Unsent messages to JACK

Thank you for making me feel my emotions are validated... maybe one day I'll actually be able to open up though

ouch. i miss you like hell. i miss us. we were the BEST of friends. you were there for me everyday. snap me soon. just missin you a lil extra right now.

you were the only guy who treated me right. i’m sorry i took you for granted. you gave me so many chances to change, and i didn’t. i’m sorry i hurt you. but we’re both happy with other people now. i’m so glad you found someone who treats you good! you deserve the world. i look for you in every guy i’m with. i miss you jacky.

fuck you and your toxic girlfriend. you are better off without her and she has turned you into a horrible person. wish i never met the two of you. xoxo.

i used to be so angry at you. i blamed you for so many things and some weren't even your fault. the thing is, you treated me poorly in the end and i let you. i even sunk to your level in many moments. for me in my life i was used to the chaos and toxicity. i thought fighting for my love was normal but it's not. i'm forgiving you for what you did because you were young and didn't know any better, but i'm also forgiving myself for not understand how love is supposed to be. i hope you can forgive us both too.

I love you so much but I will always be just a friend to you. I hope I work up the courage to tell you

Ahh I can’t really believe I’m doing this but I still think abt you we don’t talk much anymore and that hurts and sometimes I think I’m over you but ik deep down I’m not I wanna believe that you liked me back but I was too wimp to ever ask every time we’re in a room together my eyes immediately go to you.everyone thinks I moved on from you but I doubt I have i still get really happy hearing your name and seeing you. I hope we can talk like we used to again I miss you so much and I’m not sure if I really did love you but you were for sure special

sometimes i catch your scent in my house and it reminds me how sorry i am for getting too much to handle. i love you.

jvr if those are your initials this is for you. i love you jack always will thank you for showing me what I deserve. right person wrong time. i will wait for you baby

sometimes i wish i was back in your arms in your backyard. you’re not good for me. but that doesn’t make me want it any less. i miss you

i’ve been broken over you for a very long time, i think i’ve finally picked up my own pieces. i’ll always love you so much, thank you for all that you’ve given me.

you are the first person whose made the effort to understand me,
I can’t wait for our future, you have my heart.

Ive liked u and u dont even know.
Gosh I wish you were mine. I wish we could work together at church

you asked me why i’m so nice to you considering the way you treated me. my answer is that i see that you can do better than you think you can

thank u for showing me exactly what love isn’t. the happiest day of my life was when i could finally let u go.

thank you for helping me. i don’t know if i can stay tho. i’m trying my best for you but maybe if i drift away from you it’ll hurt less when i’m gone. you won’t be the boy who could’ve saved her, no one could have saved me at this point.

It’s been almost 3 years. I really thought I was over you. Sincerely. ig was just distracted. I’m so sorry.

I noticed some of your playlists are about me. I wonder if you’ve noticed most of mine are about you too.

I don’t think I was in love with your friend. I think I loved that he gave me back the nostalgic feeling of you in my life again.

In our last moments I told you that I love you bc I knew it would’ve haunted me forever if I didn’t say it. Turns out it was going to haunt me either way. I still mean it btw, even if you still don’t.

Three years I’ve liked u and never told u your the best person ever and I love I beyond words thank u for actually letting me feel something for someone even if u have never known bc Ik I can’t tell u but you mean the world to me and I’d do anything for u

Thanks for sitting with me during the super bowl party when I was sick. I was 8 at the time and I've loved you since then.

You have no idea how many times i replay the night you held me on your chest in my mind just to remind myself how happy i once was

I have literally no idea why I dated u. I'm so out of ur league. I miss ur sister and ur mom tho :)))

i’ve never felt like this about someone else. ik we really could’ve made this work, maybe one day i’ll see you again. that’s all.

I would go through all of the pain in the relationship again, just to relive our happy moments again.

