Unsent messages to JACK

i never knew i would have this much love for you. i need you in my life and don't know how i'd move on without you. i love you jacky!

i weirdly thought our time together would matter more to you, i don’t know why. i miss you a lot, thanks for helping me learn how to have fun again. you made me feel alive for a while. i miss that part too

I never meant to hurt you. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself the way you have forgiven me. We hurt eachother.

why do i have to like you, i dont want to but my heart really said "omg hes the oneee" as much as i wanna hate you i cant.

why tf did u give her the SAME FUCKING HOODIE U PRICK, U MOVE ON WAY TO FAST U SELFISH BITCH, anyways fuck you and i hope ur children are ugly :))

It was always easy to let someone go before I met you. I still think about you ten months after we broke up. It took me so many months to realize how manipulating and toxic you were. I could never share my feelings with you about anything because you would always find a way to make it about you and make me feel bad for expressing how I felt. During our relationship I barely ate because I always wanted to be perfect for you and after our relationship that only got worse because of how heart broken I was. I still miss you sometimes even after everything you did to me. I hope you see this even if you don’t know it’s about you

how was i so stupid to not notice you liked me back? i know we would've made each other so happy. i promise i'll find you in the next life.

We used to be close. I never told you though because I knew you didn't feel the same. I don't regret not telling you I liked you.

im so sorry about what i did to you. i don't think i actually liked you as much as you liked me. i didn't mean to break up with you like that, but i knew we were going to break up eventualy, so i guess i just sped up the process lol. anyways so sorry

i fell in love with the idea of you and i hate you as a person but i still have feelings for you. i can’t help it. ik you have many more options that are all prettier than me and i hate that.

just wanna know where it went wrong. i gave you my everything. i loved you with my whole heart. but you didn't care. i shaped you into the person you are today. i kept holding onto our relationship. i thought i could be the one to fix you. she will never love you as much as i did. i wish you the best. but i don't.

i'm so so so sorry for everything. you're an amazing person and i hope that you find someone better than me.

i actually wanted you but you posted another girl for new years but you still send me nudes so what the fuck.

you were my first love, but now you’re my best friend. i love you in a different way now, but sometimes i still miss you. i wonder everyday if you feel the same

I don’t think I can ever not be in love with you and it’s scary. You hurt me so much and I know you know how I feel and I know you don’t love me back and never have or will, and that’s okay because even if you did I don’t even know if I would want that. I couldn’t trust you. I would never believe that you love me. I just want us to be best friends but I don’t think even that feeling is mutual. I just want you around. I don’t care how. I want you to be happy and I want to be by your side however that may be.

you unknowingly changed my whole life and helped me stay in this world, i wish i could’ve been more of what you wanted. it pained me seeing you with other girls but i wanted you to be happy, i wanted this so bad i would watch my heart shatter just to watch yours grow. i love you always and i want nothing but happiness for you.

Recently I’ve been thinking of you a lot more, my 4th grade crush. I hope you’re doing well and I hope the best for you.

the first person i really felt something with. not over you yet and i know you hate me but if you ever got curious and decided to look on here i still like you :)b

I love you so much,more than you will ever know,you were my happiness and when you left it recked me completely,then you came back my world was almost complete again,your forever mine even when I’m not yours maybe we’ll meet again I hope so,your just so perfect??

being around you cheers me up not matter what, even in silence just being in your presence is all i need right now, i miss you

you confuse me, honestly. one time were joking and we can't stop laughing then you go off and talk to your friends about me, having them send pictures they take of me in your stupid group chats-stop adding me to them btw. but the worst part is that your my best friend's ex which means we could never be together. which is good because I want nothing to do with you, but for some odd reason I can't stop thinking of you. so get out of my head

I have never loved anyone as hard as i loved you when you left me it crushed my soul it’s so hard to let go

i know we’ve never actually dated, but we both just knew that we were meant to be together. i wish either of us had the courage to tell the other. i love you. i hope one day we can find happiness in other people.

you really hurt me. I still care and love for you, no matter how much I tell myself I don't. I messed up and made mistakes too, it wasn't purely your fault, although I would never wish of saying the things to you that you said to me. you'll always be a part of me whether I like it or not. I've moved on but sometimes I still think about you. it's shitty trying to move on when others remind you of that person on the daily. You helped me a lot though and no matter what you've done I still think you're a good person deep down. I'll never truly be over you

Uh yh im a lesbian now, i dont know if it was the comp het or the fact i didnt know lesbians existed but it was fun stargazing, watching smosh, and playing luigis mansion with you in a platonic way.

