i actually wanted you but you posted another girl for new years but you still send me nudes so what the fuck.

you have helped me through a lot even tho you definitely dont care. thanks for putting up with me for 160 days

i hate that i still miss you. you found out you were only into guys at the end of the summer...guess who goes by he/him now... im obsessed with jojo now, thanks a lot. everytime i break up with someone now, i think of you. i wish you the best. ciao mi amor.

i'm so so so sorry for everything. you're an amazing person and i hope that you find someone better than me.

i will always love you no matter what or how distant we are you will always have a special place in my heart

I loved you so much. I told you the way people had betrayed me before, you promised you wouldn’t and then you did the exact thing I asked you not to. I asked you to stop because I couldn’t handle dealing with it again and you chose that our friendship was not important enough. I don’t know how you expected me to just get over it.

I’m sorry we went on different paths but I hope we find our way back to eachother one day. I’ll always love you.

my first love lolz. i love talking with you, i just wish you showed at all if you loved it too. just one question, whyd you choose my best friend?

You were the last person I expected to abandon me. Looking back, I should have seen the signs. Have a nice life

just wanna know where it went wrong. i gave you my everything. i loved you with my whole heart. but you didn't care. i shaped you into the person you are today. i kept holding onto our relationship. i thought i could be the one to fix you. she will never love you as much as i did. i wish you the best. but i don't.

i fell in love with the idea of you and i hate you as a person but i still have feelings for you. i can’t help it. ik you have many more options that are all prettier than me and i hate that.

You left him after ages, years after I told you I loved you. And even though we’re older now, I think I’ll always be a little bit in love with you.

Even though I know you don’t think about me I still worry that I won’t feel the same way about anyone that I felt about you.

why did you come into my life for 3 years just to break my heart. I loved you but I wasn't enough I could never be enough so thank you for letting me know.

you linger in my head, consuming every single one of my thoughts. i think i’ll always miss you, and i hate myself for that. i loved you - you said you loved me to, why did you lie?

I proper loved you even after the almost a year and a half of everything you put me through, but I'm starting to move on and thank you for breaking me to the point where I finally learned to self worth. Sometimes I wish I never met you, but youve given me insight on what to not chase after. So go fuck yourself Jack. I hope you see this one day you proper prick cunt

fuck you. you were the blessing in disguise. thank you for breaking my heart, i wouldnt have been able to find my purpose otherwise

im so sorry about what i did to you. i don't think i actually liked you as much as you liked me. i didn't mean to break up with you like that, but i knew we were going to break up eventualy, so i guess i just sped up the process lol. anyways so sorry

i'm sorry for being too much for you, i was really trying to hold back so i wouldn't lose you, but it happened anyway.

i didn't understand what you meant when you said you were doing this for me. I still think you did it for you, but nonetheless, this is the best thing you could've ever done for me. thank you. for everything. m

i miss you. i wish we could be what i thought we were going to become. i'm sorry for pushing you away

if i knew the last time we hugged would’ve been the last time, i’d have held on a little longer. i miss how it feels to touch you bub

Do you miss me even at least a tiny after you liked me for 7 months then moved on with someone else now I miss you.?
Those 6 months couldn’t have just left like that, right?

I wish i could take back what i did to you. but now you’ve moved on with someone exactly like me and i still love you.

i still think of myself the way that you thought of me, and i can honestly never thank you enough for that.

dude it really hurt when you rejected me. you were the one person i wanted to see. and for a whole year i cared about you. this is why i hate myself

hey maybe you shouldn't initiate a relationship with someone if you're incapable of caring for them or are gonna treat them like trash when they care about you

I wish that we were still friends today. You always made me smile and laugh. I regret what i did. I miss you.

Did you mean it when you said you thought you loved me in the staircase of your flat? It replays in my head so often but I don’t think I’ll ever know the answer. I always knew things would never work out between us, but I always liked to imagine what things would look like if they did. It hurt the night you told me you had stayed at your ex’s house. How long had you been speaking to her for? Were you speaking to us both at the same time? I hope I was more than just someone to sleep with to you, but I guess that is what you are known for and I’m probably just another girl on your list. Despite this, at the end of the day I hope you’re happy.

god i love you. you don’t understand it. it’s as if you have this piece of me and i can’t stay away from you trying to recover it.

god i love you. you don’t understand it. it’s as if you have this piece of me and i can’t stay away from you trying to recover it.

47, no matter how much i try to forget what we didn’t have, it doesn’t seem to go away. it’s engraved in my brain like the crooked lines on wood.

We used to be close. I never told you though because I knew you didn't feel the same. I don't regret not telling you I liked you.

i'm sorry for whatever it is i did wrong. maybe if you learned how to communicate, we could've lasted. oh well.

I don't understand how you could use me and then break me so easily when I knew you would from the first day that I met you

you really made me realize how much better i can do. i realize how little you cared. how little you made me at the priority. honestly, i thank you because i am in the best relationship possible now and that couldn't have happened without you. never talk to me again though.

