Well you were my first ever love, the person who i envyd to be with my rest of life, the one who actually was there for me when nobody was there, you were my giraffe and i was your'e mimilita. Til this day i love you very much but i still cant say it.. i know you wont see this but just know ill wait for you my turning page:,)

well its been 3 years since I've seen you and at first I was in pieces I would break down everyday but now I know my worth and I smile a bit more now and a laugh a bit more. Thank you for everything because without you I would be me today x

i have no idea what i want to happen between us but i know i want something to happen, so do something

I thought I was ok, but I was just distracted from that much distress. All because you made me that happy. Yet I wasn’t good enough.. don’t come into my life if your just going to mess with my feelings and leave , especially when you know how much I’m struggling

Ya tiene que no hablamos y así está bien, lamento que no hubiese sido lo que esperábamos, me dolió que ya no quisieras nada conmigo y que te fueras alejando cuando yo más te quería, enserio no se si lo notaste alguna vez que trate con todo lo que pudo que todo funcionara, más no recibi lo mismo de tu parte , realmente creo que si me enamore de ti, ya que me gustaba el simplemente hecho de que fueras tu, tu forma de ser, tus gustos, tu carácter tranquilo y amable, y tu brillante sonrisa, y muchas cosas más, me encantó conocer a tu familia y sentirme parte, no había nada que me desagrada de ti, hasta tus defectos me agradaban y tu también habías dicho lo mismo y que yo había sido lo mejor que te había pasado y al poco tiempo me dejaste, fuiste un mentiroso que no sabía lo que quería, sabes lo que más me decepciono fue que supe realmente quien eras y tus intenciones conmigo. Me dolió y ya no me sentía bien ahí más que nada por amor a mi misma y creo que tu lo notaste, en fin decidiste no luchar y preferiste irte y yo también porque ya no aguantaba el estrés de dar todo y aunque al principio soñaba con que regresarás conmigo entre más paso el tiempo pensé mejor las cosas, no puedo cambiar a las personas y también que tu no vales tanto la pena para tampoco me merezco conformarme con poco. Me enamoré del los que imaginaba que podíamos ser más no de la realidad. Así que tal vez nunca te diga todo esto ya que realmente ya no quiero que volvamos y a pesar de que alguna vez quise todo contigo, entiendo que esto se acabo, y que tenías razón cuando ya no veías más en la relación, en mi caso ya no veo más en ti, espero que encuentras la persona que no te haga dudar y la respetes y quieras todo con ella y no solo tenerla ahí para que no sientas solo, que te enamores de verdad, como deseo que alguien llegue así a mi vida, me enseñaste una valiosa lección que yo merezco el universo entero y dejar de conformarme. Espero de todo corazón que quedes en la universidad y te vaya súper bien de ahora en adelante.
Hasta nunca.
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honestly, one of the hardest heartbreaks i have ever felt. I dont know why i was into you, but all i know now is ur happier and so am i, but i wish we were able to be happy together. I love you forever.

Me gustabas mucho, realmente me gustabas, al punto en que olvidé como era ser amado y solo me fije en amarte. En tus ojos veía lo triste que estabas y a pesar que yo estaba hundida en la mierda lo primero que quería hacer era sanar todas tus heridas quitar esa pena que reflejaban tus hermosos y profundos ojos. Mi querido B gracias por estar en los peores momentos, hiciste que el dolor que llevo doliera menos, a pesar de que ya no se nada de ti ahora te agradezco por ser un efímero rayo de luz que paso por mi vida, no me arrepiento de a verte conocido de sonreírte cuando solo quería llorar porque sabía que tu lo harías igual. Gracias por enseñarme a valorarme, por mostrarme que nadie podría sanar todas tus heridas porque solo tu debías hacerlo, gracias por mostrarme que me querías a tu manera pero lo hacías, espero que hayas podido cura tu triste, que cuando vuelva a ver tus ojos ya no se refleje triste que ella te esté haciendo muy feliz y tu a ella.
Gracias por ser mi efímero rayo de luz, mi esperanza, mi estrella fugaz que solo fue un pequeño y dulce deseo, siempre recordaré cuanta alegría sentí a tu lado, de verdad hiciste que este dolor que llevo doliera menos ahora que no estas ha vuelto a doler quizás aun más pero por un momento sentí lo que era el amor y la felicidad todo gracias a ti mi querido rayo de luz, te recordaré como la estrella fugaz más preciosa que paso por mi cielo.

