Unsent messages to JOSH

I wish we could’ve lasted longer, being left on read is like the slow realisation of your perception to people. If we are still friends why can’t you talk to me? All those nights texting for what ? Another piece of my heart being broken? We used to walk home together now you turn the other way (Literally) I am here for you, I know that your life is quite tough but you don’t have to treat me like a stranger while you stare at me from the other side of the room.

wished you would come back but now i look for the hope that you don’t so i don’t fall in that emptiness again.

why did you just leave without saying anything yk how bad that hurt i still think about you every day

hey cutie, i miss you. i wish we didn’t give up so easily. i never got the chance to say it but, i love you.

what happened to us, and what happened to you. you’re like a ghost to me. i will never trust anyone again or love again. i don’t think we were meant to be but i can’t like anyone else. you’re the only person who understood me but you also hurt me so badly I have no will to live. i know you hate me and want me dead. but I would never wish anything on you. i will always love you no matter how much you hurt me. i am getting over you and the person i thought you were. I’m mourning the loss of someone that’s no longer here. you are gone, but i can’t forget all the memories we made. i really thought we would stay together forever. i was willing to do anything for you and i probably still would. thank you for teaching me that love is not real and that every single guy is the exact same.

what happened to us, and what happened to you. you’re like a ghost to me. i will never trust anyone again or love again. i don’t think we were meant to be but i can’t like anyone else. you’re the only person who understood me but you also hurt me so badly I have no will to live. i know you hate me and want me dead. but I would never wish anything on you. i will always love you no matter how much you hurt me. i am getting over you and the person i thought you were. I’m mourning the loss of someone that’s no longer here. you are gone, but i can’t forget all the memories we made. i really thought we would stay together forever. i was willing to do anything for you and i probably still would. thank you for teaching me that love is not real and that every single guy is the exact same.

what happened to us, and what happened to you. you’re like a ghost to me. i will never trust anyone again or love again. i don’t think we were meant to be but i can’t like anyone else. you’re the only person who understood me but you also hurt me so badly I have no will to live. i know you hate me and want me dead. but I would never wish anything on you. i will always love you no matter how much you hurt me. i am getting over you and the person i thought you were. I’m mourning the loss of someone that’s no longer here. you are gone, but i can’t forget all the memories we made. i really thought we would stay together forever. i was willing to do anything for you and i probably still would. thank you for teaching me that love is not real and that every single guy is the exact same.

I literally counted all my money and put 1000 dollars in an envelope that I was going to leave at your doorstep. All because you got into a car crash and you had a go fund me. I wanted to give you money but I didn't want you to know it was from me.

I miss they way it used to be. Now every little thing you do or say to me replays in my head because I'm so into you but I don't have the balls to tell you because I know in the time we weren't hooking up you had like 3 partners. I want you so bad.

i wish we did more than just study together once in a while, i wish we actually talked and hung out but i know it’s not right rn. i’m sorry, you’re just so valuable to me, i can’t help but like you

"why didnt you love me?" was a question i often asked myself. the more i think of it, the more i realize that it was because im not her.

Every day I think of u and I dream of u every night, I know u know I love u but u don’t do anything why? I sent u how I feel but you haven’t opened it why? U lied to me but i still love u... I just want u I push everyone away that isn’t h just in case u come back. I love u so much I’ve never felt like this about anyone before, I sent alarms for 11:11 so that I can wish for u to text me how u really feel about me but it never happens I’m starting to lose hope pls come soon.

I love u soo much but u don’t love me. I understand I was mean but I was young and I’ve matured now I’m so sorry if I was ever mean to u. I just want u back and for u to love me. Please come back soon.

you knew that i liked you. you flirted and made me think it was all in my head. if only you could see me now.

you will always be my yellow, and my sparks. i wonder if any of the messages under my name are from you, but i sort of doubt it. you were never really a wordy person. i’m so angry with you for giving up sometimes that i forget how much i still love you. part of me probably always will. i think you made the wrong decision, but i hope that you’re happy someday, even if it’s not with me. and i hope that eventually you realize that i was worth fighting for.

I will never forgive you for giving up on us the way you did. I hope your parents’ approval was worth it. And I hope you regret not fighting for me for the rest of your life.

hot but not at the same time. you were a good friend when we were friends. when we weren't you were a b!tch

you are an evil person. what u did behind my back is unforgivable. i can’t wait for your family to find out the type of person that you are. fuck u?

