being with you was the happiest time of my life, playing minecraft and just laughing having fun. i miss it. i miss your smile and your sense of humor. where did it go. i've got nobody to turn to anymore. you've changed. why did you have to leave me. go have fun with her.

espero que esa persona te de lo que yo no pude darte... que no te deje los traumas que yo te deje, que no te lastime, que la pases mejor que
conmigo, te deseo lo mejor, y que sepas que contas conmigo siempre. te perdono todo, y acepto que estuve mal muchas veces. odio admitirlo, pero te sigo queriendo, aunque ya no te busque, te quiero y me pareces una persona hermosa, nunca cambies por favor.
att: z

i tried my best to not fall in love but the universe wanted us to:) but i guess it didnt want us to stay together.

It took me a year to figure out you still loved her. I’m sorry I let myself believe I could replace her, I broke my own heart.

it’s been years and all i can think of is how badly i wish we could go back to our old ways. i miss you but hate you so much.

hi i miss u,
it’d be pretty cool if u just texted me hello, maybe we could get back together. (p.s. i still love you, a lot)

U gave me a reason to be alive dude. U showed me how to escape the dark hole. U helped me get out of it and just punched me deeper in my fucked up thoughts. I still miss u sometimes because u made me feel something good.

you taught me what it felt like to be loved and appreciated. thank you for that. just waiting for the day to feel it again.

I have no hard feelings anymore even though you made me feel awful sometimes. I've moved on and I'm glad, also I like girls now.

omg how was i so stupid to trust you. i don’t really get because you were never good for me and never will be but ofc i’d still want you. pls don’t come back i can’t i wish you hadn’t the last thing i needed was to go through something like this again.

your love was the greatest gift i had but also the worst thing that ever happened to me, i don’t even know how to feel anymore

I have a lot of regrets two of them being the day I realised you were flirting with me and the moment I started flirting back

we really used to talk so much. we would facetime every night, designate times to plan our future together, talk about our feelings, but now we dont talk that much anymore. i thought you would be my forever but now it seems like you’re just a memory. we dont talk like we used to and its killing me, it seems we used to be so alike and now we’re polar opposites. i hate change, as you know. i wish things were different. i wish we didnt have to like other people because although i don’t think i really have a crush on you anymore, i do still love you and it really makes me hate her. but i want you to be happy and i don’t want to burden you. i’m trying not to hate her, i really am. i don’t overthink anything unless it’s about you. i just want to go back to summer 2020; falling asleep on facetime, pulling unintentional all nighters, reminding each other to put out our moon water....

but maybe i am just overthinking it. maybe we just aren’t talking as much because of school, or maybe it’s because we’re both feeling a bit depressed- i know i am, and to be honest, i’ve felt it from you too. or maybe you’re doing the best you’ve ever been and decided you don’t want me in your life anymore. i don’t know.
love u tho

i wish i could have captured the happiness you made me feel like a painting, or a photo. i could look at it and remember. maybe feel it again one last time. you didn’t see me as me you saw me as a body. Not a beautiful body. Just a body. An object you didn’t love me. Your eyes didn’t light up the way mine did when you saw me I was too blind to see it then but I have finally opened my eyes i now realize it more and more everyday. Why couldn’t I have seen it then. Why was I so blind. I could have saved myself from this hurt. This fatal love that I felt for you. It was so toxic and degrading because all I wanted in this world was you. Why couldn’t you have given me that satisfaction. I crave everything about you so deeply rregardless of how toxic you are, even if you did only want to use me. I remember the beginning it was so pure and innocent we were in love we connected . Your eyes sparkled when I looked into them. That sparkle disappeared, maybe the whole time I was just mistaking the glare from the sun to be it. But I felt like I had it all with you. But I know I didn’t I cried nightly wondering why I could never be enough for you. As hard as it is I have come to realize it is not me who is not enough. Because no matter what I looked like, dressed like, and acted like. It would still never be enough for you. No one will ever be. You are not ready for love. You do not deserve my love or anyone else’s. You don’t want a partner for life. You fake the passion for the sex that comes with the romance. I thought you were different from the beginning. But you see we are all deceived in the end.
- This is goodbye, Until we meet again in another life.
Forever and Always

i wish i could have captured the happiness you made me feel like a painting, or a photo. i could look at it and remember. maybe feel it again one last time. you didn’t see me as me you saw me as a body. Not a beautiful body. Just a body. An object you didn’t love me. Your eyes didn’t light up the way mine did when you saw me I was too blind to see it then but I have finally opened my eyes i now realize it more and more everyday. Why couldn’t I have seen it then. Why was I so blind. I could have saved myself from this hurt. This fatal love that I felt for you. It was so toxic and degrading because all I wanted in this world was you. Why couldn’t you have given me that satisfaction. I crave everything about you so deeply rregardless of how toxic you are, even if you did only want to use me. I remember the beginning it was so pure and innocent we were in love we connected . Your eyes sparkled when I looked into them. That sparkle disappeared, maybe the whole time I was just mistaking the glare from the sun to be it. But I felt like I had it all with you. But I know I didn’t I cried nightly wondering why I could never be enough for you. As hard as it is I have come to realize it is not me who is not enough. Because no matter what I looked like, dressed like, and acted like. It would still never be enough for you. No one will ever be. You are not ready for love. You do not deserve my love or anyone else’s. You don’t want a partner for life. You fake the passion for the sex that comes with the romance. I thought you were different from the beginning. But you see we are all deceived in the end.

