you had been my first real crush that i saw myself dating, and i appreciate you being kind and sweet through all of my awkwardness. i understand why you didn't like me back, i understand that now.

i dont love you, but you made me feel something after not feeling anything for so long, its sad because you dont even feel the same way.

I've wanted you for a whole year. Please give me another chance. I know that we could have so much fun together.

we've been besties since 6th grade, but I love u even tho we probable won't ever happen, but I always thought it'd be you and me ya dig?

I still like u. I probably love u I guess, but ur also the only person I don't wanna loose in this world and u make me feel like I matter. but I just kinda thought that we would end up together just like the movies, and I still hope so, but who knows? i don't even know why u do this to me, it's like u have some sorta spell on me or something because I always come back to you.

im over you, but i still wish i could get closure. i didnt deserve the way you ended things. hope you have fun with your best friend.

You're the biggest misogynistic fuck I've ever met in my life. I hope another woman doesn't put up with it like I did.

i know you just want me for my body but you make me feel something even and i haven't felt anything in so long

i hope you don't see this but if you do... hi i know i don't speak to u but heyyy :) i'm nice when i get to know people.. we can be friends i don't bite i promise

you are the reason I can no longer listen to some of my favourite songs, because they remind me that I still love you

I love you frr. It’s not always easy loving you... you’ve made a lot of mistakes but I can’t help but love you. Chose red cuz it’s ur fav color too lol :)

we always come back to each other. and im so glad because my life is better with you in it and i cant imagine life without you

thank you for making me so happy and taking me away from my reality of a broken home. thank you for being there for me when i was crying. thank you for always coming to my house cause i couldn't leave mine. thank you for leaving me on valentine's day for ur homies. thank you for punching a hole in a wall cause ur friend bullied me. thank you for still being friends w him. thank you for leaving me cause you weren't committed after our 6 months. thanks so much for wasting my time.

Thank you for everything. You taught me how to be myself while with someone else. I still think about how it didn't workout

we’re only young but i feel so special with you already, your the first boy that’s ever called me beautiful. you rlly helped me that night and i just can’t get my mind off it. i wasn’t meaning to fall for you but i have.

we’re only young but i feel so special with you already, your the first boy that’s ever called me beautiful. you rlly helped me that night and i just can’t get my mind off it. i wasn’t meaning to fall for you but i have.

i miss you, the way u spoke to me and the way you made me feel, i just hate the fact that you always knew it was going to be her but still made me believe that you wanted me and i was the only one, i hate that you admitted to me that you never saw me as more than one of your ‘hoes’ and that you used me for validation all along, why couldnt you just tell me i wasn’t as important as you made me out to be

Why did it feel not ready when I was with you? I think I still am not ready to face reality. You made me and still make me feel green, not because you make me sick, but its because you remind me of my first chance I took and didn't work out and Im so sorry ben.

you made me feel so bright and warm that it took me until you were no longer there to realize just how much you broke me

You, were my first love. That I have learned. In five years time, I won’t forget your name and face, the eye contact we would share sometimes in English, the teasing, the banter, our weird conversations. Just you in general.

But you won’t remember me vividly like I do to you.

At best, I would be a foggy memory. A blur of some sort. Just someone who was a good friend that turned into a stranger.

I know that I have lost you for good, and I am truly sorry for ruining our friendship. For thinking you could like me, like I do dearly to you.

i love you more than you'll ever be able to know. thanks for dealing with my crazy. you're my everything. thank you

I have never loved anyone like I love you. You are the best thing to ever happen to me, I am the luckiest girl alive. I hope that this lasts forever.

it hurts to know that if we end you’ll be the one walking away completely fine and i’ll lose myself trying to pick myself up

