Unsent messages to JACK

You told me you loved me and I beleived you but looking back on things I realized that we were too young and didnt know what that meant and now Iḿ sitting her wondering if you truly loved me as much as I loved you

thanks for writing songs about me,, you were the only person that made me feel important, and now you’re gone.

I loved you like I have never loved anyone else in my life. It was never in a romantic way but it was so strong. I grew up with you and we promised to stay in each other's lives. I would imagine us in our 20's living together in a big apartment. I would see myself being the best girl-man at your wedding, but we grew up. You became someone I didnt know, and yes I changed as well but it felt like one day you woke up as an entirely new person killing the old you. I still think about you every day but Im glad that this happened because now I have people in my love who love me and all my geekiness just like you did. You will be forever my first true love but you will not be last.

you gave me a wilting flower and kissed me once. while i relapsed on the floor of my room at 3 in the morning, you played video games with your friends and pretended that you didn't see my messages. i needed you. fuck you

i wish i could put into words how much I want you back. i hope we get to try again in the future because I want that more than anything.

I really thought you liked me back. You would flirt with me like how I would flirt with you. Now I feel like I'll never find someone like you.

i’m sorry i cut our time short, i didn’t want you to feel the way i do because i know how much it hurts.

We were so young when we first were together. We had a love so innocent and so pure. To tell you the truth it was a love that I’ve never had since I was with you. It’s been four years and I still crave what I’ve never had that you were only able to give me.

I’m with you right now. You just fell asleep after listening to me tell you why I love you so much. I love you. See you in the morning

i miss you so much that it consumes me. i don’t know where i fucked up but i love you so much. i hope one day we work out again and it’s okay if we don’t. i know you’re with her and it doesn’t matter what i do you’ll always stay with her. just breaks my heart but it’s okay you got to fake it till you make it Lol.

thank you for showing me what love really is but fuck you for also showing me how easy it is for someone to lie about their feelings towards you.

I understand now that you don't want me so I'll stop. I'll stop trying. It's fine, i'm use to everyone not wanting me so it's ok. Your just one more person I can add to that list.

You broke me in ways I didn't even know I could be broken. You fucked with my feelings and lead me on just because you could. I was happy before you. Truly, fuck you

i wish we still we together. i was so stupid for breaking up with you. everytime i see you, i just think of what we could’ve been

The fact that I had to convince myself that everything I felt about you was fake- crazy man. First loves suck.

i think of you every night, you make me feel special, and sometimes you just make me feel free like it’s so hard to not talk to you because i love you.

Hey, Its me again. I'm so deeply in love with you, but you don't feel the same... anyways i'll be fine

I don't know if I'm sad because I still care abt u or whether its because you've moved on and I'm still stuck here in the same place u left me

it's been so long. i thought I was ok and over u, even though I'll always care about u, but seeing u with someone else makes my heart ache and my chest sink. it is the worst feeling to know that I was wrong and it hurts so much

Espero que estés bien, luego que dejaste de ir colegio nadie sabía por qué de la nada desapareciste, me gustabas mucho y ahora solo estás en mi memoria

You hurt me so much I'm numb to emotion, the world, everything because of you. You manipulated me into sending because I thought we had something just to find out you have been talking to your other hoes. I hope you are happy now tho

im starting to think you're never gonna reach out. we only knew eachother for a short time, but i really liked you. im pretty sure you're my twin flame, but im starting to doubt everything now. i feel like u have so many options, do you even think about me? i like to think you do, but truth be told wouldn't you have texted me back? maybe im just delusional, but i miss you. im about to let go though....

i was so awful to you. and i’m sorry because if i would have realized of shitty i was i would never have let u be with me

fuck you for making me fall in love with you. I don't know if I even miss you anymore or just miss home. So yeah. Fuck.

I know im not supposed to like you but I can't help it. I wish you would like me back. I wish we could be together. I'll just quietly watch from afar.

