yea, you can't text me anymore. I hope that someday you realize that it wasn't me that ruined your life you did this to yourself and put the blame on me. It's fine if you hate me and blame me and will never want to talk to me again. I know that this messed up ur life pretty bad but why did you put me in that position. When you admitted to her you admitted to me. You're not a good person josh. You treat people as if you love them but behind their back and on a screen you lie about everything. I know now that you lied to me and I'm so glad that I never said I love you back. Because then you would know how much you destroyed me, how much I fell for your little game. This isn't a game josh don't let people that actually care for you be pushed to the side.

i dont know if your reading any of these. But if your reading this and your thinking "is this for me?" just know it is. im sorry i write so much its just the only way i feel like i still can talk to you. even if you dont reply...i miss you and ill wait for you. text me when your ready. a guy actually asked me on a date yesterday.. i was actually meant to go today but i couldnt. hes not you. im trying to let go but i guess i think you will come back, i dont know if thats true or not.. i love you. im done writing on here.. so goodbye.

why did you ask me for that then just leave me and block me and never speak to me again? i was in love with you

Liking you was a mistake, but you've become such a big part of me that I can't just let you go. No matter how much you hurt me, I'll always be there for you.

i miss how happy we made eachother, i wish you fought for us as much as i did but the distance was too much, i'll love you forever and hope our time comes again

i know you text so many girls cause i keep finding out more and more but for some fucking reason i still think we could be something again even though you only used me

you made me believe in soulmates and im still not religious but the way you would tell me that you thought god put me on earth just to meet you always made me cry

i should write you a letter just so i could admit the truth. then i'd burn it. i'll never tell you the truth about how i love you until i leave this town bc it would ruin the friendship i value so much.

I convinced myself for so long that I was in love with you and it broke me, and you had no idea at all.

I’m not allowed to say it but it’s on the tip of my tongue. It was on yours aswell that night. But it was the next morning that you decided you were going to pull away. I bought you some party rings

i don't know how to tell you, but ever since they came into my life i've wanted less to do with you and more to do with the two of them. i always suspected i was less in love and more just settling, and my suspicion has been confirmed. i'm sorry if i end up hurting you.

it’s a shame you couldn’t just be a man and tell me how you felt upfront.
we would’ve had fun together

the time we spent together with you holding me in your arms at 4 am in the morning now feels like a distant memory.

i still reread our old messages. im sorry for being insecure, sorry for not wanting to do it, sorry for having birthmarks all over my body, im sorry.

if you think you know me, i dont even think you would remember though, or even check this, but please listen to "song for josh" by Frank Turner

remember when you pat my head and told me it was okay? me too. reminded me of that one scene where asta patted noelle's head. maybe, we are just like them.

I know that we just met, but I find such a strong connection between us and that we should get to know more about each other. I hate how far you live, but eventually if we become more than friends that shouldn't be a problem. I hope that we can learn more about each other and be alone together.

i would like to thank you for making me the person i am today if i hadn't met you idk what who i'd me or what i would've done without so thank you

sorry i didnt love you back, but you didnt have to treat me so poorly because of it... we were still friends

why did you tell me you break up with your gf when you didn’t. Why would you want to hide me your relationship?

You were my first real crush. I avoided you when we were dating because I was so afraid that I would mess something up and then you wouldn’t like me anymore. And in the end instead of trying to fix the relationship, I gave up and broke up with you. You were the right person at the wrong time. I’m sorry.

I don't know how to tell you I'm not okay. I don't know how to tell you that I just crave attention and I'm clingy and obsessive. You said I was too good for you but you got it the wrong way round, you are way way out of my league. You would be so so disappointed if you knew who I was. I dont want to burden you with myself and my problems. And I'm not talking to you because I isolate myself when I'm sad. You won't even care about me in a few months anyway. Won't see you next year x

You keep hurting me really badly, and I'm hurting you too and I'm sorry that I am but I had no intention to hurt you however you had so much intention to hurt me. Even though you said you loved me. And that really hurt because we both kept coming back but now I think that was the last time it will happen. You might text me to apologize or you might text me to make empty threats. Honestly, I just hope I get an apology but I just want to forget everything and not talk to you again, even though you made me happy, but at the same time I was hurting, I think we both were :( .