I have moved on...I have but if you ever ask me to choose, it will always be you. I will never not love you.

hey
you pushed me today. idk if it’s good or bad. good ig cause now i can be me but idk if i was ready. tbh i don’t think i would ever be ready so in that sense it was good. thank you. i love you
ababoi
chloe

I keep thinking about the night you came over and I just wish I would've told you how I felt. Its been a month since we've spoken and im scared were never going to talk again. I miss u

I once thought that we'd be together, yet now we don't even make eye contact when we walk past each other in the halls.

Hey I know this was probably just another talking phase, but I felt like we could have been something great. Maybe this is just me overthinking because you're having a bad week because so am I, but I wish we could be normal- I would have loved to meet you in person:)

i think your full of yourself, i think you want to manipulate me. but i’m too comfortable being the manipulator.

9 months later and I still hope to see a message from you.

9 months later and i still hope to see a missed call.

9 months later you still have a piece of my heart.

9 months later and i still love you.

God you really made me feel shit about myself. I’m so happy we aren’t together anymore. Please learn to commit before your next relationship

i may have accidentally manifested you, but i dont think i want you. as bad as that sounds. youre too good for me. i hope we become really good friends in the future

i really miss you but i won't message you. you made your choice so i have to make mine and i deserve more

how could you block me on every social media for days the dozen times you broke up with me. but now that i broke up with you, how is it so hard to leave me alone

I used to hate the color pink. But after you told me it’s your favorite color, I’ve grown to like it :)

I loved you more then I've ever loved anything in this world. You broke me, and sometimes I think I'll never love anyone the same. It's easier this way. At least alone I can't be hurt.

I hope that it’s written in the stars for us. Come back to me please. My life is so much better with you in it.

When I told you I loved you, seeing you go red and all quiet was so cute. I’m sorry that I didn’t tell you I was being honest, I didn’t realise it sounded jokey.

I love you so much. you make me feel alive, like nothing else matters. Our worlds are so different yet so a like, but somehow that isnt enough for you. and I dont think I can ever be for you enough. And the truth is im getting tired of fighting for you, when you arent even fighting for me. I still can bring myself to let you go, so Josh I shall keep fighting, because you are worth all the pain.

Thank you for playing such an important role in my life. I hated the way we used to be around each other when we were younger but you made me feel special. When you broke up with me, I didn’t think I could ever feel more pain at the time. But you taught me how to find my own self worth and to never rely on another person for my own happiness and for that I am eternally grateful.

The memories we shared are simply unforgettable. Thank you for proving to me that I’m not an unlovable human.

i love every bit of you with every bit of me. i cant live without you. please dont break my heart. i beg you.

i accidentally called you and you asked why i called so i had to block your number. i just wanted to see if u blocked me lol

i try talking to u but u don't give anything back. i know I'm wasting my time but i can't get u out of my mind

i miss talking to you everyday. i miss seeing your face. i miss how you made me smile. i miss you so much you have no idea.

You always made me feel like I was enough until you left and I thought I was nothing. I’m still getting myself back.

Thank you for listening to my rants, holding me while I cry, dancing with me, comforting me when I'm scared. I love you.

you hurt me so much and i never even got any answers. i never thought u would actually want to be with me and u proved me right

I still dont know why u stopped talking to me. U were my first kiss and I don't understand why u stopped replying to me and ignored me in public. what changed?

sometimes ill smell something or look at something that reminds me of you and my heart drops. everything came crashing down when you left. why wasn't i good enough???

I really really liked u and somehow convinced myself that you liked me back , I guess I was wrong tbh and now I just feel like a bit of a mug

I've known you for so long and the entire time i liked you but you just pretended to and the i realized i was just to ugly for whatever standards you had. and i just needed to except u never liked me back no boy i like ever does but you were still a good friend and i don't regret meeting you, your just the reason i dont like myself.

You’ve been such a great friend since prep. although we didn’t talk much until recently you make my days so much better.

to be honest, if i could go back in time to preschool, i think i'd do it just to kiss you one more time.

i wonder if we could play games together just one more time with everyone..just like three years ago :)