Unsent messages to RYAN
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: July 12, 2023, 10:19 pm UTC
i hope that one day i’ll get to meet you irl
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: July 12, 2023, 12:09 am UTC
I still think about you sometimes. Do you do the same?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: July 11, 2023, 11:13 pm UTC
Why did you play with my heart. I thought you were the one
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: July 10, 2023, 10:20 am UTC
hopefully time in time, you'll be waiting for me too.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 19, 2021, 2:58 am UTC
I think about us all the time and I just wish you would give me a sign that you haven't given up on me.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 17, 2021, 6:47 pm UTC
please im in love with your blue eyes, your wide smile, your freckles, even those fat lips of yours. im making it so obvious that im in love with you
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 17, 2021, 5:45 am UTC
i hate how i love you so fucking much and then i hate you. do you want me or not? choose please bc it’s breaking my heart.
i hate you. i hate the way you made me felt. i hate the way i fell in love with you instantly within a week. i hate you. i know you loved me too, i felt the connection between us. you ruined me. when you left me you took a piece of me that deeply loved you. i never knew i could feel this way about someone until i met you. i wish sometimes that’d id never even had met you. i don’t understand what you do and why. it haunts me that i used to think about you every day and you didnt give a shit. i fell for you. hard. i cried nightly because i couldnt see you. my heart crumbled more and more when i left you. i left your touch. i didnt feel your hug anymore. i didnt feel safe anymore. i barely knew you but it felt like we’d known each other forever. when i see you again i don’t quite know what ill do. if the feelings will come back. im angry. i hate you. i hate how i still love you. a year later and im still in love with you. i dont know if its the way you do things or say things but its charming. i feel different when im around you. i hate how you left me when i was in my worst possible state. i was in love with you. and you blocked me. like i meant nothing. im confused on why you did that. i just loved you with all of my heart. you knew that. your charm haunts me. still. i wish i could forget you. i wish we never met. i wish you didnt rip a chunk out of me. i hate you. i love you.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 17, 2021, 3:06 am UTC
im so sorry for how everything turned out. i dont even know if love is real anymore. i love u. i only wish u the best because its what u deserve. ?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 16, 2021, 3:41 am UTC
if only i could confront you... i know you secretly are in love with her. why give me a ring, why plan a future when you know these feelings are there. this is exactly why i still put up all those walls after D, because i always knew you and every other person in my life was too good to be true.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 15, 2021, 5:02 am UTC
I am willing to fight for you until I am fully pushed away. The question is, are you willing to do the same?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 15, 2021, 3:23 am UTC
i hate the fact that i still think about u every day cause i know i haven’t crossed ur mind in a while
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 14, 2021, 10:45 pm UTC
Siempre me dijeron que el amor dolĂa, pero no les creĂ hasta que te conocĂ.
Talvez en otra vida yo sea esa persona que tu buscas, o tal vez en otra vida tenga la oportunidad que ella tubo para amarte.
La vida es injusta en ocasiones y no siempre nos da lo que queremos pero siempre nos deja una enseñanza.
Cuando me di cuenta que no podĂamos ser mas que desconocidos aprendĂ que en la vida y en el amor esas cosas pasan y que talvez si ese dĂa tan solo hubiera dicho "Hola" las cosas serian distintas.
Atte: Angy
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 14, 2021, 10:27 pm UTC
this is really stupid i never do origami frogs anymore. today is the last day i let you stay in my brain i’m tired and it’s my fault bye bye
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 14, 2021, 4:13 pm UTC
haha funny story. i used to like really like you like...a lot...like like you so much it was love AHAHA. any who my reason for never confessing was you were kinda amazing and there were pretty girls who liked you and im a dude so like HA. plus we have the same name so i thought i's never work. guess who just found out 40 minutes ago you're actually gay too LMAO. i'm a moron
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 14, 2021, 4:37 am UTC
I am so sorry i left you but to be completely honest i dont even think you care that much i left anyway, seems like i didnt matter as much to you as you did to me. I made this green bc i loved your green eyes but you alr know that. Anyway you will always have a special place in my heart. No matter what i always like to comfort myself with the thought that this was nothing more than right person wrong time and that eventually our paths will meet again whether that be in some months or years or 50 years from now or even in another lifetime i hold to the thought that our souls will meet again because this wasnt how our story was supposed to end. Anyway i hope you have a great life bruh. I wish u the best. Thank you for giving me something to look forward to wake up in the morning at a time where my days seemed like one day colored in black and gray with the same repeating meaningless cycle, you gave it color. Haha p corny ikik. I miss u bruhhhh omg i miss talking talking to u but i know its for the best so im giving u space because afterall this is a free world so u deserve to be free. I really wish i couldve met u in person. Just know that if you ever come back to me my arms will be wide open because at the end its always you and there isnt a single person i would choose over you. I just wish you could’ve put more effort in ): ik i had to leave bc it was for the best at the wnd of the day i shouldnt have to beg you for your attention or for you to want to communicate and talk to me. That should literally come from you but obviously it didnt haha. Anyway i am not mad at you for that bc no matter how much u hurt me i still cant bring myself to hate you
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 13, 2021, 1:20 pm UTC
WHRC....lol the whole situation is funny. Sorry I friend zoned you...you were just gonna play me.You have a gf so stop flirting with me. Kisses
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 13, 2021, 5:27 am UTC
Please stop playing with me. Either ask me out or let me go. I need to know if i’m all in or need to move on.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 9:26 pm UTC
i cannot imagine a world without you in it. you are the best thing to ever happen to me. thank you for taking me back
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 5:25 pm UTC
no color fits you. im on the phone with you and i know when we hang up and say i love you, you wont mean it the way i do.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 4:34 pm UTC
