I miss your hands, the way you held my bare waist with them. I miss sleeping next to you, your deep, loud breaths never seemed to cease.

I love you,

S

They day you broke my heart was the hardest, but i'm happy you did because if not, I wouldn't have found my one.

you probably don't think of me anymore, but a part of me still hopes we'll reconnect in the future. i know we won't work together, but i miss you as a friend. you could always make me laugh. i just want one more conversation with you.

you probably don't think of me anymore, but a part of me still hopes we'll reconnect in the future. i know we won't work together, but i miss you as a friend. you could always make me laugh. i just want one more conversation with you.

ps. i still listen to that pink floyd song

You suck, kinda. u put on this nice guy persona but in all honesty, ur not that nice and u suck. why was i ever w u? stupid

Thank you for the worst relationship of my life. I have learned a lot from you and now know what my worth is.

What in the world did I do to deserve this pain in my heart. Guess it's true, I'm never getting over you.

One day you will see why I couldn’t stay with you for longer than I did, ur a mess and I still loved you. It’s for the best

One day you will see why I couldn’t stay with you for longer than I did, ur a mess and I still loved you. It’s for the best

You never paid enough attention to me, so I held on tighter. Little did I know, my tight grip was what left me hanging.

I miss you, and I hate the fact that I miss you because I’m so much better than you. Yet you still have a new girl.

You really hurt me, broke me into pieces. Somedays it still hurts, but we're on two different paths now. Goodbye.

im sorry for what i did to you. im sorry that i had to say goodbye when you needed me the most. it all became to much.
i lost myself whilst trying to find you. i wish i could have done more. im sorry and i hope you forgive me.

glad i left before you broke me. how would you feel if you found out i actually loved you? did you ever really love me?

i knew i deserved better when i was sitting in my own tears begging you to stop the hurt when you were the one causing it.

You've been the only person I can see in my future and I don't want it that way because I know damn well you don't feel the same.

i wish i could look you in the eyes and tell you everything i’ve ever thought. all the nights you made me cry and you had no idea. all the stupid fights we got in. all the days i cried in our schools bathroom because of you. it makes me want to throw up. and worse then that. i still love you.

thank you for showing me i deserve better. thank you for leaving. it was hard at first i won’t lie, but in the end i am happier. i have found happiness within myself and i’ve realized that being with you didn’t make me happy, it made me distracted from my sadness.

i was so happy with you. we weren’t dating but you were the person to give me a smile and keep me going, i want you back

Hey...How are you? I know that you aren't thinking of me and I know that you'll never see this but I can't stop thinking about you. I know I acted like I didn't care but the truth is I cared Ben, I cared a lot. Every little thing about you, like the way you said my name(i know it's cheesy) and the way you looked at me. I noticed but I know that you never did. I cared a lot more than I let on. Now that I care I'll never stop caring, that's my problem. I know you stopped a long time ago but I'll never stop. I just need you to know that. I don't care if its tomorrow or ten years from now. I'll always care and I'll always be there for you. To you I may just be a girl that you proposed to like three times freshmen year because you were young and dumb but to me you are the one.

You confuse me. All the time. When you stare at me, I never know what it means. But I know what I want it to mean.

You make me feel all emotions. when we use to talk. But you looked at me today and you have no idea how much that meant to me. Can we be friends? or maybe something more. I'm fine with either but I just want to talk to you, and hang out.

I love you. I forever will. I know it seems like i moved on but i never will. Forever and always ben.

ben i love you so so much i couldn’t imagine life where we aren’t together but now we aren’t and i’m so sorry we didn’t work i know we can work again we just need to give it time

I'm sry for that one time I told people about what you sent me. But we're even because ik you prob told your friends about what I sent you.

I have never felt that way about anyone else before. You changed my life for the worse and for the better. Now I can't love or trust anyone the same anymore.

You hurt me in ways I can’t explain and I’m dumb for even believing u after all those times. What happen to forever ? Just another lie ?

You will always be my first and as much as I want them to, my feelings for you will not leave. I still hope one day we can find our way back to each other.

I still think about you sometimes. Wish we didn’t leave off the way we did. I hope you’re doing well and that you’re happy.

You used to ask, all the time if I was interested— I was but I was so scared you’d hurt me, you were scary

you broke me. wasted my time. led me on and yet i still can’t seem to let you go and i still tolerate this shit

Ever since you left my world has become a lot colder, and much lonelier. I miss you more every day bud, love you.

Ever since you left my world has become a lot colder, and much lonelier. I miss you more every day bud, love you.

hey ben, it’s melissa, this makes me look a bit pathetic but i miss you and hope you’re doing alright, stay safe and remember that i will never forget you.