You were so good to me. Thank you for all the things you taught me, for your patience with me. I wouldn't have had it any other way. You'll always have a piece of my heart

how was i so stupid to not notice you liked me back? i know we would've made each other so happy. i promise i'll find you in the next life.

you said youd wait as long as i need and that youll always love me. im ready now but youre dating my best friend

if i would've picked up your call, it would've been the first time i'd heard your voice in 5 1/2 months. but i cannot allow you to live in my mind anymore. let me go.

It was always easy to let someone go before I met you. I still think about you ten months after we broke up. It took me so many months to realize how manipulating and toxic you were. I could never share my feelings with you about anything because you would always find a way to make it about you and make me feel bad for expressing how I felt. During our relationship I barely ate because I always wanted to be perfect for you and after our relationship that only got worse because of how heart broken I was. I still miss you sometimes even after everything you did to me. I hope you see this even if you don’t know it’s about you

thank you for teaching me what love is supposed to be like. it's going to be hard to let go of what we had.

the closest I ever got to a relationship if he had actually liked me. ill never know why he never messaged me back.

I want to end the year by acknowledging my feelings for you and hopefully it will help to start the new year without anything still lingering. I’d rather say this to you in person, but that’s something I’ll only ever fantasise about, because although I wish I did, I’ll never have to courage to say this to your face. Maybe because I’m too scared you’ll laugh at me, or make me feel stupid for feeling this way. Maybe I don’t want to believe that I have never crossed you mind the way you cross mine everyday. But that doesn’t matter. What matters is how I feel. And that those feelings are real and I shouldn’t bury them deep down inside me.
I kept a journal this year, the very first entry being the night we stayed at Callums house after the party. Me, you and Gia all sleeping on the couch. How as the night progressed, me and you went from sitting in opposite ends to laying together, so close, under the blanket. We were watching a movie, Gia was awake still, sitting down the other end, and you were holding my hand beneath the blanket.

A few weeks before I had a dream about you, the dream was messy but I remember we kissed in it. And it was this incredible kiss that I woke up and couldn’t stop thinking about it. And from then on all I wanted was to actually kiss you and see if it felt as good as it had in my dream.
So that night when we cuddled together on Callums couch I was so incredibly happy. I thought finally someone I like feels the same way about me. I was so scared that I was overthinking it, or that i was really the one instigating it that I only ever stroked your hand after you’d rubbed mine first, or pulled you closer after you’d hugged me tighter. I was calculating it all, nervous I’d make the wrong move and you’d push me away or let go. But you didn’t, and I stayed awake all night so enchanted by this moment that I had always wanted. And it wasn’t that I’d always wanted this moment with you specifically, but a moment so intimate and close like this with someone I felt that way about.
The next morning, as I was lying there awake with my eyes closed, the way I’d spent the entire night, you got up to go shower, and I had to leave early so I went before you came back. I was so incredible happy the whole day.
About a week later, we went to a party. I was sitting with Callum, and I was upset because you weren’t talking to me. And he told me that that night didn’t mean anything to you. That you didn’t in fact like me back
And it broke my heart. But I didn’t want to believe him, so I went and talked to you. Only to be put to shame when you just repeated what he’d already told me.
When I walked home that night, I showered, brushed my teeth, and as soon as my head hit the pillow I cried harder than I had ever cried before. I could stop, I could breathe properly. I was crying so hard it hurt. But I eventually I stopped because I’d fallen asleep.
And I would have gotten over you had you given me a chance. But you kept leading me on. Making me constantly think, maybe he’s changed his mind. But you didn’t.

I’m not saying it’s your fault, but because of what you did. I hated myself. I hated myself for not being enough for you. I constantly wondered what was it about me that wasn’t enough for you. What was it that made you lead me on like that and then decide I wasn’t what you wanted. And because I didn’t know what it was, I just hated everything about me.
And now, after not having seen you for awhile, it’s given me time to get over you. To realise that I shouldn’t even want to be with someone who doesn’t want me.

But at the same time. I know that if you ever did change you mind. I’d be there. And I hate to admit that because it’s so pathetic but it’s also the truth
And I still really want to kiss you. To see if it’s as good as it was in that dream of mine.

i wasn’t trying to get anyone against you whatsoever. i would’ve loved to be on good terms but the way you’re acting, you made up your mind. i’m happy now, thank you.

i’m so thankful. seeing you with her broke my heart but it made me realise there’s no reason i shouldn’t have the same ability to be happy. you were just a soulmate that wasn’t meant to be. it’s time to move on now.

I feel so scared of losing you and I never know if its because of my childhood trauma or because im not good enough for you.

I never want you to become a stranger. I want you in my life forever. I love you more than life itself.

I will always love you, no matter how bad you hurt me. I hope you realize all the good i did for you❤️

thank you for loving me like this. for giving me a sense of protective love I've never had before. for quite a while i believed i couldn't love and that i was unlovable, but you keep melting these layers of ice. you are the first person I've felt this much warmth from.