- This is goodbye, Until we meet again my love.

It’s been a year and a half now. By March it will be two years. I still care about you...do you still care too?

I wish I believed them when they said that a heartbreak hurts more than any cut, bruise or wound ever would.

I miss untying my shoes on our back stairs. And the way you would always laugh and tell me not to call you “angel baby”. I miss you. I wish you would unblock me. I just want to hear your voice, not your voicemail.

Why did you bring me flowers when we had already died?
I wish I could go back. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye forever. I forgot about forever. We used to joke about that. Now it’s real.

i don’t think i would be here writing this if it wasn’t for you, but you probably will never know that. thank you, truly

I wouldve done anything to prove to you that love can be found in someone other than them but you were too blind and i was too far to hold you

I daydream about watching you study, making cups of tea, your hands in the garden, and the way you look in the soft moonlight. I dream about what it might be like to build a home with you, to raise a tiny family together, watching each other grow through endless seasons and it hits me: I have always known that I love you.

You are not a good friend. You treat people like shit and wonder why people don't want to be around you.

I dont sleep at night. ur 900 miles away and your body is killing you. I want to be there with you until you can't be here with me.

another day without you. even though this is my second day without you fully your name seems to haunt my head. i’m sorry L got to us, but what could i do. he’s one of my best friends. i’ll still live on knowing you took a piece of me when you left with the subtle “fuck you”.

Your fucking stupid this is a message to myself every time, the more you try the more you fail LET GO all your doing is slowly destroying yourself, you won’t be happy if you keep going back, you won’t be happy if you keep living for other people it’s never been you. It will never be you, so go out and be happy for yourself.

i rlly wish i could hate u. u gave me so many fucking issues. i still miss u, and im better and healthier now, but i dont fucking know why i still miss u, and just sometimes i miss all of the issues too.

Its going to be so hard to forget you and to stop loving you, you make it too hard. Why did you leave me.

you’re my best friend. you have a girlfriend. i feel so guilty but i can’t control who i love and i’m in love with you. i don’t know if i should ghost you or just pretend my feelings don’t exist. which makes me worse?

i'm in love w u. u have a gf. i don’t know if i should ghost u or just pretend my feelings don’t exist. which makes me worse?

We don’t even talk anymore but I still wear the ring you gave me and sleep with your shirt. Letting go is killing me;

It hurts me so much trying to love myself now that you completely destroyed me. I wish you knew you gaslighted me. I wish you could feel guilty. But if i tell you i will be become the same as you

I lay awake at night knowing that I will never be able to fall in love with someone the same as I loved you

You're the reason, love doesn't appeal to me anymore. It sucks because you don't even know it. I was a fool - an idiot, that was cursed with the disease of an unrequited love. it hurts.

Unsent is torturous yet I still continue to check just incase I see a message from you. It’s never you tho, who are these people that are so goddamn in love.

wish you the best, i know that youre stressed out. but yk in small towns, what goes around comes back around.

why do i still think about u after a year? i hate the person i am with you, and i hate how u treated me. still loving u while u dont hurts, but loving you while not trusting u hurts more.

I saw you going into work. it made me sick, I don't even recognize you anymore. I miss who you used to be so bad, I loved you so much. we were so bad for each other. there will always be a hole in my heart from the old you. I miss him.

i didn’t think i’d get to experience my first love this way... sweet but too short-lived.

with love, a

I just wanna know why u stopped caring for me. I have to remind myself that ur with someone else now every time I think of u.

hiii, shuta ka sabi mo may patutunguhan tayo kaya pinilit mo akong magstay. pero parang wala naman eh? ayoko kitang saktan kaso hindi na ata worth it. bye

i wish you told me you liked me because i told you, i'd always love you back. now its you and her, instead of us and i am jealous.

i heard rock+roll the other day and started crying. i was in love with you. i AM in love with you. i miss u.

i miss your smell i miss your laugh i miss your embrace i miss every molecule that comes with you i miss you B

The most bittersweet thing that ever happened to me was getting to fall in love with my best friend because whilst I was madly in love with you, I had to watch you love another person and pretend like I didn’t care...

you are the best thing that’s happened to me. thank you for making me so happy, even though i haven’t been for months.

For you i’d do anything but you don’t understand that. the less you put in effort the more i fall out of love.

Yo trate de ser lo mejor para ti, trate de dar lo mejor de mi, incluso sintiéndome tan triste cada día, tan cansada, lo intente muy fuerte, pero entendí que estando así yo no podía ser lo mejor para ti, por eso deje que te fueras tan facilmente, no podia ni luchar por mi, mucho menos por ti, dejarte ir fue el ultimo acto de amor de mi persona hacia ti. Te amo. xoxo

Y sin embargo aun te extraño, ojala nada de eso hubiera pasado, ojala siguieras a mi lado, ojala siguieras amándome, ojala siguieras peleando por nosotros, ojala no hubieras renunciado a nosotros, ojala me hubieras elegido, ojala no me hubieras mentido, ojala...ojala volvieras a mi. Te amo.

you asked if i was just waiting for “the person who feels right”. you were the only person who had ever “felt right”, i just didn’t have the heart to tell you.