but while he lost himself in my eyes I lost myself in his bedroom--a loose incompatibility that held me back in the most subtle yet distinct ways

you’ve done so much for me and if I could I would repay you but it’s impossible. we’ve been through so much together and still have so much more to go through. I hope we never actually go our own ways because that will probably be the hardest part of my life. you mean everything to me and I love you wig all my heart.

i finally came to a realization that ur really gone, and it’s the best i’ve ever felt in a long time. i hope you’re okay, i’m always gonna care i don’t think i ever stopped

I'm sorry I stopped texting you. I just got it in my head that you didn't really want to talk to me. Now I feel nothing but regret.

sometimes all i want is to have an actual relationship with you, and my mind jumps back to thinking that I might be in love with u. but sometimes all I want it us to be friends, and not have any of the complications anymore. i don't know how things wont stop being complicated unless we stop seeing each other or one of us finds someone else. its driving me crazy

I've been trying really hard to move on. But when 11:11 rolls around the only thing I find myself wishing for is you.

I've been trying really hard to move on. But when 11:11 rolls around the only thing I find myself wishing for is you.

your hands on the table, movements seems fatal when wine is poured so carefully. the choir sings hymns as my world spins. our eyes lock, oh so bittersweet.

im sorry i did a shitty job at trying to capture the intensity and vastness of my love in just one letter. you deserve way more. i love you b.

I will forever wonder what I did wrong. All I wanted was to give you all the love in the world but somehow that wasn't good enough.

I miss how you would lay your head on my shoulder and we would fall asleep on my couch watching anime

Honestly, you are the most manipulative person I have ever met and you made me believe it was me who was in the wrong.

Its hard for me to hangout with you as friends when I look at you like were more than that. I miss you.

you’ve taught me that love isnt just one person. love is in the way you squeeze my hand but love is also in the way my mom smiles, the way rain drops on my skin, the way people smile at each other on the street and so much more.

It’s Thanksgiving. I’ve been hoping to hear from you all day. I’d give anything for another chance to connect.

We are not soulmates, we just needed each other at the same time. We don’t need each other anymore. But I got confused, fell in love, and now I can’t let go.

U are a disappointment and a sad excuse for a person. I wish I had never met u. I hope your life continues to be miserable

I was so dumb for thinking you liked me too. Welp i was wrong, you liked my best friend apparently. And now yall dating lol. I kinda still like you and im still hurt but i cant say anything about it.

U fucked me up so badly. Idk why i keep coming back you never have and never will give a shit about me. All you care about its your reputation, how many guys u can lead on and idk all the other shit u say u hate but really love. Just be urself pls. I like her a whole lot better than who ur pretending to be. I think ive met the real her a couple of times. but im done waiting. come find me when u grow the fuck up.

you r my bsf and i wish you felt the same but u don't and there is no way to tell u cuz if i do u wont b in my life and even tho it hurts i'm taking the pain i love you forever benny

You broke me, and that wasn’t enough for you was it? You left me for dead, earned my trust and ruined it. The worst thing is I fell for your act. Every. Single. Time.

i miss you so much, but you’re happier without me. i just wish you didn’t tell me that you missed me just to move on barely a few weeks later.

i drink an excessive amount of energy drinks just to feel something other than emptiness. you fucked me over after making countless promises, saying that you wouldn’t be like them. that you wouldn’t leave. i hate you.