That one was about you, I didn't know you could search on here, so thats how you found it. Im not pretty, Im always 2nd best. I don't have the confidence. Im never good, don't say I am. I will never be ready to date or open up feelings towards anyone. I hate how my dog died and you didn't take it serious. Ben where were you when I moved? My childhood home. That broke me. It still breaks me. I write countless poems in my notes about what the fuck happened in those past 2 weeks. I was so sad grade 8. Grade 9 was happy and so was 10. NOW. IM NOT OK AND YOU NEVER UNDERSTOOD THAT. You can call me the bad guy all you want. You feel the same way just like how Will feels towards Avery? Ive been thinking about that. I hate myself even more of it. This is such a mean message, I like doing this here tho. I'll write so many about you just not under Ben. Please forget me Im a lost cause. I also liked how my colour was yellow I love Coldplay. You will forget about me someday, we will both leave high school and live different lives. I'll miss you in some ways.

Hey pixel, if you’re reading this it’s definitely for you because you can tell cause I wrote pixel, I could never tell you this myself that I like you but I don’t know if you feel the same way, I don’t know how to feel at all, I hope if you ever come on this website you’ll see this and assume it’s me but I know that’ll never happen but I want to play more Minecraft and watch anime with you more than ever! I don’t know if you’re actually gay but if you are I support you:) but I want you to know that I appreciate talking to you and especially when you say goodnight in your own way, live a happy life please

You’re my biggest regret. The only reason you still come across my mind is because you ruined the most important thing for me. I don’t think of you, I think of the damage you made. But, fuck you because I took back it all and rebuilt every single thing you crushed.

fuck you. fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you i gave you everything and you just cheated and hit me and i put up with it for a year fuck you fuck you fuck you

yk i would go back to u at anytime or any moment, what we had was special n u fucked it up n lost me so fuck u bitch

i miss you more everyday,u say love isnt real then what is it that i feel for you? u still make me feel butterflies yet ur gone

Where do I even start? Our entire relationship was like a rom com. A roller coaster. For once, I'm glad that this happened. Looking back all the relationships I had and ended, you are one that I will never regret. You taught me so much, and every single moment with you, I felt happier. Even though I want that feeling to last for a lifetime. I also want you to be happy. I miss you and I miss us. Whatever we are. If you want me, I want you to, but if you don't, then ok, I'm really happy for you. I have all of our memories that I'll remember forever. From when I first met you to when you said that you cared about me to when we just didn't talk to when you told me you loved me to proposing to me to picking me up in the hallway to saying that you'll be with me forever to asking me out to not seeing each other for seven months. Every moment that I spent with you, I will remember. I wish I had told you how much you meant to me when I was with you. If our story is as good as any other rom com, I know we'll end up together and there will be a huge dramatic reunion or whatever. But at the end of the day, I can only hope. Hope that you miss me as much as I miss you. I know I never said this to you, even though I knew it at the time. So here it goes....I love you....I hate you because I love you so much...I don't care what my friends or what anyone else thinks...I just know that I really do...I love you

Where do I even start? Our entire relationship was like a rom com. A roller coaster. For once, I'm glad that this happened. Looking back all the relationships I had and ended, you are one that I will never regret. You taught me so much, and every single moment with you, I felt happier. Even though I want that feeling to last for a lifetime. I also want you to be happy. I miss you and I miss us. Whatever we are. If you want me, I want you to, but if you don't, then ok, I'm really happy for you. I have all of our memories that I'll remember forever. From when I first met you to when you said that you cared about me to when we just didn't talk to when you told me you loved me to proposing to me to picking me up in the hallway to saying that you'll be with me forever to asking me out to not seeing each other for seven months. Every moment that I spent with you, I will remember. I wish I had told you how much you meant to me when I was with you. If our story is as good as any other rom com, I know we'll end up together and there will be a huge dramatic reunion or whatever. But at the end of the day, I can only hope. Hope that you miss me as much as I miss you. I know I never said this to you, even though I knew it at the time. So here it goes....I love you....I hate you because I love you so much...I don't care what my friends or what anyone else thinks...I just know that I really do...I love you

I think I liked you, but it could have just been you were the first boy to show me kindness. Either way, take care lol

i don’t think i’ll ever stop loving you. i can’t even listen to music without thinking of you. i miss you. i miss us.

