Unsent Messages

I can’t quite pin when it began, however from the first moments I met you my heart clung to you like a burr. Our paths crossed for only a short glimpse of time, however it seemed to be destiny. I know I’m a cheesy person, however it truly felt meant to be. I’m not sure where things went off rails, however they did fast. And hard. I didn’t want to let go, no matter how hard you or I were hurting. I wish I could have been able to heal your pain. But on the contrary I wished for you to notice mine. My heart isn’t one of high demand, I’m one for the little things. But you made my small desires feel like avalanches, and as each rock fell my heart broke more and more. I started to spin in an area of doubt and sadness. All I wanted was for you to love me the way I did you. Although i tried my hardest, that just didn’t feel possible. And finally I broke. Even with the time passed my heart still longs for what was. I love to think about the times we spent under the sky. Making wishes upon the shooting stars. I always quite pondered if those will come true, and what it was that you wished for. At the end of the day just simply laying next to you was enough for me. There was never a wither of doubt when we were together. But when we were apart, it was as though you grew stranger to me. A cold wall would seep over and it was like I was calling out into an empty void. But that was then. Now it seems to be no matter how far I wander away from you, something always brings me back. And that’s what sucks.