i hate u sm. u completed me and we got along so well. but all u did was lie to me and I resent u sm for it

hi idek if you look at this sort of stuff but I loved you, I truly did and I still do, it's been 5 years since I first fell for you and I still do every single day. I hope you're happy now with her because you both deserve it so much, she can do everything I never could. I still love you please never forget that.

I have literally no idea why I dated u. I'm so out of ur league. I miss ur sister and ur mom tho :)))

I saw you walking one time when we were both back in Boston, and I regret not saying hi. So I'm gonna say it now. Hi

You have no idea how many times i replay the night you held me on your chest in my mind just to remind myself how happy i once was

hey. it’s been a while since we last talked. i hate to say this but i miss you and i took u for granted and i’m so so sorry. i’m a fucking idiot. it was u all along. why couldn’t i have realized it sooner? i spent all this time thinking it was your fault because of her, because of your idiotic attempts of making me jealous. and because of that, i wanted u to feel the same. why couldn’t we have just came to the realization that it could have been me and you. why did we have to make “us” into a game of who could make the other more jealous. if i hadn’t played along, maybe you and i would still be together. it’s my fault. i’m sorry.

Thanks for sitting with me during the super bowl party when I was sick. I was 8 at the time and I've loved you since then.

i dont understand how you say i love you then break up with me the next week bc u fell out of love. fuck you i miss you.

your love for me made me remember why rainbows come after the rain. forever grateful for you loving me unconditionally you big dork

u were my bestest friend, you loved me since we were literal children. even though we're apart now and i found someone else, i still have no idea if i ever loved you the way u did me. did i love you cause i knew u liked me? because you were my first and practically ever guy friend at the time? i'm glad i found someone better than you with closer interests to me at this point. i hope you find yourself being happy in the future with whoever you find. i will forever be sorry for the way i ended things, it was the bitchiest thing i've ever done but i was too confused and annoyed to care. you look at me in a way, i have no idea if you wish to talk to me, still like me, or greatly dispise me. I'd talk to you if you wanted to but i could'nt approach u even if i wanted to, i have no idea how to start things. would i be mad if you found someone else? i dont really know, and i hope not. the way we knew eachother for so long, the way people always wanted us together, these make me think we are supposed to be together, but our interests and cares say other wise. i hope you matured over these 2 almsot 3 years

you hurt me so beautifully that all i want is for you to do it again and again and again, until we both can’t do it anymore.

we r dumb.we should have told each other what we feel so we wouldn't have gotten to this point. hope u miss me too
J.

i think of you every night, you make me feel special, and sometimes you just make me feel free like it’s so hard to not talk to you because i love you.

i've think I've always kinda had a thing for u. It never rlly crossed my mind until school started this year. Idk how but u've grown more than i expected. sooo I'm down to be something more if u are :)

I’m not really sure why I still think about you. You broke me in so many different ways. I can’t help but remember the amazing moments we had but they quickly become tainted by how fast you were able to forget it all. I really liked you, Jack. I think we both know this can never happen again, but somewhere deep down in me still wishes the impossible.

hey, missing you. i wonder where you are right now and if you have changed. Do u still like skylanders and plants vs zombies bc thats what i remember you by. Maybe i still have feelings for you a little lmaoo but in any case i hope youre doing good wherever you are. Love from year 1

The fact that I had to convince myself that everything I felt about you was fake- crazy man. First loves suck.

i once told you that if my love is too much, you could tell me. soon after, you felt suffocated, and you left me, and i still miss you so much.

God if I could just tell you how I feel but I'm scared it will ruin our friendship. Even if I did tell you and everything went well what if we fell out? It would be so awkward and again would ruin our friendship. I guess you'll never know because there is too much at stake, too much I'm not ready to give up. At least not ready to give up just yet.

So what's the deal? You keep starting at me all the time. You gave me half a smile. We know each other?

i wish we still we together. i was so stupid for breaking up with you. everytime i see you, i just think of what we could’ve been

lol you entered my life during the pandemic and left... during the pandemic- i wonder if you still think about me ?¿

thank you for the memories, thank you for making me feel for the first time in 3 months, i love you to this day, i miss you

Thanks for bagging our food at the grocery store today. It gave me terrible butterflies, so I will probably avoid the grocery store for a while...

Three years I’ve liked u and never told u your the best person ever and I love I beyond words thank u for actually letting me feel something for someone even if u have never known bc Ik I can’t tell u but you mean the world to me and I’d do anything for u

You broke me in ways I didn't even know I could be broken. You fucked with my feelings and lead me on just because you could. I was happy before you. Truly, fuck you

i wish you would just talk to me sometimes, and then i wouldn’t be so sad :( i just want the old you back. your not my jack.

You know I always loved you and always will. No matter who I end up with or who you end up with. I love you forever. Love your babe.

I understand now that you don't want me so I'll stop. I'll stop trying. It's fine, i'm use to everyone not wanting me so it's ok. Your just one more person I can add to that list.