Is it true you don’t remember? I don’t think I even cried the first time, but it’s not like you didn’t notice.
Did you do it to the other girls?

I wish you knew how much I cared about you. I would've gone the whole mile for you, but I doubted everything. We never really spoke to each other, but for some reason we said I love you. I think it was love, or else I wouldn't bother with an idiot like you.

I've decided to forgive you. Not because you acknowledged what you did to me. but because i deserve peace

i still think about you all the time. though unrealistic in nature, you were my first love and i don't think i can or ever will forget you. i wish you all the best and hope you're doing well.

idk y i still hv a crush on u after all this time but like FUCK i stg i get so awks around u even tho we literally never talk lmfao n i am trying my hardest to get over u but its not working and u dont even know i like u lolz so if ur seeing this have fun trying to figure out who i am :)

your desires
clash with mine
our hands
intertwine
if only you hadn’t left me
only then,
all the wrongs
all the reds
that i wish you hadn’t said
would still remind me of flowers

I don’t really know what love is or how it feels. But you make me feel and act some type of way that makes me wonder if it is.

If you just got yourself better we could’ve been forever. I grew up too fast because of you. Why want I enough to be better for?

I know we haven't talked. I know that I have moved on. But I miss when you constantly go on about how tired you are because you think it is reversible by saying it so often. I miss just having your company. I miss the friend that you were when I was in an awful place, that bluntness is what I needed to gain strength and respect for myself. So, thank you Ben.

I’m really glad you’re always there to listen and be listened to, i hope things start going better for you soon and i’m sorry for ever upsetting you myself, you mean so much

You made me feel something I had never felt before. I know they say every love feels different but I liked the one with you the best. I wish I had communicated with you and told you what was on my mind before everything came crashing down. I still love you and would try again in a heartbeat. I got so lucky with you. It hurts that we don’t speak anymore but I will reconnect with you one day. I miss the memories and the way you made me feel; the way your lips felt on mine or the way I fit perfectly in your embrace when we laid in your bed. You taught me what true love felt like and I am scared I will never have that again. You are intelligent, caring and just mind blowing. You were my breath of fresh air and the reason why I fell asleep with a smile on my face everyday. I hope you still have the letter I write you for your birthday and remember what we had and how much we loved each other. Or get reminded of me when you see the NYC snow globe or Luke Skywalker bobble head figure sitting on your desk, because I get reminded of you everytime I look Sully or Nemo. I wish you nothing but happiness and success. You are the best thing that ever happened to me.

If I had told you about my disorder, would you still have loved me, or would you just be afraid of me?

i just want to thank you for everything, i loved watching you grow throughout our relationship and seeing your frown slowly turn into a smile, you taught me how to love and i wont ever be able to thank you enough, i know im not perfect and never will be i mean no ones perfect, but at least i know my worth. You helped me find confidence with in myself which leaded me into being a better person, i miss you a lot i still think about you all the time but i feel stupid cause you dont even care about me, ig thats life. Anyways i really enjoyed every moment i spent with you and hope we can be friends one day in the future :)

When it came to you, I never knew where I was going but that didn’t stop me from following...now I’ll be lost if I lose you

You saved me just when I was about to give up and you will never know how much I love you and it's sad :(

I have no words. I have no words for how you made me feel. I've gone through a million scenarios where I said so much shit to you. I hate how much I care about you. I hate how much I want you. I hate how it bothers me that you smoke weed. I hate it all. Yet through all that hate, I just have one thing to say to you. I love you...

I wish you the best even though you probably don't even think about me anymore. I wish you didn't make me feel like it was all one sided. Why are you afraid to show you care?