I don’t think I can ever not be in love with you and it’s scary. You hurt me so much and I know you know how I feel and I know you don’t love me back and never have or will, and that’s okay because even if you did I don’t even know if I would want that. I couldn’t trust you. I would never believe that you love me. I just want us to be best friends but I don’t think even that feeling is mutual. I just want you around. I don’t care how. I want you to be happy and I want to be by your side however that may be.
