you weren't even a first love. i thought you would be. but that spark that was there, burnt out faster then we thought. unless you blew it out.

I still think about u a lot. sometimes w indifference. sometimes w hurt. sometimes w wistfulness. i hope u think of me sometimes. i miss you, even tho i probably shouldn’t since u didn’t treat me the best. thank you for being my first love though. don’t forget that I was yours too.

I'm sorry that I wasn't emotionally available. You were perfect. It was perfect, but I didn't love myself like you loved me. I'm sorry. I'll love you forever

why did you lie to me? why did you tell me not to worry about her, and then leave me for that same person?

Well I wish I told u I like you earlier, because ur kind behind closed doors. The only thing that stopped me was the fact I knew you wouldn’t like me back, I’m ugly and well not good enough, but now I’ve told you I know it’s not right, u only want me for one thing and not for well love

I know you're probably going to get back with your ex, but thanks for being the first guy to make me feel special

I'm sorry. you were the sweetest boy I've met who genuinely cared for me but now you love another girl. I've lost my chance and you lost patience. it's too late to change anything and i'm happy to see you with her. you seem happy after all the suffering. i didn't realise how much i loved and appreciated you jack.

we both knew i deserved so much better. why couldn’t you have been better? why did i let you hurt me so many times?

you were my everything and i found myself at the same time you found me, maybe some day we can meet again but for now you were my right person but the wrong time

looking back, we really could've been something. we would've been something if i wasn't so scared. i wish the circumstances were different, but it wasn't the right time. i don't know if it will ever be the right time for us. you were so sweet to me, and only me. you asked me about my day. and actually cared to know the answer. even when i pushed you away, you remained sweet. i wish you the best, jack. i think i'll always have a little something in my heart for you. the first boy that ever actually liked me for me.

I'll never forget the day that we met up for the first time by ourselves. From that day we met every weekend, and each time I still had crippling anxiety because i'd be scared of doing and saying the wrong things. From then on we started to hang out with the rest of the friend group and I loved it so much, but then you turned into something that mentally drained me constantly. You'd keep coming to me with the same issues constantly, and i'm not complaining about that because i know how tough things used to get for you. I'm complaining about the fact that each time you came to me with those same problems, you wanted constant attention and advice and trust me, some of the stuff you came to me used to make me worry about you constantly, which was why I couldn't help so much and give you advice. Even after that, you started to take everything so literal, almost as if you couldn't take a joke. Even after me and the rest of the friend group tried to talk to you, you wouldn't budge so we gave up. But then, you'd start complaining that we didn't care about you? And the fact you had the audacity to say that after everything we did for you was just sickening in every way possible and it really made me start to think hard about your behaviour. Thats when the penny finally dropped and you decided to cut yourself from the friend group by saying that it's all my fault, that I never cared about you, that I hated you, and since then that really sent me off the edge. Everything, everything I did was for you, your wellbeing, your mentality and yet you can't and never saw that did you? You only care about yourself, no one else. When did you ever ask me, or anyone else in the friend group if they were okay if they were having a bad day or just in general? Never, and yet the rest of us used to ask you daily because we cared that much about you. You're a sickening human being, Jack. I'm so sorry you decided to live that way and treat people like that because if i were you i'd sort myself out right now because going on like that won't get you anywhere. I can finally have closure and say goodbye.

You weren't my first love. I don't know if I'll ever know what I feel for you but thank you for always being there.

if she wasn't in the picture id never let you go sounds wrong but everyone says you look happier with me:(

i get so scared that i’ll never find someone who i’ll be that comfortable around again, i’m scared i’ll never find someone who will look at me the way you used to look at me. what was it? you told me you could really fall in love with me, was i just not good enough for you jack?

Although you hurt me, you still have a place in my heart. I'm sorry I couldn't fix you. I'm sorry I wasn't the one.

you saved me. i wish i could explain to you how much you mean to me, how terrified i am to lose you, and how much i really love you. i am in love with you. i'm in love with your laugh, i'm in love with the way you make me feel about myself, i'm in love with your smile and how it always makes me happy, i'm in love with it all. Please dont ever leave me.

I loved you like I have never loved anyone else in my life. It was never in a romantic way but it was so strong. I grew up with you and we promised to stay in each other's lives. I would imagine us in our 20's living together in a big apartment. I would see myself being the best girl-man at your wedding, but we grew up. You became someone I didnt know, and yes I changed as well but it felt like one day you woke up as an entirely new person killing the old you. I still think about you every day but Im glad that this happened because now I have people in my love who love me and all my geekiness just like you did. You will be forever my first true love but you will not be last.

im submitting this under a false name, don't need to inflate your ego and make you think I'm thinking of you (which i am but that's besides the point). you're no good for me. You made me feel horrible. and we're so young, and have so much of life ahead of us. and yet i can't brush away this feeling that, we're meant to cross paths again. I've tried talking to other guys, but they're not you. i don't feel the same way towards them, the way i felt with you. i miss those times you'd try to speak spanish, and mispronounce the hell out of it but i'd always find it funny. you had a cute accent... the way i'd do anything to hear your voice again. not just your voice, but your laugh, your smile... you never directly said it except one or two times, but you were insecure of your chipped tooth, and nose. which is something i never really understood. because in my eyes, they were one of your best features.
point is, regardless of how much i may deny it, I still have feelings for you. and even though i want everything to go back to how it was a few months ago, I can't keep ignoring all of the shitty stuff you did.

i did pretty good today, i worked out, went to work and got a new jacket. i distracted myself, it's exhausting, but i'll get used to it. i miss your soul being close to mine, you were home. i'm moving i guess:')

i know we aren’t supposed to be together but you are a beautiful soul and just know i love talking to you and i wanna be best friends :(

thanks for writing songs about me,, you were the only person that made me feel important, and now you’re gone.

