hi. you haven’t replied to my texts or calls in a year. I’m pretty sure I lost you. it’s ok though because I know you’re happy with her now. I wish you could be happy with me though. I tried so hard to make things work and I know they could if we tried. Me and you. it would be hard but we would be together. And in love. My mom misses you. She always liked you, she thought you were handsome. She always said we would have beautiful children. Could you imagine having kids jack? Our kids. we could have a beautiful life. Just come back to me baby and we can be so happy and so in love. Me and you
Love, your lilly

i think im falling in love with you as stupid as that sounds. ive told you things no one else knows and i trust you with my whole heart, i just wish i could make you feel the way you make me feel. please hang in there, i promise it will all be okay

I’ll always have feelings for you. We should have never happened I knew you didn’t want what I wanted. I just wish we could still be friends but I know we aren’t able to do that and it upsets me so much. You told me you didn’t know until something ended if it was lust or love... I think that’s wrong.

i love you , ik u don’t like to hear it but i truely do . i say it to everyone i care abt but you ? you are diff . ??

how do you act like you like me one day and then don't care the next you are a waste of my time and tears I hate you forever

you know... i keep asking myself why do you keep leaving? is it something i did? did i mess it up, like you always make me believe i did? or is it you? manipulating me, like you always do? or is it just the both of us, letting us go over the same fight over and over when we shouldn't? if we know it's not healthy for the both of us, why do we keep going? i don't know what to do. you've turned into something you would've hated months ago. and someone i would hate now. i keep giving you these useless chances you keep wasting on dumb shit. we have the same fight over and over again but what's the point if you don't listen to what i say anyway? you're a toxic prick, that i can't seem to get rid of. all my friends are fed up with you enough. why can't i be? i mean; i am afterall, but why can't i let go? why can't i do what my friends tell me to do? why do i keep sticking around for no reason? maybe you're just a master at manipulation that i can see through but can't let go of. i'm sick of your behavior. but i can't learn to let go. my biggest mistake was sticking around anyway.

putting in the work to stay friends with you was both the best and most painful thing i have ever done

It would’ve been 1 year today. That’s all I wanted plus many more years. Still love you a ‘lottle’, forever.

You broke me. I feel shattered. I don’t know why but my heart still cares for you even though you chose someone else over everything we had. I just don’t understand how something so strong and so right could mean absolutely nothing to you. I want to be released from this torment I face. You don’t deserve me or any tear I shed. Goodbye, forever.

did I ever tell you that I wanted something more? I loved you, I still do, and I will forever. I know you don't feel the same.

I bit the apple cause I loved you and why would you lie? and then I realized you're just as naive as I am.

you were everything i wanted. it wasn’t until you got me to admit i loved you that you threw me out. fuck you.

I still believe you’re my soulmate and we would have been something amazing. I miss you daily. I hope you’re at peace.

I’ll not forgive u for what u did, but I hope ur good now and I wish I knew what really happened. Instead I’ve just got to assume and guess and wonder what made her so much better that’s me. But I guess we’ll never find out:/

I think ur cute but I’m beautiful to myself and I’m afraid to hear ur opinion on my looks also afraid of commitment and telling my parents abt u

?.That’s all.Your my home.My safe place.My best friend.May us last a lifetime. Please.I love you more then you imagine.

You left. I cried myself to sleep every night for a year wondering how you can just wake up one day and decide to stop talking to someone. I needed you.

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOUFUCUCJFKFKOUCUFCK2UGUFOUGFW48932!@#$#!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS!!!!!!! IF I FUCKING SEE YOU, IT'S ON FUCKING SIGHT!!!!@#@#$ DO YOU FUCKIGN UNDERSTAND!@#$#!!?!??!!!?!?

you saw me in blue. loved me in blue. now i can’t wear it without remembering how it reminds me of you.

why did you never try but you’re trying with her? i did everything to try make us work but you just didn’t do the same all i wanted was you

Why after years do I still compare everyone to you? Why can’t I accept that you’ve moved on and I should too...? I miss you and I hope she makes you as happy as you once made me.

When we ended I was broken. Im better now but ill never be the same. I hate you but I can't stop loving you. I still hope you'll show up on my door when we're 30.

I'm scared one day I'll wake up and you won't be in this world anymore. Please, don't leave me, my love.

If you looked one-sided loved up in a dictionary, I'm sure a picture of us would come up.
Why was I never good enough for you.

i did care about you even though I had to end things. You treated me like shit after that and i still care for you even though ive lost all respect. i cant believe i let myself care that much even if you didnt know it. it hurts

you will always be my little baba and i'm sorry that i was too fragile to get over you and sarah. i honestly do miss you.

all i want to do every second, of every minute, of every day, is to look at your effervescent face as you scream the lyrics to every song.

i love you but i don’t think you love me. you tell me you do but it doesn’t seem like you do. you look happier with abi but i know she would never do that too me. you were my best friend and still are so i hope this doesn’t ruin everything. the day you asked me to be your girlfriend i was so happy it was unbelievable. for the first time in months i was actually happy. and that day we were sat together cuddling on the swings. you made me feel safe. like finally someone loved me, but now i don’t know. i miss you ?

i fucking hate you every part of you but i hate how you try and make me hate myself but little do you know that i'll never hate myself. I really hope cheating was worth it.

