Unsent messages to MAX

I love you so much. I know you aren’t ready right now, but I’m going to wait. I’ll always be here for you babe.

I’m so sorry for everything I have done you where my world and more when you texted me or even talked to me in school I lit up completely I was a bad person back then and still am but luckily you came in my life you fixed mine and made me the person I am today filled with hate but also with love a gentle kind a kind of love you can never forget a love that feels warm and makes you smile even when you can’t thank you for that I’m very sorry I know I ruined your life and I can’t deny that but thank you for making me see that love is real in so many places thank you for showing me I was cared for and loved thank you I know I may have ruined your life but I feel as if you also enjoyed the ride it made you smarter and wiser and you moved along with another girl now I wish you the best of luck you opened my heart and mind up so much to see new things. You made me see life isn’t always so happy and you have to learn to let go thank you for showing me so much compassion you lit up my life like no other max at night I would picture our wedding together and how we would end up and every time something crashed the wedding you see, in life we always got to the part that was live, and happiness but we never had that connection that would completely finish that to get to that wedding I am glad you came in my life and wish we could have stayed together forever but things where not meant to be and I understand that now. I always felt like eveyone loved me but no one liked me and you made me feel like none of that ever mattered and whoever didn’t like me just didnt like me and that was there problem. Love you and always will my sweet darling max live the greatest life you possible could you deserve the stars and more but this is my final goodbye this chapter in life was never meant for me but it made me who I am today.

i think you are the first person i have ever had genuine feelings for. i don’t know what it is about you, but i just can’t resist you. the only thing i want is for you to wrap your arms around me. it’s pretty much all i think about these days

i loved you but you also stuck your tongue down my throat and grabbed my ass when i was 11 and you were 10 sooo. no thanks.

You were my everything. I love you with my whole heart no matter what. I am so thankful that you came to me during that time. Without you I wouldn’t be here. You showed me love, but I guess I wasn’t ready. I love you and I am so sorry that I didn’t show you enough of it.

i know you loved me. but when i made a mistake you decided that your pride was more important than us.

I love you so goddamn much. I know I'm dramatic and a bitch sometimes, but thank you for always putting up with my bullshit. I want to help you with everything you've been through. You have to stop caring about me so much though. You're going to hurt yourself if you hate when I hurt me. You're the reason I'm still here right now. If something happens, you aren't the reason. Right now, I love you more than I hate myself. You are why I'm still here. Thank you, I'm sorry.

Hi,
Ich weiß es ist schwierig in Kontakt zu bleiben weil wir uns kaum sehen können...
Vielleicht weißt du es nicht aber ich mag die echt gerne und wir beiden wissen das unter anderen Umständen es auch geklappt hätte.
Aber noch gebe ich die Hoffnung nicht auf.
Ich hab dich lieb ♡

i miss you
when you broke up with me i had a hard time eating for months after. i’m sorry i never responded to your texts . i’m sorry i treated you so bad and told you that you were replaceable. you aren’t , but i figured that out too late

ill start with this.
you were my first love, but i wasn't ever once your love.
i know i cant change how you feel, but god sometimes i wish i could.
you have no idea how much pain im in, even almost a year later.
if only you had liked me back.
even then i know it wouldn't have worked, as we found out much later on.
i still have the desire to text you sometimes. obviously i don't because of what you did.
the worst part is you don't even know what you did wrong.

there’s so much to say.
i know you have no clue what i’m going through, and it hurts that i have no one to relate to.