I thought you and me worked out. I thought you were someone who got me.You turned out to be something completely different and I don’t thing I can forgive you.

uh i really hope you dont see this but i really wish i could of told you how i felt earlier.. your now dating someone and im probably never going to be an option for you. just so you know you will always have a place in my heart.. i really hope we can be friends at least.

I’m still waiting for that call back. A text is still needed. I just wanna hear from you again. Please don’t leave.

I loved you but you didn’t love me. Thank you for showing me how to love. You’ll always have a place in my heart.

hearing your voice is like being lactose intolerant and eating a tub of ben and jerry’s. it’s so satisfying and soothing, yet so awful for my well being.

do you ever think about me? because you’re still all i think about a year later i will never get over the hurt

I wonder how it feels to play with people's emotions?Nvm i had to go through it to someone that didn't deserve my energy.

why don’t you see how i’ve fallen for you. the way you insult me makes me insecure but i’m still into you.

i miss the sweet boy i fell in love with. i don't think either of us know where he went. still, i love you and every version of you.

i don't regret the 18th of july but i regret the days after it. i should've stayed with you. i'm sorry. i love you

i'm still sorry that i left you. i wasn't someone who deserved you. i love you and one day i hope i'm enough

you turned my world. and when you left my world stopped turning. and i still havent figured out how to move it again.

today in church the pastor told us that sometimes god delays our plans bc he's working in the other person's life before they come together. we're both working, i hope god lets us be together. i miss you so much, i'm doing good distracting myself but life has lost it's happiness. when i'm happy, it's only bc i'm distracting myself from the fact that i can't be with the person i love. i hope you haven't forgot about me, bye bye bub

i did pretty good today, i worked out, went to work and got a new jacket. i distracted myself, it's exhausting, but i'll get used to it. i miss your soul being close to mine, you were home. i'm moving i guess:')

im submitting this under a false name, don't need to inflate your ego and make you think I'm thinking of you (which i am but that's besides the point). you're no good for me. You made me feel horrible. and we're so young, and have so much of life ahead of us. and yet i can't brush away this feeling that, we're meant to cross paths again. I've tried talking to other guys, but they're not you. i don't feel the same way towards them, the way i felt with you. i miss those times you'd try to speak spanish, and mispronounce the hell out of it but i'd always find it funny. you had a cute accent... the way i'd do anything to hear your voice again. not just your voice, but your laugh, your smile... you never directly said it except one or two times, but you were insecure of your chipped tooth, and nose. which is something i never really understood. because in my eyes, they were one of your best features.
point is, regardless of how much i may deny it, I still have feelings for you. and even though i want everything to go back to how it was a few months ago, I can't keep ignoring all of the shitty stuff you did.

literally what is wrong with you. stop switching up and gaslighting me. also can’t tell if ur the one submitting stuff on here w my name. prob not cause u don’t listen to me or give af

You are a kind human. But you are scared of manifestation. You ghost people when you realize that it becomes a problem for you. You run away from problems. So you better let other get hurt because you wanna be safe. I forgive you, but I hope I will never see you again. So thank you for leaving me!

i wanted so badly to tell you everything you did wrong. but i knew you would never give me the answer i wanted

Ever since you left I’ve never been the same. You took a piece of me with you when you blindsided me. Why couldn’t you tell me? I wish you’d call

I’m glad to have met you when I did because no ones going to know that version of you the way I did and although I didn’t want to believe it I knew you never loved me the same because you wouldn’t have treated me the way you did. I really did love you. Thank you for the memories and for teaching me a lesson.

how do you act as if you leaving me didn't change anything in your life but I still broke down for months.

a part of me will always love you because you were my first love. you have a piece of my heart, and a piece of you exists within me.

I know you hate me now and are doing just fine but the truth is I can't live without you and I need you

You’re my first love I mean how could I not fall for you god you’re just oh I don’t know how to explain it but I adore you so much gosh it’s so frustrating you don’t love or even like me back I wish I could say this to you now but I couldn’t do that I mean the complete deviation of the situation is just awful I mean how could I be such a stupid stupid girl to fall for you its just tragic to be honest but it’s okay I’ll find someone I hope at least and maybe I’ll love them as much as I love you well I hope to god I do or well I’m in deep shit I guess but anyway if you have by some miracle read this have a nice day or night I guess

I didn’t realise you were first love... I thought you were another classic fancy but then when I was over you I still thought about you