how we love each other to much to be apart. but that wasn't what happened... and it's not going to. i keep thinking back on the night you gave me that playlist you made me. you asked me to be your girlfriend that night. i remember listening to our song just smiling so incredibly big at my phone.. and then like you could read my mind you said you loved me. it was the perfect night. i fell asleep the happiest i have ever been. i remember you playing with my sister and she turned to me and says "hes a good one". she asked to play with you yesterday.. i had to explain to her that sometimes the person you love isn't always meant to be in your life forever. But i owe you so much. you made me believe that i could be loved. you made me feel like there was not anything wrong with me. you made me feel safe. i got butterflies just thinking of you. now when i think of you my heart aches. i remember you always said the right things. whenever we got into fights and i would think you stopped loving me you would say "don't think i don't love you please. because i do" it was like you could read my mind. if you could read my mind now you could never look at me the same. i am in so much pain. josh you.. i love you. i mean it with every fiber in me that i am so in love with you. remember that time you said " i mean its not even that i like you, its quite obvious im in love with you." i remember. but im not yours to love anymore. and your not mine. think of me whenever it rains okay? find me in the stars at night, find me in the pink sunrise. i love you. goodbye josh.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 24, 2020, 6:27 am UTC
I still love you and i wonder if you still think about me at all... i would take you back in a heartbeat
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: September 23, 2020, 9:27 am UTC
i remember how we use to say we were soulmates. how we could read eachother and always knew when something was wrong. you dont know how many nights i would listen to our playlist and just smile so bi g because how in love with you i was. i would smile and blush at my phone anytime you texted me. i would get butterflies every time you said you loved me. today you said we werent meant to be. you said we were soulmates and now we arent meant to be.. i dont understand. did you love me at all? did you care as much as me? we talked today... and you didnt say you loved me. do you know how much i needed to hear you say that. did you know i talked to my mom about you almost every day. and now she asks me about you and my heart aches. please just.. i need you. call me, say you love me. i need it. please.