Something you don’t know is that I truly loved you. But I love myself more and what we went through was killing me. I will still forever wonder what we could have been if things didn’t go so wrong. Disappointed about this wasted potential. Wish things were different between us.

oh, hunny bunny. usually when i'm this down i'd run into your arms, but you have let me go. i'm sure you're happy with your new gf, but i am feeling a pain like no other. i love you forever and always

why did we drift apart from each other, every day we use to text and facetime each other and now we don't talk anymore and we use to be best friends but now it feels like we are total strangers and I don't want that, but all things must come to an end and I hope you are doing well and I miss you

I didn’t realise you were first love... I thought you were another classic fancy but then when I was over you I still thought about you

You taught me to love myself first but you took with you all of what I was. I am nothing without you.

I still have custom notifications enabled to your text messages. How I wish to hear that sound again.

You’re my first love I mean how could I not fall for you god you’re just oh I don’t know how to explain it but I adore you so much gosh it’s so frustrating you don’t love or even like me back I wish I could say this to you now but I couldn’t do that I mean the complete deviation of the situation is just awful I mean how could I be such a stupid stupid girl to fall for you its just tragic to be honest but it’s okay I’ll find someone I hope at least and maybe I’ll love them as much as I love you well I hope to god I do or well I’m in deep shit I guess but anyway if you have by some miracle read this have a nice day or night I guess

you were the right person. just the wrong time. idk if our paths will ever cross again, but i hope youre happy.

I wish I hugged you one more time. I wish we still kept in touch. I know deep down we felt the same. I hope some day we reunite

thank you for showing me what love really is but fuck you for also showing me how easy it is for someone to lie about their feelings towards you.

i miss you so much that it consumes me. i don’t know where i fucked up but i love you so much. i hope one day we work out again and it’s okay if we don’t. i know you’re with her and it doesn’t matter what i do you’ll always stay with her. just breaks my heart but it’s okay you got to fake it till you make it Lol.

I know you hate me now and are doing just fine but the truth is I can't live without you and I need you

I’m with you right now. You just fell asleep after listening to me tell you why I love you so much. I love you. See you in the morning

We were so young when we first were together. We had a love so innocent and so pure. To tell you the truth it was a love that I’ve never had since I was with you. It’s been four years and I still crave what I’ve never had that you were only able to give me.

a part of me will always love you because you were my first love. you have a piece of my heart, and a piece of you exists within me.

hey so you know I like you, we've established that. and I know you don't like me back or at least you do but can't date me for some mysterious reason. I just like you so much and I don't even know why. actually yes I do, its cause your funny, lowkey smart (when you want to be), kinda cute, overall just really great. I don't know how many more times I can tell you that. how much my heart races every time I text you something risky or flirty but thankfully your reactions are the best. either 'aww' or something flirty back which I secretly love. But also, I don't think you know how much it hurts me whenever you make interactions with other girls. not all girls! just the ones that are better than me in so many ways like Cadey, Alyssa, Lola and even Paulina. I shouldn't feel like this and I defiantly can't control you but it just...hurts. We have these nice conversations at night but thats all I ever get. I feel constantly compared to Alyssa and i'm just not sure whats so special about her. i'm also annoyed at you, kind of, well your a boy and don't really get these things but your treating me kinda badly; getting along with me one minute then telling me to 'fuck off' the next, Its confusing and hurtful. also the flirting with other girls right in front of my face just to get some sort of reaction out of me? like dude no, that shit hurts. but what hurts even more is when it's my 'friends' and they do it back, claiming it's just 'jokes' but that doesn't matter, still sucks to see. I just end up laughing it off on the outside but crying on the inside or just looking away pretending that its not happening because ' I can't have a reaction ' but someone always notices and try to talk to me. no good though. now I know this isn't really healthy and I should focus on loosing feelings but I can't. i've never felt this attached to someone of the opposite gender. everyone calls me crazy for liking you (actually they call me lanky) but it doesn't phase me. honestly I hope I loose my v-card to you, I don't trust anyone else. well not anyone else yet. bit random I know but I might as well say it cause your never gonna read this and I will never admit this out loud. and now what I came here to truly admit to you and myself... I love you Jack and I wanna be yours.

In our last moments I told you that I love you bc I knew it would’ve haunted me forever if I didn’t say it. Turns out it was going to haunt me either way. I still mean it btw, even if you still don’t.

it’s not that i’m not in love with you, it’s that i can’t be with you. i’m attached but i can’t have you. you can’t have anyone else. we are forever linked but never together...

I don’t think I was in love with your friend. I think I loved that he gave me back the nostalgic feeling of you in my life again.

I noticed some of your playlists are about me. I wonder if you’ve noticed most of mine are about you too.

It’s been almost 3 years. I really thought I was over you. Sincerely. ig was just distracted. I’m so sorry.