i wish i could go back in time and tell you everything. i never knew we wouldnt ever see eachother again.

Thank you for the lessons. You were my first love and I cherish the time we spent together. Happy to finally call you a friend.

Even though I’m married now. I miss you every day and think about what could’ve been. I can’t help it...

there’s a black hole in my chest where you used to lay. my fingers miss the outline of your nose. i need to move on.

Im happy that you’ve moved on... its been 7 months since we have talked we were never more then friends, just hurts that you’ve moved onto someone that you know hurt me a lot :(:

i wonder if u wrote one to me . i looked through all the submissions with my name on it but i couldnt tell if they were u . i hope u did . i dont understand why after everything that happened between us, my buried heart where u lay still awakes . i want to tell u everything, but we both know i never will because even tho u might feel the same, i know im going to break ur heart again . we are not meant to be . we are not soulmates . but you are the only boy who i know i will love forever . after all the ‘crushes’ ive had after u, u never left . its like u are attached to me . i hate u sometimes . but even after trying to hate u, i stop . my hatred goes away . like it was never there . i want to tell u but i will never say because i cannot be with u . and even if my heart begs to be with urs, i wont let it because of the fear of me hurting u once again . i wont do it . i wont put u through that . i love u, but ur heart is not mines to keep

do you ever feel guilty for the way you treated me? i love you. but i now also hate you so fucking much.

i still don’t understand how you just fell out of love with me overnight. you were my person, i saw a future with you. you were and still are the person i wanna spend my life with, raise a family with and love with my whole heart and more. but even that wasn’t enough. i miss and love you so much. i see the way you look at me and i hear about how you ask how i’m doing and coping. i know you still care. please come back i need you. just one chance please my love

its funny how years have passed and u still have a piece of me. i always wonder how things could have played out

im sorry i wasn't better to you. I hope you are well, i know you've moved on but i hope you're ok and i hope that you live a great life.

I’m so sorry for everything I have done you where my world and more when you texted me or even talked to me in school I lit up completely I was a bad person back then and still am but luckily you came in my life you fixed mine and made me the person I am today filled with hate but also with love a gentle kind a kind of love you can never forget a love that feels warm and makes you smile even when you can’t thank you for that I’m very sorry I know I ruined your life and I can’t deny that but thank you for making me see that love is real in so many places thank you for showing me I was cared for and loved thank you I know I may have ruined your life but I feel as if you also enjoyed the ride it made you smarter and wiser and you moved along with another girl now I wish you the best of luck you opened my heart and mind up so much to see new things. You made me see life isn’t always so happy and you have to learn to let go thank you for showing me so much compassion you lit up my life like no other max at night I would picture our wedding together and how we would end up and every time something crashed the wedding you see, in life we always got to the part that was live, and happiness but we never had that connection that would completely finish that to get to that wedding I am glad you came in my life and wish we could have stayed together forever but things where not meant to be and I understand that now. I always felt like eveyone loved me but no one liked me and you made me feel like none of that ever mattered and whoever didn’t like me just didnt like me and that was there problem. Love you and always will my sweet darling max live the greatest life you possible could you deserve the stars and more but this is my final goodbye this chapter in life was never meant for me but it made me who I am today.

you were DEFINITELY fucking with my heart when you started sending me hearts. besides that, you're pretty cool and i'm sorry i made things awkward lol

You brought out the worst in me and made me feel like nothing, but I have always been a shitty person so maybe it was deserved.

i regret my decision of leaving you. you were my dream guy and i messed up. i just hope you’re still happy. i want you to be happy. pls. i hope you come back but still be happy. with or without me.

I have never felt the way I felt about you. I gave u all my heart and I thought u did the same but in the end u were just playing. And I’m disappointed in myself for being played again. And you promised that I would never lose you and that you loved me. And that’s bullshit because you don’t do that if you love someone. I miss you so much and I want to hug you but I know for a fact that I’m just someone that passed through not anyone important.

well ... max I hate you so much but my sister loves you so much but i what you to know that she loves you...

im afraid when you come back i will feel like we are finally too different for one another or that I won’t be able to see the love in ur eyes anymore.

I trusted you with my heart. You made me grow attached to you just for you to leave me in the dark. You make me so mad, and I feel so humiliated.

I hated the way you talked to me. I hated the way you looked at me. I hated how you left without a goodbye. I hate how much I cared. I hate everything about you. And I hate myself for letting you do that to me.

It took ages to get over you purely cause of what you did to me. Still hurts every single night in ways. You somehow always come back the second i’ve moved on :(.

You made me cry and feel like I the dumbest person in the world. And now you talk to me like nothing had happened.

I wonder what it’ll be like when I tell you I was in love with you. You’re so much more than you think you are. Even though it’s different now, I hope one day you learn to love too everything that I loved about you. There’s a lot more of it than you think.

when did it go so badly? why does it still hurt? why do you still come back to me even after the pain you caused me?

I miss you. It's been a month, but I just want to know if you care about me. Did I mean anything? I can't stand being the only one who cares. I wish I could talk to you but I don't trust myself not to cry. I wish I could stop caring.

i dont think you realise but im only really friends with you because its better than having nothing at all.

