Unsent Messages

i wonder if u wrote one to me . i looked through all the submissions with my name on it but i couldnt tell if they were u . i hope u did . i dont understand why after everything that happened between us, my buried heart where u lay still awakes . i want to tell u everything, but we both know i never will because even tho u might feel the same, i know im going to break ur heart again . we are not meant to be . we are not soulmates . but you are the only boy who i know i will love forever . after all the ‘crushes’ ive had after u, u never left . its like u are attached to me . i hate u sometimes . but even after trying to hate u, i stop . my hatred goes away . like it was never there . i want to tell u but i will never say because i cannot be with u . and even if my heart begs to be with urs, i wont let it because of the fear of me hurting u once again . i wont do it . i wont put u through that . i love u, but ur heart is not mines to keep