Unsent messages to JOSH
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: July 13, 2023, 7:45 pm UTC
I miss you so much and I hope we work out in the end. <3
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: July 12, 2023, 9:35 pm UTC
i’ve loved you since i met you. come back
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: July 12, 2023, 8:44 pm UTC
why’d you have to go and lock me out when i let you in?
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: July 12, 2023, 6:56 pm UTC
I'm still hoping that one day, you'll come back to me.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: July 10, 2023, 10:20 pm UTC
you mean so much to me and i’m so glad we became friends
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 18, 2021, 9:57 pm UTC
We went from talking everyday, Facetiming every night, Planning to meet up to Us never talking again. You meant so much too me, you were my world, I was nothing to you, even though you “cared.” if you cared, y would you block me
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 18, 2021, 1:54 am UTC
i liked you, and i was terrified of messing it up for u. but ur truly an asshole who ruined me. fuck you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 17, 2021, 8:55 pm UTC
I don't know how to tell you I'm not okay. I don't know how to tell you that I just crave attention and I'm clingy and obsessive. You said I was too good for you but you got it the wrong way round, you are way way out of my league. You would be so so disappointed if you knew who I was. I dont want to burden you with myself and my problems. And I'm not talking to you because I isolate myself when I'm sad. You won't even care about me in a few months anyway. Won't see you next year x
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 17, 2021, 2:43 am UTC
it’s a shame you couldn’t just be a man and tell me how you felt upfront.
we would’ve had fun together
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 17, 2021, 12:44 am UTC
I’m not allowed to say it but it’s on the tip of my tongue. It was on yours aswell that night. But it was the next morning that you decided you were going to pull away. I bought you some party rings
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 16, 2021, 4:09 pm UTC
why did you ask me for that then just leave me and block me and never speak to me again? i was in love with you
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 16, 2021, 5:14 am UTC
yeah, you’re definitely losing interest in me and it sucks because i don’t feel like i can do anything about it. it’s selfish of me to assume you will just wait for me. i just feel really stupid.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 16, 2021, 2:18 am UTC
I think I loved the idea of you more than I even realised, that’s what made it so hard to let you go. I was so young and naive that sometimes I wonder how things could be if we met now with fresh eyes and we could truly see each other. In truth, I just wish I knew what changed. I wish I knew what made her different.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 15, 2021, 7:09 pm UTC
My heart is full and fuck I hope you don’t break it because I truly think we were meant to be together
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 15, 2021, 3:36 am UTC
I hate traffic, but I would do anything to look over to you smiling at me one more time at a red light. In that damn Mustang.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 14, 2021, 5:22 pm UTC
Thank you for being naive with me and falling, even tho we both knew it could not last. I am always going to think of you when I think about my favorite year of my life.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 13, 2021, 4:36 am UTC
my roommate and I agreed it would be a bad idea to text you tomorrow. so... happy 21st stink. all the best.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 12, 2021, 11:25 pm UTC
Did you really not care or were you just too afraid to do anything. I shouldn’t be but for some reason i’m still waiting for you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 12, 2021, 11:25 pm UTC
Did you really not care or were you just too afraid to do anything. I shouldn’t be but for some reason i’m still waiting for you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 12, 2021, 7:24 pm UTC
I fell for you so much harder than I know I should. Getting to call you mine makes so much of the hardness of life worth it. Im always going to be here for you. You are the person that is either going to ruin love for me or define it. I love you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 9:11 pm UTC
Hey JT, you broke my heart when u promised you wouldn’t. I understand why you went back to her, i just wish she knew u promised me a lifetime together. rare as dandelion and burdock ay?
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 4:57 pm UTC
my world seems more dull without you. i miss our friendship, i miss our laughs, i miss our time together. i miss my best friend but youve got a girlfriend now and im happy for you but i just want my friend back
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 4:57 pm UTC
Some part of me still is waiting for your message and I think that might always be the case. You hurt me so badly yet I still think back and smile because you taught me so much about everything including myself and my boundaries. I know we have both changed a lot but I will genuinely always love you. Love, M
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:09 pm UTC
as soon as you start leaving more often the more i miss you. i miss you as much as i tend to miss her.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:28 am UTC
haven't heard your voice in 14 months. don't know if you even remember me & everything we went thru. i think about texting you daily, and every day i decide not to because you're doing well, i'm doing well, and why disturb the peace? still -- i wonder what could happen if i were to just say, "hello".