You made my life fun. You were the person I wanted to be with all the time. You hurt me so badly in the end and I should have known, I knew you would do this to me. My heart is broken and it is my own fault. I shouldn't have cared about you as much as I did, because I knew you didn't care about me at all.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 9:40 am UTC
You always said I’d move on after your gone. But I still miss you. I’ll carry your legacy. I’ll always wear your necklace. I miss you more than ever.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 5:10 am UTC
it sucks that the way i felt about you is how you still felt about her. but, i would never hurt someone like the way you hurt me, and you know that too.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 4:37 am UTC
r,
there isn’t gonna be a perfect time. so why can’t we just say fuck it and be together? can we please stop playing this game?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 12, 2021, 4:21 am UTC
you were truly my first love. i was yours for as long as i could be. i wish you weren't so terrible. life would be easier then. the things you did to me would make sense. i can't comprehend this side you showed me. it's hard to accept that what i experienced was your shielded side of you. something i never saw, but was always there. lurking.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 8:10 am UTC
We used to send each other songs everyday, but it’s been a year since you texted me. Godspeed by Frank Ocean is the song i’d send you right now
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:11 am UTC
I let my tears fall where you once lied so they may take the shape of you and comfort me like you once did.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:11 am UTC
sometimes i wonder if you still think about me. what if what we had was the best we’d get? would you come back?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 4:09 am UTC
i’m still hanging on to the thought of what could’ve been, hoping the songs that make me think of you make you think of me
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:17 am UTC
I’ve never been in love before, but when i met you i knew that’s what it was. everything about you just makes me feel so ecstatic. your slight dimples when you smile or the smirk you make when you think of something mischievous. i wanna be ur person. i can see us growing together. i don’t ever wanna lose you. you’re my favorite boy. you’re him. and that’s all i could ever ask for.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 3:12 am UTC
atleast a goodbye would have been better, then ghosting me. the second I realised my heart dropped and the world became silent. I'm left with broken pieces and the one question, did I romantise it or did you feel it too?
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 2:20 am UTC
do you know what you did to me ?
do you think about it as often as i do?
did you always know what you were doing ?
i told you no why did you keep going why did i let you into my house why did i introduce you to my mom and tell all my friends about you why did i care so much about what you thought when you just wanted to have sex why didnt i push you away why did i let you do it why didnt i tell anyone about it why why why why why why
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 11, 2021, 1:31 am UTC
this is the sweetest color. you’re my sweetest thing. our souls sing when we are together, and i hope the choir goes on forever
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 10, 2021, 11:23 pm UTC
You hurt me. You showed me pure happiness and then took it away in a second. But didn’t tell me why. I wish I told you how much you hurt me...
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 10, 2021, 4:32 pm UTC
Lol I can’t get you out of my head and it’s been months. I miss being friends and I miss you but it won’t be the same. I’m sorry for ruining the friendship. I should’ve been more careful.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 10, 2021, 6:40 am UTC
i sorta maybe have a thing for you. which is weird, because we're not in the same circles at all. but you're nice and cute and sweet and aren't mean like your friends are. anyways. enjoy the playlist i made for you
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 10, 2021, 5:12 am UTC
i’m sorry i projected my insecurities onto you. But you breaking my heart helped me realize how much i’m worth. I owe you a rly big thank you, despite how much i truly miss you.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 10, 2021, 2:52 am UTC
i wish you knew why im so sad all the time - its not u, its the idea of without you. pls call me back
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 9, 2021, 3:46 am UTC
you told people lies about me and I never told your secret. you were a really bad friend. even so, I know you were having a hard time so I wish the best for you
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 9, 2021, 3:43 am UTC
I’m typing this here cause if I said it in person you’d crumble for 25 years. I can tell no one has ever told you to shut the f*ck up and Jesus you need to. Like just stop.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 8, 2021, 4:13 pm UTC
hi, idek how to start this. it’s been a year since. i don’t think I could ever forgive you. you ruined me, you ruined my relationships. I wanted to tell that i’m in the best relationship of my life right now. and fuck you.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 7, 2021, 10:28 pm UTC
Why did you do all that you Never loved me did you you should’ve said that before you hurt me more you didn’t have to spread lies about me and take my friends I wasn’t the fucking meme page
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 7, 2021, 11:04 am UTC
fuck you. we haven't talked in years but you've still managed to fuck up all of my relationships. i never deserved the treatment you gave me at such a young age.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 7, 2021, 3:16 am UTC
it keeps me up at night to think about the things you say to me. how do i know you even mean any of it? i hope you do.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 6, 2021, 4:35 am UTC
We both have good lives on opposite sides of the planet. It's been too many years to count. Some days it opens back up in my heart and I wish I had someone to talk to about it. Grief and pain from a secret I kept for too long and a lot of fear I couldn't name. You are a part of my heart that feels too real, too much and completely imaginary all at once. I don't know you anymore. I only know this ghost.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 6, 2021, 12:08 am UTC
It baffles me how I used to think our love was so pure when you made me feel so bad sometimes or when I acted in childish ways. I wish we ended sooner and in a better way.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 5, 2021, 8:51 pm UTC
I am so in love with you it hurts, but you're with her and it's all I have to not breakdown at work. I've never been yours, and you were not made for me.
From: ABC
To: ryan
Date: January 5, 2021, 12:17 am UTC
you were the reason I had trust issues and even after we broke up you still managed to mess with my life. own up to the shit you put me through because while we were together all you ever did was lie lie lie.