I just want to let you know how much i love you, every time i see your name pop up it brings a smile to my face, seeing your face makes my day 1000% better. I love you

in one night, you went from being my perfect dream come true to a toxic nightmare i can never trust anymore.

you weren't over her, i was always last to be picked. i would've still chose you anytime. i love you.

yeah. i'm still thinking about you. i have a feeling you're over me, i don't know if i'll get to that point. you make my heart feel so full. it's been so long since we were together, i'm aware. but whenever you talk to me i remember the same feeling i had when you came up to me years before. i remember seeing from afar. i told my friend about you. look now, i'm still telling a friend about you. you make me smile. you don't say much, but i love when you do. even your silence is comforting. i hope to see you again. i keep thinking about how different it would be now. we've both changed so much. i want to hold your hand again. did you know that you're my best kiss? to this day, never had a better one. even if they were better, no one was ever you. everything seems to come back to you? i don't know why. maybe it's you're the first... my first love, my first kiss. god those eyes, i could look at them forever. i could look at you forever. it pains me how insecure you are; how can you not see how perfect you are? i feel like we could be good together, again. it wasn't our right time before. we were young, dumb, cringe, etc. now we are older. we're still growing, maturing, learning; but now we know that we don't know everything. we could be healthy and happy. imagine how easy that could be. me and you. i can't think of a good reply back to you. i want to kiss you. i wanna play with your dumb curly hair. i want to be your boyfriend again. i want us back, you said you missed it too. did that mean you wanted me too? even after all this time; could the spark still be there, my love? i wish i could stop thinking about you. please be thinking about me. thank you for shaping me, loving me, thank you for everything. i hope to be more than just a friend of yours again one day. you are magnificent. -you know who i am, trust your gut.

hey b it’s jill. you’ve hurt me so much words cannot explain. ik you only talk to her to hurt me. and i’m sorry for whatever i did to make you do something so awful. i still love you tho, a part of me is still waiting for you but. after this i can’t look at you the same. you look different all of the sudden but nothing about you has changed. i don’t know you anymore. i hope you are happy breaking my heart. i still love you to the moon and back, thats why it hurt so bad i guess.

idk what hurts more the fact that you left like what we had was never anything to you at all or the fact that you did exactly what you promised you would never do

you were the only thing that made me feel whole again, now i constantly feel like somethings missing. i miss you. i hope you’re doing well.

I could talk about her for hours. Her brown eyes with specks of gold. A smile that brightens my day when nothing else can. How she takes care of me when she doesn’t even realize it. How she cries and all I wanna do is hold her, because how could someone ever hurt such a soul?

Hey, I hope you’re okay. No not even just okay I hope you’re happy the kind of happy that you don’t even have to try to be you just wake up and glow. I’m sorry for what happened to us we were just two kids who thought this would be easier, I envy our indestructible hope and naiveness. But She was scared; she didn’t recognize you and I understand that now, you were scared too and that’s valid I forgive you I hope you forgive me too.

everybody i’ll ever love in this life will be measured in the shadow of your light. what a shame you’ll never know how loved you were.

You took up a significant amount of my heart, but if you told me right now that you wanted me... I don’t know if I would go back to you- And that’s on self growth!

me enamoré completamente de ti y aún no puedo olvidarte, me destrozaste, pero si tuviera la oportunidad de volver contigo lo haría, de todas esas cosas malas también hubieron buenas y son las que mas recuerdo, me hiciste demasiado feliz y me duele no tenerte conmigo, ya pasó 1 año o mas de esto, pero siempre te estoy recordando

idk I think I should leave you, you keep hurting my feelings everyday, but at the same time ur the one who makes me smile the most

you told me i made you feel at home, yet you still didn’t want me and found someone else instead. i will always love you.

You talked abt being a starter for bball, all last year...
Today you started and I couldn’t be more proud

You talked abt being a starter for bball all last year...

Today you started and I couldn’t be more proud...

Letting you in was so easy and lovely. But seeing you change into this monster was so heartbreaking and difficult. Hope you see it one day ...

It was a nice thought :) I miss our friendship and you still mean the world to me. I’m scared to be happy without you

You're hurting yourself baby. Eat, Please. Why are you doing this to yourself. You know what you're doing. But why. How are you supposed to tell your kids how you were when you were their age. How will you tell them how messy your room is, how you havent showered in a week, how your room is messy and you wear the same hoodie and sweatpants everyday. How are you gonna tell them your stomach growls all day and you still wont feed it...

You were the only one that made me happy. You were the only one who kept me going. now you're gone.. i just don't know what to do. everyday is the same. someday you might see this. I miss you bitch