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:05 am UTC
I’m falling in love with you and I hope u feel the same. I’m waiting for u. I think u may be my first love
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 11:37 pm UTC
you were my first love. i think about you every day, i think about how you always said the right thing. people say we’ll find eachother again, but i think we both have moved on. all i want for you is to be happy
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:45 pm UTC
i can’t tell if i’m actually going insane bc this all feels like a fever dream. i don’t feel alive.
- yk who this is
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 7:53 am UTC
I wish you didn't rely on superficial attention in order to validate yourself. Maybe then my love would've been enough for you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:26 am UTC
I’m sorry I didn’t love you back but the whole thing was a mistake.I just wish things could go back to normal and forget about the whole thing.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 3:11 am UTC
fucc, i need someone to send my memes to and talk to cus i haven’t had a good convo ina min w out you TBH
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 10, 2021, 12:27 am UTC
I don’t care about the fight we had at sushi before you deployed. Ive missed you everyday. I never got to tell you how madly in love I fell for you.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 9, 2021, 9:07 pm UTC
do I make you uncomfortable? do you ignore me because im annoying? why are you never online anymore..
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 9, 2021, 8:45 pm UTC
Il always love you but so many things were not good and we both knew it I was just afraid to let you go. I hope you’re okay x
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 9, 2021, 6:04 pm UTC
i now love differently than i did when I was with you. I've learned a few things. i learned to trust again after you stole what little trust I had left. i learned to be happy with my own company. and now I've learned that another person can't complete you. it takes two whole people to love selflessly and unconditionally. you took a lot from me, but I've learned to find fulfillment in myself. i am now the happiest I've ever been. i am no longer entertaining the half-person you are. instead, i am loving wholly another whole person.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 9, 2021, 12:44 am UTC
im not sad because you left anymore, I'm sad because of all the memories i have with you that i cant think about without crying
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 10:22 pm UTC
You were my first real crush. I avoided you when we were dating because I was so afraid that I would mess something up and then you wouldn’t like me anymore. And in the end instead of trying to fix the relationship, I gave up and broke up with you. You were the right person at the wrong time. I’m sorry.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:34 pm UTC
remember when you pat my head and told me it was okay? me too. reminded me of that one scene where asta patted noelle's head. maybe, we are just like them.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:32 pm UTC
if you think you know me, i dont even think you would remember though, or even check this, but please listen to "song for josh" by Frank Turner
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:30 pm UTC
i still reread our old messages. im sorry for being insecure, sorry for not wanting to do it, sorry for having birthmarks all over my body, im sorry.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:36 pm UTC
the time we spent together with you holding me in your arms at 4 am in the morning now feels like a distant memory.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 8, 2021, 3:26 am UTC
yea, you can't text me anymore. I hope that someday you realize that it wasn't me that ruined your life you did this to yourself and put the blame on me. It's fine if you hate me and blame me and will never want to talk to me again. I know that this messed up ur life pretty bad but why did you put me in that position. When you admitted to her you admitted to me. You're not a good person josh. You treat people as if you love them but behind their back and on a screen you lie about everything. I know now that you lied to me and I'm so glad that I never said I love you back. Because then you would know how much you destroyed me, how much I fell for your little game. This isn't a game josh don't let people that actually care for you be pushed to the side.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 7, 2021, 7:39 pm UTC
Sometimes I wonder how I let you treat me like that. Now I look back and realize I taught you what it was to be loved and you taught me that not everyone appreciates the love I give. I hope you are happy and using the pain of loosing me to treat her better.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 7, 2021, 3:39 pm UTC
i think i’m in love with you. i’ve never felt this much for anyone before. i know you don’t feel the same and it’s crushing me.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 7, 2021, 5:40 am UTC
I wish I was better for you so then you would’ve probably stayed a little longer with me I’m sorry that you had to deal with me and my emotions. I hope you’re happy with whoever you end up with please take care of yourself you mean a lot to me and you would never understand that. I hope one day we can reunite I appreciate all the love you given me.you taught me how to love and how it feels to be loved and for that I’m forever
grateful.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 6, 2021, 11:57 pm UTC
You were the light that kept me going , the sunlight that broke the clouds through every storm. I miss your smile. I loved you, Josh, but you were never mine.
I’ll never forget you, please don’t forget me.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 6, 2021, 8:12 pm UTC
you really had me thinking we could’ve had something absolutely beautiful and mature. i guess you just liked how my lips felt on yours.
From: ABC
To: Josh
Date: January 6, 2021, 2:54 pm UTC
I wish things had been different, I wish you didn't do what you did. I would've given you the world and more.
