Unsent messages to JOSH

im finally telling you i like after two long years. i will always love you even though i know we shouldn't. i hope we find each other soon.

im sorry i dont try enough in our relationship. i just feel like if i dont get too attached it will hurt less when you inevitably leave me. youve saved my life and im afraid of what life will be like without you. you truly are amazing in every way. i love your little quirks and how smart you are about random things(even if you say youre not). you know more about me than anyone else. im grateful for every second ive spent with you. you have no idea how much you mean to me and i hope we always have this connection. i will love you forever and always.
ababoi :)
chloe

hey, ik you won't see this but I've liked you for 4 years. I've helped you get with my best friends and it hurt but for some reason, you're the only person I can see a future with.

Sometimes I wish I didn't meet you, so I wouldn't have to go through the pain of not being with you. I miss you every day and wonder what it would have been like if you liked me back. We've known each other for 5 years and you still look at me like a friend... I love you.

I think I'm starting to fall out of love with you. I always thought one day we'd get it right but all you've done is hurt my heart. :( Maybe you're not who I thought you were after all. But if you came back, I'd still give you a chance. How could I not? It's you.....

I wish I told you I loved you before you found her. I know we would never have a chance but I still wouldn't be holding on after 10 years if I told you.

you meant so much to me, we were best friends then you just cut me off. Even if i did something that made you not like me you could’ve told me, i would’ve done anything for you and i miss you but i know you forgot about me

The smell of cinnamon and peaches is still entangled I my pillows and sheets reminding me that you once laid by my side. I miss you.

i've been in love with you ever since I met you. These last seven years have gone by so slowly but so quickly. i will always love you. no matter what.

I still cry over you. It's been like 2 years but I still find myself occasionally thinking about you and what you did to me. I don't know if it's out of hate or love, maybe both.

I wonder if you knew how much I did like you, I liked you so much I started to change who I was for you, just for you to say we should just be friends..

you're not my first love and i'm not yours. but i still love you. but you love her, and i don't know why. i just wish you would notice how i feel about you, especially since you talk to me nearly everyday. just please. think about what you're doing before you start dating her. remember how she hurt you so much.

I have loved you since the day I met you. It's been almost 3 years now and I still love you. I don't know if I can ever just be your friend. If I can ever stop loving you. You showed me what it's like to care about someone else more than I do myself, but you also showed me what real heartbreak is like. I would sacrifice so much to be with you but I know you don't feel the same. I don't know how you haven't noticed yet. I drop the most obvious hints and I spend time around you. you never notice which makes me feel unimportant to you but i think thats just what i am. you are amazing, sweet, perfect. you are the definition of perfect and i wish you could see me the way i see you. im sorry that i could never say this to you. i wish i had teh courage too. if i did, i would tell you that you saved me. you taught me how to be a better person without even realizing you were doing it. you kept me sane in times i thought i would never be able to stop crying. but many of those tears were because of u. no matter how hard times got you could always make me smile. if i was having a bad day you made it better. so i just wanted to thank you for being my best friend, even though i wish we were more. and i dont know if i can be your friend anymore and hang around you and just pretend like it doesnt break my heart everytime i see you with her. im sorry and ill miss you more than you know but its whats best for me right now. its gonna suck not having my best friend when i always need him. i love you. (i know this was all over the place but i had a lot of feelings come up writing it)

It hurts to know that I may never love someone the way that I loved you. And even then, you didn't love me back.

why would you look at other girls and like girl's posts that show her ass or boobs :( am i not good enough for you? ill never look like your dream girl :(

you hurt me in ways that i can’t explain. i literally couldn’t even tell anyone ab it because they would “view” you differently. but what’s done is done and i’m glad ur gone.

I kind of miss you but im doing pretty good on my own right now though. I just don't understand why you had to playme though.

i think we could've worked things out if we tried harder. but sometimes it's just right person, wrong time. we've come so far and wish you the best.

u were not my first love but still my first true heartbreak. f*** you but at the same time i hope you're okay.

ive never connected with someone the way i did with you. i think thats why this hurts so much, but i know that im better off without you. i hope you realize that you have an addiction and get help. im sorry we couldnt be more than friends. it just never would've worked out. my friends dont know how much im hurting over you, bc they think it should be easy to let a toxic person go, but my heart aches when i hear your name. goodbye josh.

i would like to thank you for making me the person i am today if i hadn't met you idk what who i'd me or what i would've done without so thank you

you made me believe in soulmates and im still not religious but the way you would tell me that you thought god put me on earth just to meet you always made me cry

i miss how happy we made eachother, i wish you fought for us as much as i did but the distance was too much, i'll love you forever and hope our time comes again

Liking you was a mistake, but you've become such a big part of me that I can't just let you go. No matter how much you hurt me, I'll always be there for you.

I fell in love with you so quickly before we even met and it’s so hard seeing you live the life you do without me

even though we arent together anymore and havent been for a while i still think about you everyday and i think about the connection that we had and it leaves me in tears. you truly meant alot to me and i still believe in my heart that your still worth fighting for. but i dont think you want me anymore. but please know for you id bleed myself dry

i wish i could lay in your arms forever, listening to your heartbeat as my head rests on your chest. falling more and more in love with every forehead kiss.