I still think about you sometimes. A lot actually. Which is weird. I like to think its because you think about me too. Not sure if it's true, but its toxic and comforting. But its time to be done, please. You're the only person that's ever done this to me and idk how to handle it. I feel creepy and insane and pathetic for missing someone who most likely doesn't even think about me. Let me be. Please.

I fell in love with the way you looked at life. The way we clicked instantly and I saw you bring out the best in me. I know somewhere there is love for me back, I know that kiss didn't mean nothing, and I know one day you will realize. Until then, I'll be waiting.

I think you’re really pretty.The way you smile at me when I’m feeling down makes me feel like the only girl in the world.I love you

Why did you have to treat me like that? i will live my whole life believing i’ll never be good enough for anyone. You gave love a bad reputation.

i pray you’re just too scared to text me and you still care because it hurts feeling like i’m just there when your bored and lonely

i only blocked you because i couldn’t bear the pain of seeing you moving on. out of sight, a little more out of mind.

i’m having a hard time deciding if i wish i’d never met you and being thankful for now realising what i deserve

I wish you told me what’s going on with us instead of being told by someone else. All those I love yous for nothing.

i did care about you even though I had to end things. You treated me like shit after that and i still care for you even though ive lost all respect. i cant believe i let myself care that much even if you didnt know it. it hurts

If you looked one-sided loved up in a dictionary, I'm sure a picture of us would come up.
Why was I never good enough for you.

you saved me. i wish i could explain to you how much you mean to me, how terrified i am to lose you, and how much i really love you. i am in love with you. i'm in love with your laugh, i'm in love with the way you make me feel about myself, i'm in love with your smile and how it always makes me happy, i'm in love with it all. Please dont ever leave me.

You weren't my first love. I don't know if I'll ever know what I feel for you but thank you for always being there.

I'm sorry that I wasn't emotionally available. You were perfect. It was perfect, but I didn't love myself like you loved me. I'm sorry. I'll love you forever

I never want you to become a stranger. I want you in my life forever. I love you more than life itself.

i’m so thankful. seeing you with her broke my heart but it made me realise there’s no reason i shouldn’t have the same ability to be happy. you were just a soulmate that wasn’t meant to be. it’s time to move on now.

You were so good to me. Thank you for all the things you taught me, for your patience with me. I wouldn't have had it any other way. You'll always have a piece of my heart

Did you mean it when you said you thought you loved me in the staircase of your flat? It replays in my head so often but I don’t think I’ll ever know the answer. I always knew things would never work out between us, but I always liked to imagine what things would look like if they did. It hurt the night you told me you had stayed at your ex’s house. How long had you been speaking to her for? Were you speaking to us both at the same time? I hope I was more than just someone to sleep with to you, but I guess that is what you are known for and I’m probably just another girl on your list. Despite this, at the end of the day I hope you’re happy.

why did you come into my life for 3 years just to break my heart. I loved you but I wasn't enough I could never be enough so thank you for letting me know.

I see the night we said goodbye for the first time. We both looked back, I wonder if I hadn't would we have gotten together?

I love you so much, I know you hate me. But, that’s okay. You have someone better, I’d do the same. But, I never stop thinking about you even for a minute, you make my heart ache and my brain hurt. But most importantly, you make me feel alive, even if i’m dead to you.

you showed me colour and fun and i thought you cared but you disappeared and i had to forgive you when you came back

you could've told me you had a girlfriend all along and maybe I would've stopped myself from falling for you so deep.

I loved you so much, and I always will. It took us so long to get it going, and I'm broken it didn't last. I found out everything you lied to me about after we broke up. And it destroyed me because I can't stop thinking about the last time we spent together, where we promised in the future we'd find each other again. I never could go back, because it hurt more than anything ever has. But the worst part of it all, is despite all of that, I still love you and think about you every once in a while.

This is the colour of the t-shirt you gave me, and I hope one day you come across this.

did that night mean anything to you? there is so much i want to say. mainly that i miss you and i hope we are okay.