Dear Jack,

I. Love. You. God, i don't know how to explain the way you make me feel. Or at least the way you made me feel. And the thing is, I can't stop craving that feeling. I can't stop craving the butterflies that erupt into my stomach the moment i see you sent me a message. I still dream about you. Every night. I know we've never met but i dream that you want me the way you want her. I know. She's the most beautiful person there is. Why would you let her go for me? I don't know. You probably shouldn't. But it hurts. It's hurts so much. Knowing that you loved me once. Did you? Or was that fake too? Why? Why don't you love me anymore? Why am i not good enough? I'm not guilt tripping you. Because not everyone has feelings for just about anyone. But i just want to know. What about me was not enough? I just want to know. And I know you think that i don't love you. But i really do. And i just really want you to know, that you will always be in my mind. The moment i hear the words love, jack, him... anything. You are there. And a small part of me tells me everyday. One day. One day he'll come back. He'll want the love you have to offer. That voice tells me to not give up. But it's so hard. You're like a drug, an addiction. My mind is constantly wrapped around you 24/7. So I ask you one last time. Why am I not good enough?
_V

I'm sorry I was too hurt to love you in all the ways you deserved. I feel guilty about it every single day.

our friendship is funny we always make mean jokes and act like we hate each other. I hope you know I don't hate you.

I bit the apple cause I loved you and why would you lie? and then I realized you're just as naive as I am.

looking back, we really could've been something. we would've been something if i wasn't so scared. i wish the circumstances were different, but it wasn't the right time. i don't know if it will ever be the right time for us. you were so sweet to me, and only me. you asked me about my day. and actually cared to know the answer. even when i pushed you away, you remained sweet. i wish you the best, jack. i think i'll always have a little something in my heart for you. the first boy that ever actually liked me for me.

I still think about u a lot. sometimes w indifference. sometimes w hurt. sometimes w wistfulness. i hope u think of me sometimes. i miss you, even tho i probably shouldn’t since u didn’t treat me the best. thank you for being my first love though. don’t forget that I was yours too.

I will always love you, no matter how bad you hurt me. I hope you realize all the good i did for you❤️

thank you for teaching me what love is supposed to be like. it's going to be hard to let go of what we had.

I drive by the airport sometimes and see where we parked that one time and watched the lights and ate food. that was a really, really good night. i miss feeling how I did with u.

i miss texting you every night up until 4:00 am . and how we would share our feelings and just talk . i miss you . sm

I really like you, but I'm scared you like me too. I'm difficult and I don't want to be another problem for you.

I'm sorry for all the things I have ever done. I was not ready to have someone like you in my life yet.

I loved you. I loved you so much that I cared about everything you did. You left me. Left me alone in a world so distraught, but while I was in panic. I hope your proud of yourself now

thank you for being there for me when no one else was. you saved me and I really do love you with my whole heart, my soul, everything I am and ever could be. I just wish you knew.

How were you only in my life for 5 months? It felt like so fucking long... in the worst way possible.

I don't know why I wasn't good enough for you, and I know you're just hiding your feelings. Wish you the best in Atlanta, till we meet again sexy tattoo man

sometimes things are better left unsaid,

but i still wonder how things would be if i said it that night in your bed.

So what's the deal? You keep starting at me all the time. You gave me half a smile. We know each other?

we r dumb.we should have told each other what we feel so we wouldn't have gotten to this point. hope u miss me too
J.

you hurt me so beautifully that all i want is for you to do it again and again and again, until we both can’t do it anymore.

i hate u sm. u completed me and we got along so well. but all u did was lie to me and I resent u sm for it

i don’t understand why every part of my being still aches without you. ive spent longer without you than i was with you. i think it’s because of the stability you had.. a solid family, an education you were always working to improve, the most beautiful hobbies, goals and dreams. with you i didnt have to sacrifice any part of me to make you happy. you saw every fall and accepted it. i hope shes keeping you on your toes and occasionally giving you some sass. i know you like that in a girl. thank you for being my first love.

how could you let me fall in love with you while you had a girlfriend. you were just bored and i was convenient.

You broke my perception of love at the age of 15. I can’t forgive you for that. you broke me before i was finished being built.

Hi. Haven't heard from you. I miss you. my heart aches at the thought of you. i'm so happy you got your dream job. cheering you on from the outside. I love you.