You told me you loved me and I beleived you but looking back on things I realized that we were too young and didnt know what that meant and now Iḿ sitting her wondering if you truly loved me as much as I loved you

I loved you so much. I imagined a future with you. You were that someone I sang about. I still see us as Marian and Harold, dancing like we never have before, because we were so happy to be with each other. I hope you marry someday, and I hope little things remind you of our time together. Even though we were young, I will always remember you as the one that got away.

I knew you didn't love me but you led me to believe it, and then u just completely threw me away within minutes.

sorry things have been kinda weird lately, i care ab u so much and i’m not always the best at showing it in a non toxic way, lyfaa

i weirdly thought our time together would matter more to you, i don’t know why. i miss you a lot, thanks for helping me learn how to have fun again. you made me feel alive for a while. i miss that part too

today in church the pastor told us that sometimes god delays our plans bc he's working in the other person's life before they come together. we're both working, i hope god lets us be together. i miss you so much, i'm doing good distracting myself but life has lost it's happiness. when i'm happy, it's only bc i'm distracting myself from the fact that i can't be with the person i love. i hope you haven't forgot about me, bye bye bub

you turned my world. and when you left my world stopped turning. and i still havent figured out how to move it again.

i never knew i would have this much love for you. i need you in my life and don't know how i'd move on without you. i love you jacky!

I loved u dude, it sucks it ended a week before christmas but i really hope you’re ok because you were a great person and a great boyfriend

i’ve been broken over you for a very long time, i think i’ve finally picked up my own pieces. i’ll always love you so much, thank you for all that you’ve given me.

you know i can’t think of the word lovely without thinking of you? i hope you are well. let’s talk again, please.

Idk why but I liked you I barley even knew you. You asked me for nudes constantly but I never sent. But if you asked me to go on a date I would tell you to pick me up right now. Even tho I know for a fact you are a bad person and use girls for nudes to jack off to.

Idk why but I liked you I barley even knew you. You asked me for nudes constantly but I never sent. But if you asked me to go on a date I would tell you to pick me up right now. Even tho I know for a fact you are a bad person and use girls for nudes to jack off to.

I'm sorry my mental health affected our relationship, but I had to love myself. When it comes to making decisions by myself, I have to put myself first. I do love you though.

i'm still sorry that i left you. i wasn't someone who deserved you. i love you and one day i hope i'm enough

i don't regret the 18th of july but i regret the days after it. i should've stayed with you. i'm sorry. i love you

i’m sorry i wasn’t good enough for you but i hope the person who ends up with you knows how lucky they are

im sorry for what happened. you deserved so much more. thank you for teaching me how to be a better person.

I'm sorry i hurt u. I was the first girl you were ever comfortable with and I broke your heart. i shouldve been there when you were having tough times at home. i hope you are safe and finding yourself in this crazy world, and i hope your new gf is there for you for where I wasn't

Hi! I miss you a lot and I think of you a lot. We weren't anything more than best friends and I didn't like you as anything more either but I just wish things didn't end like they did just randomly. I miss you so much! I miss our random talks about stupid shit and I miss the randoms snaps we would send each other. Now that I moved the only way to talk was online but that got cut off. It hurt knowing that I got randomly unfriended without an explanation. I love you so much and maybe I did like you as more or maybe not. I'm not even sure myself but I know that you were the most important person in my life. You made me feel comfortable during every situation. You made me laugh and smile when I felt down. You just meant the world to me and I miss you but right now I'm angry at you. Sounds crazy right? But I am. I just got randomly shut out and it hurt, it hurt a lot. Maybe one day we'll meet again and I'll get my explanation. I know i'll get over it though it might take a while. I love you Jack thank you for the memories.
-Your girl best friend/your only girl friend(your own words not mine)

i like you so much but i know you’ll never like me back— if i tell you i’m going to have to let you go.

their this feeling deep down where I wished we would have worked out but I know i would just get hurt all over again.

I fell hard for you, but I knew a guy like you would never date a girl like me . I fell so hard I even got jealous, and when I found out you liked my friend it broke me, for a second I thought i had you because you always looked at me and smiled . But in the end you liked my friend, I get it , its hard to not like her, shes gorgeous, yet plays everyone,. I tried getting to know you, I tried talking to you, but all you did was look at her, pay attention to her, walk by her , blush when she talked to you. It broke me. I cried for nights because it really brought down my confidence, it made me realize my worth , my worth was nothing. I could never reach her level . I didnt have short nice wavy hair, or a nice style or body . But after school stopped, I had a glow up, I cut 8 inches off my hair, I started wearing makeup, And I started wearing what I was comfortable in , I got a nice style, I actually got a group a friends, and I realized who was fake. I have 3 boys wrapped around my finger now, and what do you have? nothing. Your loss my love. And that girl you liked so much is now the worst stuck up person you'd ever meet, and only for you to find out she didnt care abt you, instead she had feelings for your friend. So fuck you jack, you were my first love. Sadly, embarassed to say you were. Hope life treats you like the treated me.

i miss the sweet boy i fell in love with. i don't think either of us know where he went. still, i love you and every version of you.

why did you have to get so close to me and then suddenly just leave? why did you act different when you were with your friends? have you ever even cared about me at all?

why don’t you see how i’ve fallen for you. the way you insult me makes me insecure but i’m still into you.

I wonder how it feels to play with people's emotions?Nvm i had to go through it to someone that didn't deserve my energy.

I resented you for a while, I don't anymore. I'm moved on and I don't need an apology. I know why you said those things and that is enough for me

sometimes i wish i was back in your arms in your backyard. you’re not good for me. but that doesn’t make me want it any less. i miss you