I still love you a lot. but, in a way growing apart from you was good for me. I’m still hurt because you said you we wouldn’t grow apart. you were my best friend. but I understand why you did it. I would too. I miss you swee

I want you to be with me so badly but ik it's not gonna happen and that breaks my heart a little bit every day

i think of you nearly every day. i’ve typed messages i’ve never sent. i’ve tried to hint to it, but i’m too scared to tell you, maybe because i’m scared that you will love me

i miss talking to you sm. you were my best friend and i don’t think i will ever lose feelings for you

we liked each other so much. where did it all go wrong. granted i never told you and that my have been on me but god, i'm sure i made it pretty obvious. i hate myself for not ever telling you, we could've actually gone somewhere. i miss the trips when we would go camping and fuck around in the rain. i miss messing with you for wearing a beanie too high up on your head. i miss babysitting your little sister. i miss you so fucking much. i hurt you though. i don't know if i will ever be able to forgive myself for how manipulated you because was a ware of how much you liked me. i'm so sorry and i hope we cross paths soon again, ciao

I was seven when I met you. A little seven year old who fell in love with you, and it stayed that way for five years. I grew up with your constant teasing, and I miss it. But I never knew if you did. I never even knew if you saw me in the same light. So all I'm asking is, when you look up into the sky, could you sometimes wonder if I'm looking up at it too?

i still can’t believe i let you treat me like that. i cant believe you did that in the first place. fuck you.

i love talking to you but i feel like i’m boring and for some reason i’m different around you and i hate it!! gimme time to open up:))

i miss you. and the fact that you didn’t respond to me after I tried & tried? what did i ever do wrong

I wish you had given me a real chance instead of deciding your intentions with me before you truly knew me and all I had to offer.

I am a constellation of stars, a museum full of art, and I am the sun and the moon. but to you I was none of that.

you seemed so interesting. you were unlike anyone I had ever been with before. I realize now though, that what I deemed as high intellect was just impressive manipulation skills masked with intelligence. I wonder how many other girls have fallen under your spell, or if for whatever reason I was just the one you decided to break.

It hurts knowing that to you, I was nothing more than an easy fuck. you never took the time to get to know me, the real me. what makes my heart race, what keeps me up at night, what lights up my eyes and everything that makes me, me. Instead, I was simply the girl you knew you could repeatedly hurt and no matter what, I’d always still take you back, if it meant I got to press my lips against yours just one last time.

that’s the problem with loving too hard and caring for all the wrong people. you’re constantly giving your all to those who don’t deserve it. and it breaks you just a little bit more every time until you’re left questioning if you did something to deserve this kind of treatment. It makes you wonder why you constantly keep choosing all of the wrong people to see your heart and where the good ones are hiding who actually deserve to.


It’s sad there are people out there we compromise our worth for and knowingly degrade ourselves just to be able to keep them in our lives. just to be able to be held by them, even if it only lasts for a little while.

It hurts knowing that while getting what you wanted, you had no regard for how much you were truly hurting me in the process.

and again I am left wondering, will I ever receive the love I know I deserve?

.....
you seemed so different, but infatuation always seems beautiful at first.
I will forever wish that you had just seen me, like I saw you.

you made me feel when it felt literally impossible, i hate you for breaking my heart but ill forever love you :/

i dont think you realise but im only really friends with you because its better than having nothing at all.

I miss you. It's been a month, but I just want to know if you care about me. Did I mean anything? I can't stand being the only one who cares. I wish I could talk to you but I don't trust myself not to cry. I wish I could stop caring.

i regret my decision of leaving you. you were my dream guy and i messed up. i just hope you’re still happy. i want you to be happy. pls. i hope you come back but still be happy. with or without me.

i wonder if u wrote one to me . i looked through all the submissions with my name on it but i couldnt tell if they were u . i hope u did . i dont understand why after everything that happened between us, my buried heart where u lay still awakes . i want to tell u everything, but we both know i never will because even tho u might feel the same, i know im going to break ur heart again . we are not meant to be . we are not soulmates . but you are the only boy who i know i will love forever . after all the ‘crushes’ ive had after u, u never left . its like u are attached to me . i hate u sometimes . but even after trying to hate u, i stop . my hatred goes away . like it was never there . i want to tell u but i will never say because i cannot be with u . and even if my heart begs to be with urs, i wont let it because of the fear of me hurting u once again . i wont do it . i wont put u through that . i love u, but ur heart is not mines to keep

Even though I’m married now. I miss you every day and think about what could’ve been. I can’t help it...

I love you. I love you I love you I love you and I’m sorry I was too much. I’m sorry I was never good enough. I love you.

