Unsent Messages

I have loved you since the day I met you. It's been almost 3 years now and I still love you. I don't know if I can ever just be your friend. If I can ever stop loving you. You showed me what it's like to care about someone else more than I do myself, but you also showed me what real heartbreak is like. I would sacrifice so much to be with you but I know you don't feel the same. I don't know how you haven't noticed yet. I drop the most obvious hints and I spend time around you. you never notice which makes me feel unimportant to you but i think thats just what i am. you are amazing, sweet, perfect. you are the definition of perfect and i wish you could see me the way i see you. im sorry that i could never say this to you. i wish i had teh courage too. if i did, i would tell you that you saved me. you taught me how to be a better person without even realizing you were doing it. you kept me sane in times i thought i would never be able to stop crying. but many of those tears were because of u. no matter how hard times got you could always make me smile. if i was having a bad day you made it better. so i just wanted to thank you for being my best friend, even though i wish we were more. and i dont know if i can be your friend anymore and hang around you and just pretend like it doesnt break my heart everytime i see you with her. im sorry and ill miss you more than you know but its whats best for me right now. its gonna suck not having my best friend when i always need him. i love you. (i know this was all over the place but i had a lot of feelings come up writing it)