You stabbed me so many times and acted like you were the one fucking bleeding every time you cheated i had to act like i didn't care because i didn't want to fight or loose you but now thats all i want, to loose you.

i didn’t mean it when i said it wouldn’t work i just wanted you to tell me it could and that you loved me. i’m glad you’re happy with her now, if you ever need me i’ll be waiting for the call - the girl in love with you

Haha i don't think you'll ever end up seeing this message, considering I'm not using your real name, just an inside joke name we had. but it's such a generic name, it'll easily get lost among the rest of these messages. i just want to say that you were my first love. regardless of how poorly you treated me, nothing will ever change that. You didn't think i was enough, and got bored of me. you just wanted to have a distraction. At first, you did have good intentions i guess. but i do, truly miss those first few weeks a lot. when you called me beautiful, when i was able to talk to you about my issues, my insecurities, my goals, life in general. I also loved learning about you too. you were insecure about your nose and smile, and always talked about it. frankly speaking, they were my favourite physical features of yours. Though you made me feel pretty, losing you was what really helped me learn to love myself, and see myself as beautiful. So although I would've liked having made more memories with you, but it wasn't meant to be. 5 months, we didn't talk at all whatsoever. And now you're back, and for what reason exactly? i'd like to say im unsure, but i know why. you got bored of the girl you left me for. You don't miss me, but maybe just the attention i gave you. there's no denying that although i have a distorted perception of love because i never grew up with a healthy model of it, i tried my absolute best to show you that i cared. in fact, i went out of my way. you mentioned that with your 2 previous girlfriends, you broke up because it felt one-sided. but I guess i wasn't interesting enough for you to keep fighting for.
And i've tried, to move on from you. over the summer i talked to a couple of guys, and although they're much better people than you, that gave me beyond the bare minimum whom i had such amazing conversations with, and yet it didn't feel right.
You bring out a part of me that is foreign to me. when i think of everyone and everything on the face of this earth, I just think of how they're all bad, even without knowing a single thing about them. But when i think of you, even after knowing all the things you did to me that literally shattered my heart and self-esteem for months, I still see the good in you; I still see something special in you. there's so much I wish to say to you in person, but i know that, that's never going to happen.
sure, you offered to hang out and apologize. but it doesn't feel genuine. if you want to be with me again, you need to give so much more effort than what you're giving now.
which. once you think of it, wont happen.
I know that life will take us onto other paths, and ours will most likely never meet again. though that is difficult for me to understand considering how, despite everything, i still want to be with you, it's a reality. But i think the most beautiful thing that came out of this situation, is that you showed me that i'm capable of feeling, and being loved. It was short-lived, and sometimes i miss who i was, when i was with you. but it's in the past, and i can't dwell on someone that treated me as if i was replaceable.

So i just want to say that i wish you the best of luck in life. become a doctor, like you had told me. learn to cook so you can start making more meals with shrimps, maybe learn to shave (your best feature is your smile... the moustache takes away from it), and learn to treat a girl right. Don't make her go through the pain i did.

p.s., i always acted cold and distant because i don't like letting people into my life easily. Even though i'd act so annoyed when youd try anything, I hope you know that i loved every moment of it; cherished them, actually.
what i would do to hear your voice again.
maybe in another life, our paths will diverge. maybe we ended up studying at the same institution. maybe we ended up starting a family, and teaching them spanish and arabic. who knows.

Ivy, by frank ocean. It always made me think of you.

I wish you told me what’s going on with us instead of being told by someone else. All those I love yous for nothing.

after 2 years we finally aren’t talking in the slightest, i wish you were more responsible and maybe this coulda been something

a year ago you made me a playlist of music that reminded you of me. i cant listen to those songs anymore.

I just really wish things couldve turned out differently, you meant and still mean so much to me and i think i do love you.

I wish I could tell my 15 year old self not to fall for you, if only to avoid the pain of you leaving three years later.

our friendship is funny we always make mean jokes and act like we hate each other. I hope you know I don't hate you.

i’m having a hard time deciding if i wish i’d never met you and being thankful for now realising what i deserve

i only blocked you because i couldn’t bear the pain of seeing you moving on. out of sight, a little more out of mind.

I'm sorry I was too hurt to love you in all the ways you deserved. I feel guilty about it every single day.

You were a racist sociopath and somehow way too involved in your church. Why did you tell me you loved me??!

i pray you’re just too scared to text me and you still care because it hurts feeling like i’m just there when your bored and lonely

im really sorry for the mess ive tied you into. but my trust in you is fading, but i know you mean no harm.

I fell in love with you three years ago today. Now we’re best friends and you’ll never know this is our anniversary.

why did you do this to me? you’re not the same person you used to be, it’s like i’m grieving you even though you’re still alive because you’re not the same person as the one who helped me when i was drunk that night. i wish you just put in more effort with me and made more memories because maybe you would have stayed, it’s not my fault you left and i know that but the way you left it feels like it is and i want to be happy for you now that you’re with her but i wish i was her so much that i just can’t bring myself to be happy for you this is all just depressing me.

i wish you would just want me back because you were all i wanted and i really thought we were meant to be.

Everything i do now is going to just remind me of you so that i’ll never be able to forget you,, especially my music.

if you somehow ever found this and read it you would think it’s cringe and that i’m over-exaggerating. but i don’t think you ever properly understood how much i loved you even if we didn’t meet a lot because you made my life had so much more meaning and now you’re gone but i’ll always love you

i just want to know what you think about me right now. Do you still like me or did you completely lose all feelings for me? Because i’m still in love with you so much. I know you don’t understand that and i don’t think you’ll ever get how much i actually do love you because you rarely met me.

but that just made me long for you even more

I wish I knew what actually happened. Did you cheat on me?Either way you were done with us before it ended and that completely fucking destroyed me. L.

I don't hate you. I just wish you hadn't given up on what we could have been. College wasn't the reason we ended. You will always be my first love and I can't forget that.

for some reason, i search the nickname you gave me on here with the hope that you think about and miss me. god, i will never be whole again. i’ve let you go, but i like to reminisce every now and then :( jackass