Its funny. I was the one to end it but now and then I just want you name to pop up on my phone, like the rush of happiness I would get. I'm sorry I put you through that, I just was stuck in a dark place and I didn't want to drag you through it with me. You're the sweetest person, I know and I didn't want to put you through it. It hurt when you said you didn't want to talk to me anymore, but hey I deserved it. I wish I could say, I love you one more time.

ive never connected with someone the way i did with you. i think thats why this hurts so much, but i know that im better off without you. i hope you realize that you have an addiction and get help. im sorry we couldnt be more than friends. it just never would've worked out. my friends dont know how much im hurting over you, bc they think it should be easy to let a toxic person go, but my heart aches when i hear your name. goodbye josh.

im not sad because you left anymore, I'm sad because of all the memories i have with you that i cant think about without crying

i liked you, and i was terrified of messing it up for u. but ur truly an asshole who ruined me. fuck you

Thank you for everything, for saving me, for the memories, for the lessons
I will always be here if you need me.
I love you, always and forever

I really thought it was you, that you were the one. How is it that with you I was convinced I didn’t deserve to feel loved and yet you’re still the only one I could ever want.

I really thought it was you, that you were the one. How is it that with you I was convinced I didn’t deserve to feel loved and yet you’re still the only one I could ever want.

I’m so glad you came into my life. When I wake up next to you I don’t feel the pain I felt for so many years.

i know things have always been complicated between us but i hope you know i’ll always love and care about you no matter what. you deserve better than what i can give you right now.

u were not my first love but still my first true heartbreak. f*** you but at the same time i hope you're okay.

i like to think that everyone that comes into your life is there for a reason. your reason was to show me how much better i deserve.

i haven't written in a bit. its been a week or more since we stopped talking. its getting easier. my heart does not ache for you so much. i don't think of you all the time. but anytime a certain song plays or someone says ur name my heart drops. but i hope your doing well. I think ive finally excepted that your gone, and that you get to move on. your not mine anymore and its okay. ill still always be here. im just waiting for a text that isnt going to happen.. my sister talks about you alot. she misses playing with you. anyway i guess thats all. bye.

You saved me! and I runied everything. All I want is to love you and hold you again. I can feel myself slipping away.

Hi its been some time since i last had a serious conversation with you and i hope you are doing well. I miss what we had sometimes but some good things always come to an end and we learned that the hard way. You gave me so much and i don't know how to pay you back for it but thank you. I hope you find someone who can give you what i couldn't and give you the love you gave me . Sorry for always assuming u had hoes you were just so perfect i was afraid you would find someone better which you did and i am happy for the both of you .

sometimes i wish i could go back and tell you how i felt. i loved you so much and you never knew, and now you never will.

i now love differently than i did when I was with you. I've learned a few things. i learned to trust again after you stole what little trust I had left. i learned to be happy with my own company. and now I've learned that another person can't complete you. it takes two whole people to love selflessly and unconditionally. you took a lot from me, but I've learned to find fulfillment in myself. i am now the happiest I've ever been. i am no longer entertaining the half-person you are. instead, i am loving wholly another whole person.

you make me feel so happy and i appreciate the fact that you’ve helped me become whole again. you’re the best.

We went from talking everyday, Facetiming every night, Planning to meet up to Us never talking again. You meant so much too me, you were my world, I was nothing to you, even though you “cared.” if you cared, y would you block me

i think we could've worked things out if we tried harder. but sometimes it's just right person, wrong time. we've come so far and wish you the best.

I'm sorry that i wasnt what you wanted, and im sorry i couldnt come see you and it hurt you. i really do love you

Il always love you but so many things were not good and we both knew it I was just afraid to let you go. I hope you’re okay x

do I make you uncomfortable? do you ignore me because im annoying? why are you never online anymore..

hey, this is weird but i want to tell you that i’m not over you. ik i moved on but i still think about you everyday.

You have really broken me because you left me.
But I still love you and I really want you to come back.
Please come back, I’m not doing very well

You have really broken me since you left me.
Wondering why I wasn’t worth trying for.
Please come back, I’m not doing very well

I love you so much. you make me feel alive, like nothing else matters. Our worlds are so different yet so a like, but somehow that isnt enough for you. and I dont think I can ever be for you enough. And the truth is im getting tired of fighting for you, when you arent even fighting for me. I still can bring myself to let you go, so Josh I shall keep fighting, because you are worth all the pain.

I kind of miss you but im doing pretty good on my own right now though. I just don't understand why you had to playme though.