Hey...again...
I guess writing down your feelings really helps. So here's me reminiscing about the good times which was literally everyday with you. You have a way of washing away all my doubts. I know we are different. I have goals, you don't, at least I don't think you do. I hide my feelings, but I guess in a way you do too. Your optimistic, I'm pessimistic. I don't know if its all in my head but we just don't fit together on paper. It's really like those rom coms where the two that should not be together end up together. Just like you and me. Despite all the stuff my friends said about us. I always had a gut feeling. I mean we're both pretty messed up so I think that's why we fit together. I don't what we are or were but I do know that there was something. So here's me writing to you all the things I should have said all those days ago. Ugh hopeless romantic much. I guess we do have something in common. I know you'll never understand why I never let you in. I don't understand either. I guess I don't really know either. I'm just someone with a lot of walls up. Like A LOT. Maybe I like it like that, everyone assumes that since I'm happy I have a great life. I like it like that. I got so used to lying. Then you came along and I wanted to just be myself like I would be with my closest friends. But then my brain knew that I had to keep you away. I couldn't let you in. So I put up a lot walls. No matter how much I wanted to give in, I just couldn't. You are too important to me and I knew that if I let you in and lost you I couldn't handle it. I just don't understand it. I want to be with you but I'm scared. Whenever we got close I pushed you away. At the time it felt like you pushed away first. Now I know that that's not true. So here's me letting you in and telling you everything I wished I had back then. Here's day two of me telling you that I need you.

i know we're still together and i don't think you have any intention of leaving but please don't. i love you.

its selfish of me to say this but i wish you didn’t like multiple people at the same time. i wish i didnt have a crush on you. but you’re my favorite person. i cant leave you because i’ll only end up hurting myself.

i miss u. i wish u didn’t leave me i really wanted to work things out. u will always be my beautiful boy. i miss ur froggie kisses. i love u

there’s so many things i want to say to you but even if i was confident enough to try, i wouldn’t know what to say. you’re all i think about all the time and i wish you would open your eyes and realise. i want you to understand. i want to not have to say anything and for you to just know exactly how i feel about you and everything. man, i’d give everything up for you.

there’s so many things i want to say to you but even if i was confident enough to try, i wouldn’t know what to say. you’re all i think about all the time and i wish you would open your eyes and realise. i want you to understand. i want to not have to say anything and for you to just know exactly how i feel about you and everything. man, i’d give everything up for you.

Ben
I liked you a lot, but you decided to not feel the same way, I understand. You’re a true work of perfection. ?

My feelings never left, even when you did. It’s been you since daycare. i don’t want anyone else. I in love with you.

sometimes i feel like my own bed is suffocating me. i feel trapped inside my own body. 7 years is too long

i’m sorry for letting us get to this point. i think about you so often. i don’t want to let you go. i love you

you are SO SWAG and ALSO MY SHAWTY (sorry maddie im a player what can i say) thank youfor the frog pics

i’m sorry for letting us get to this point. i think about you so often. i don’t want to let you go. i love you

hey ben-
you don't know me, but I wish you did. I cant get you out of my head, I'm in love with you. I just wish you wouldn't look right through me..

I relied far too much on you for my own sanity and I allowed you to have too much power over my self concept. Now I will never let anyone treat me with less respect than I deserve and I will know my worth moving forward.

Hey. So you were in my dream last night but don't get too flattered everyone I know makes their way into my dreams eventually but I mean you gave me a promise ring so I mean.....Anyway. I need to say something....
WHY THE HELL DID YOU FEEL THE NEED TO TELL ME THAT YOU CARED ABOUT ME AND THEN TO PICK ME UP IN THE MIDDLE OF HALLWAY IN FRONT OF A BUNCH OF PEOPLE LIKE WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU. WERE YOU LIKE YEAH I CARE ABOUT HER SO I'M GONNA DO SOMETHING THAT IS GONNA BE REALLY CUTE BUT THAT REALLY ONLY WORKS IN MOVIES BECAUSE SHOCKER THOSE PEOPLE ACTAULLY END UP TOGETHER. You and I really don't mix, you told me that we'd be together forever. Welp look at us now. And we weren't even together then. Look I know you'll never see this but if you do. Can you tell me how you feel about me because that would be GREAT. So anyway we're both doing online school and I swear it's gotten to the point where I have to take a picture of your name and send it to Angie(since you like calling her that). Ughhh see what I mean by hopeless romantic. You definitely rubbed off on me. I wish I could do the same. I wish I could go back and tell that I didn't have a problem with you smoking weed because it's not my life, I wish I had told you that it was okay to talk to me because I will listen. I wish I had just said that it's not good for you but you know that. I can say this. Don't change for anyone not even me and don't quit for anyone not even Madi, it's your life and it's only gonna work if you decide to do it. I would've understood either way. So here's day four of me telling you that I regret how it ended.

we sat beside eachother in class. i wished that i could’ve gotten to know u better before it all ended