I trusted you with the heart and you broke it. you didn't even seem to care- we haven't talked for 3 months.

you made me feel when it felt literally impossible, i hate you for breaking my heart but ill forever love you :/

You broke my heart, but we were just kids. I hope you know that I forgive you, I have for awhile. You once promised me you would live till 30, I hope you will keep that promise.

I love you so much. I know you aren’t ready right now, but I’m going to wait. I’ll always be here for you babe.

I don’t think you understand how much I like you. It’s impossible for me to get you off my mind. The worst part is that you don’t even know it. I wish I could tell you how I actually feel but I know that you probably don’t feel the same way. You make me happy and have an amazing personality. I just hope that someday we can be more than friends...

I wish you had given me a real chance instead of deciding your intentions with me before you truly knew me and all I had to offer.

I am a constellation of stars, a museum full of art, and I am the sun and the moon. but to you I was none of that.

you seemed so interesting. you were unlike anyone I had ever been with before. I realize now though, that what I deemed as high intellect was just impressive manipulation skills masked with intelligence. I wonder how many other girls have fallen under your spell, or if for whatever reason I was just the one you decided to break.

It hurts knowing that to you, I was nothing more than an easy fuck. you never took the time to get to know me, the real me. what makes my heart race, what keeps me up at night, what lights up my eyes and everything that makes me, me. Instead, I was simply the girl you knew you could repeatedly hurt and no matter what, I’d always still take you back, if it meant I got to press my lips against yours just one last time.

that’s the problem with loving too hard and caring for all the wrong people. you’re constantly giving your all to those who don’t deserve it. and it breaks you just a little bit more every time until you’re left questioning if you did something to deserve this kind of treatment. It makes you wonder why you constantly keep choosing all of the wrong people to see your heart and where the good ones are hiding who actually deserve to.


It’s sad there are people out there we compromise our worth for and knowingly degrade ourselves just to be able to keep them in our lives. just to be able to be held by them, even if it only lasts for a little while.

It hurts knowing that while getting what you wanted, you had no regard for how much you were truly hurting me in the process.

and again I am left wondering, will I ever receive the love I know I deserve?

.....
you seemed so different, but infatuation always seems beautiful at first.
I will forever wish that you had just seen me, like I saw you.

things were confusing, I tried too forget you. I still love you and I’m dying because I don’t know if you love me too.

i miss you. and the fact that you didn’t respond to me after I tried & tried? what did i ever do wrong

you were the only guy i’ve ever seen myself with and the only guy i’ve ever felt safe with. i don’t know what happened but i wish everything could go back to being good. i wish i could just feel ok again.

you were the only guy i’ve ever seen myself with and the only guy i’ve ever felt safe with. i don’t know what happened but i wish everything could go back to being good. i wish i could just feel ok again.

You where the first person to ever care about me but now where just strangers. I still think about you, I wonder if you think about me too.

when we were just hanging out and i was telling alee that i loved her and you said i love u too because you thought i was taking to you. i laughed it off but that is something i’ll always remember, no matter how small, that still meant the world to me.

I love you in a "I want to marry you" way.I want to go through life with you.I want to grow up with you.

I love you so much, you were the only person and reason I held on so long. I know you’re not coming back, and if you do, I’ll be really surprised. but until then. I love you, and I’ll be here. it might be months or years. but I’ll never forget you and how you made me feel.

You taught me what love felt like, and though we're just friends today I wouldn't give it up for the world.

You weren't my first love. I'm so sorry. You were a nice friend but I was getting depressed, feeling pressured, not wanting to accept my sexuality and I just wanted to know someone liked me. I couldn't tell the difference between platonic and love. I know I hurt you but you hurt me too, you weren't the nicest to me and I didn't agree with a lot of the things you said and did. Maybe I'm just broken, but I hope I didn't break you

i love talking to you but i feel like i’m boring and for some reason i’m different around you and i hate it!! gimme time to open up:))

hey. i had a really shitty day and all i wanted to do was talk to you about it. i hate that you are not in my life anymore.

why didnt i realize that i loved you before it was too late, i did something unforgivable. i really miss you. i miss you so much. why did i push you away? im sorry.

i cant say that i loved you, but i really needed you. my thoughts got the best of me and i ruined our relationship. i shouldn’t have said i loved you.

why was i so jealous of you? why did i think you hated me so much? i hated the thought of you talking to other people other than me. i was so selfish to think that you really loved me.

you think the world revolves around you but it doesn’t, you’re a hypocrite and made me feel like i was worth nothing.

You had my heart for so long. You broke my heart for so long too. But he loves me, a lot and he is my best friend. You don’t have my heart anymore. He has it and I know he is gonna take care of it.

Am I allowed to call you mine, cause your her's now, but I wish you were mine I wish I had kissed you in the music room or told you I liked you that letter put everything into perspective and I wish I had never let dean happen, why did you let me move on I loved you, you knew that, I still love you, and now you love her and I can't hurt you or her because I love you and I want you to be happy and if I don't make you happy then I hope that she does and she won't hurt you the way I did. I'm sorry I let you go and didn't tell you my feelings until it was to late. Tell her how lucky she is and give her that hoodie for me ok? I love you now and forever you know that now.

One thing I vividly remember is thinking how I hoped you won't have enough time to do anything about it before i lost conscious.