I can’t quite pin when it began, however from the first moments I met you my heart clung to you like a burr. Our paths crossed for only a short glimpse of time, however it seemed to be destiny. I know I’m a cheesy person, however it truly felt meant to be. I’m not sure where things went off rails, however they did fast. And hard. I didn’t want to let go, no matter how hard you or I were hurting. I wish I could have been able to heal your pain. But on the contrary I wished for you to notice mine. My heart isn’t one of high demand, I’m one for the little things. But you made my small desires feel like avalanches, and as each rock fell my heart broke more and more. I started to spin in an area of doubt and sadness. All I wanted was for you to love me the way I did you. Although i tried my hardest, that just didn’t feel possible. And finally I broke. Even with the time passed my heart still longs for what was. I love to think about the times we spent under the sky. Making wishes upon the shooting stars. I always quite pondered if those will come true, and what it was that you wished for. At the end of the day just simply laying next to you was enough for me. There was never a wither of doubt when we were together. But when we were apart, it was as though you grew stranger to me. A cold wall would seep over and it was like I was calling out into an empty void. But that was then. Now it seems to be no matter how far I wander away from you, something always brings me back. And that’s what sucks.

I wish we still talked. I really did like you and I think you liked me. But my friend liked you too, and you deserve to be with her instead of me. I wouldn’t ever have been good enough for you.

I’ve cried over you every day for two months now. I’m not looking forward to the holidays without you in my arms, I miss you more than anything. I wish I could get closure, I still don’t understand where we went wrong.

I'm glad you found her, though she's all of the things you told me you hated. Please treat her better. She's just being herself. ♡

I know you'll never see this, but I miss our friendship. You were the one person who always made me laugh in Chinese class and would eat hot Cheetos with me because you thought it was funny. We haven't talked in a few years but I still think about you all the time and the memories of you. I've liked you since 6th grade, but never told you because I was too afraid.

I tried to open myself up to you despite being completely terrified. I feel used and exposed now that u know so much and decided you didnt want me anymore... I'm still terrified that you hold knowledge over me...

Du warst der erste bei dem ich mich geborgen gefühlt habe, der erste bei dem ich das Gefühl hatte dass ich jemandem nicht egal bin. Der erste bei dem ich mir wirklich Hoffnungen gemacht habe. Und dann seid ihr auf einmal zusammen... und es tut immer noch weh euch zwei zu sehen.

Du warst der erste bei dem ich mich geborgen gefühlt habe, der erste bei dem ich das Gefühl hatte dass ich jemandem nicht egal bin. Der erste bei dem ich mir wirklich Hoffnungen gemacht habe. Und dann seid ihr auf einmal zusammen... und es tut immer noch weh euch zwei zu sehen.

you make me feel so happy and i appreciate the fact that you’ve helped me become whole again. you’re the best.

Hi its been some time since i last had a serious conversation with you and i hope you are doing well. I miss what we had sometimes but some good things always come to an end and we learned that the hard way. You gave me so much and i don't know how to pay you back for it but thank you. I hope you find someone who can give you what i couldn't and give you the love you gave me . Sorry for always assuming u had hoes you were just so perfect i was afraid you would find someone better which you did and i am happy for the both of you .

I really thought it was you, that you were the one. How is it that with you I was convinced I didn’t deserve to feel loved and yet you’re still the only one I could ever want.

I really thought it was you, that you were the one. How is it that with you I was convinced I didn’t deserve to feel loved and yet you’re still the only one I could ever want.

I know that we just met, but I find such a strong connection between us and that we should get to know more about each other. I hate how far you live, but eventually if we become more than friends that shouldn't be a problem. I hope that we can learn more about each other and be alone together.

Im sorry, You know that you have a special place in my heart and i loved you so much but i had to let go.

i think back to when things went wrong. i want to know what i did to make you no longer like me. you fucked me over so bad but yet i cant seem to hate you. you lied about loving me. you lied for so long. and somehow i still seem to love every aspect of you.

I have so many things I want to say to you but here's the main point: I'm falling for you and it's scary.

hi, its been sometime since we had a serious conversation but i wanna tell you some things. You are perfect like really perfect its unexplainable, i was toxic to you but i never realized until i lost you, the pain i felt from you leaving was unreal. I love you till my death and i cant stop thinking about you even when i try, you were my biggest supporter and i couldn't thank you enough for always being there for me even when i was rude to you, you will always hold a special place in my heart even if you dont find each other again. Thanks again for giving me the love i never gave you i hope you find someone who gives you what i didnt.

You may not know this yet but I love you so much and it genuinely hurts me to be so emotionally attached to someone.

You may not know this yet but I love you so much and it genuinely hurts me to be so emotionally attached to someone.

you're my bubbas and i'm so happy that we found each other. thank you for being such a light in my life.

so basically you are all that i think about everyday... even when u hurt me i can’t help myself from falling for u. i love you

I hope you miss me like I miss you

I don't think you understand how much you broke me.
actually, I think you did, but you didn't care and you walked away anyways.

I wish it was harder for you to walk away, because you meant a lot more to me than I did to you.

You really fucked me up, then lied to the judge. I hope you are happy with all the pain you have caused me and it was worth losing some of the people who cared about you the most.