I love you. I love you I love you I love you and I’m sorry I was too much. I’m sorry I was never good enough. I love you.

i miss u. i know it was unfair to keep u but I wish I was selfish. i finally played the walking dead and lis2 hAha i wish I could talk to you. i love clem too btw

i keep trying to convince myself that i just miss the idea of you, but i just really miss you. i never should have said goodbye.

hey! i just wanted to say that you genuinely made me feel loved and i miss you. hope you’re doing okay?

i still love you, all the pain you brought me, and i still love you.
i think i do anyways, love me back. always.

i wish you could understand what you did upset me and how it made me feel. please just make up your mind. it’s so hard already i don’t know what to do.

honestly, i pity you. i wish you would move past your big ego and realize how you affect the people around you.

could never put into words how much you hurt me and maybe i’m stupid for it but in the end i always come back because even just the hope of us working is less pain than the reality.everything we’ve been through and we still can’t even sit down and have a conversation with eachother. you make yourself out as a nice boy but you are far far from in it

I love you so much and you're my best friend but I don't think I can stay with you if you date someone again because you forget I exist and try to force me to like them every time by putting me in uncomfortable situations by leaving me alone with them and pretend you're so perfect when I try to communicate how I feel and that you do ignore me anytime you meet someone new and come straight back to me when you break up, now you're angry at me because I don't talk to you about how I feel anymore. I wonder why. maybe we shouldn't have tried to be friends again after I told you to go fuck yourself and you messaged me saying you loved me, that's so hard to believe now.

ik we dont talk anymore but everyone since i met you i fell completely in love with you. no matter what i do my heart always wants you, your constantly on my mind but i dont even have enough courage to text you anymore. i go through our old conversation and cry about how much i miss you. you made me believe in love and showed me how i should be treated. you made me love myself as much as i loved you. we used to talk abt when we were older we can try to be a thing bc we both loved each other and wanted the same things but at the moment it wasnt the right time. then one day you kinda just left with no reason. now when i think of you my heart breaks wishing for you to come back. so many things remind me of you and it hurts. i love you so much and always will, you made your place in my heart and its not leaving. forever and always til the end my love :(

I’m just kind of conflicted right now. I think that I enjoy being around you a little too much. I want to hug you.

your eyes are beautiful to me. i always wanted to tell you that. idk why you dated my friend. i've moved on though. lol.

This is about the third one I’ve put on here about you. I’m not ok. I can’t even decide if I miss you or not

fuck you. i never loved you or anything but you know what you did. i was 14 and you knew i didn’t understand or want to. i want that innocence back. you don’t deserve her, you don’t deserve anyone. fuck you. i hope the rest of your life is shit.

I wished I didn’t say no when you asked me to spend the night. I wish I was brave enough to love you. 如果有下次，我会再爱一次。

i was young, dumb and new to love. it was clear that neither of us were actually ready to commit, but we didn’t admit it out loud. i was forced to confess my love and you couldn’t handle it, left me to my own thoughts for several weeks, only to be forced by your friends to interact one last time. those few weeks were painful, but the one thing that really hurt me was the silence. i still don’t know if you actually liked me or just wanted me for the chase. i forgive you

You taught me to hate myself. I didn’t really love you I was 12, but I still obsess over what you would say to me. I still can’t eat or leave my house without makeup, I still do 100 squats a day to get that hourglass shape you constantly nagged me to work harder for. I guess it’s not your fault I’m insecure, but did you have to fuck my bestfriend?

Your old YouTube videos saved my life, you’re like a dad to me, even tho I might’ve never met you.
I Hope 2021 treats you well MamaMax.

i like you more than i like myself. i just wish you’d get excited when you hear my name.. that’s all i want.

I can't wait to see you tomorrow!! I might make more of these but for those search up sunflower max because that's the unsent nickname I'm gonna use for u

hi. we were good friends for a while but I always thought I liked you far more than you liked me. I wish we were close again, and met up and called but yknow I've probably missed that chance now.

its funny how years have passed and u still have a piece of me. i always wonder how things could have played out