Unsent messages to RYAN

The thing that hurts me the most is knowing that however bad you hurt me I'd still always go back to you in a heart beat, You were my soulmate but I guess I wasnt yours. I'm gonna miss you Ryan, Thankyou for all the good laughs and late night talks, The late night walks and for making me feel safe and happy again. You saved my life. I'll always love you. Goodbye♡

I know you are going out with my best friend but I like you and I wish I didn’t but I love you and Evelyn together I just have a crush on you

god, you're so annoying. we haven't talked in forever but you're always on my mind. i wonder if i am too.

I’m sorry I didn’t answer your text, but it had been years since we last talked and I just wanted to move on from that chapter of my life. You stopped being there for me when I needed you the most. I felt abandoned by you. I’m sorry if I was ever a burden. I’ll always appreciate the friendship we once had. I hope you found happiness.

I’m sorry I didn’t answer your text, but it had been years since we last talked and I just wanted to move on from that chapter of my life. You stopped being there for me when I needed you the most. I felt abandoned by you. I’m sorry if I was ever a burden. I’ll always appreciate the friendship we once had. I hope you found happiness.

why am I so desperately seeking someone else’s approval to give up on you? It’s not the same anymore.

Why wasn't my whole heart and soul enough for you? Did you think of me when you cheated? I am broken.

i know u said that we're just friends but it wont change the fact that u were the first boy i truly ever loved. if u're happy, then i'm happy. i have so much more to say, i just cant find the right words.

We were never going to work out anyways. I was just craving attention for someone I didn't even like. It was forced. I would never want to be with you now.

when you told me i was ugly because of who i was that hurt especially after wanting to spend the rest of my life with you.

You left me and I still sit here wanting you back. You were my best friend. I miss watching the sunset with you.

This color reminds me of you. I hate you but I love you so much, and I miss you. I wish you hadn't hurt me. Why wasn't I enough for you. All I wanted was to love you.

Ryan, I wish you could know how broken you've made me. I honestly feel like I am not capable of receiving love anymore. I thought I was going to marry you, spend the rest of my life with you, have my family with you. but, you broke me in ways you don't understand. I push everyone and everything away from me now because my brain thinks that anything I could have will be ruined and I am not able to be loved the way that I love.

You are such a asshole i don't know what i ever saw in you but i love you so much and that's the problem

i miss you and i know you don’t miss me. you were the love of my life and i messed everything up i treated you terribly and i would do anything to take the way i treated you back. you tried to give me the world and i accused you of not loving me every time because i was scared of losing you. look where we are now. i would do anything to be able to lay on your chest every sunday (our day) again. the thought of never talking to you again makes me feel broken inside. i hope some day we meet again and i can fall in love with your stupid laugh all over again. i’ll always love you and will always self consciously wait for you. i miss you ry.

You broke my heart and you’ll never even know. I still love you, even though you didn’t feel the same and I don’t think I’ll ever stop.

i wish you knew that i like you and i’ve loved you for a long time. all the things we say to eachother, you might be joking but i’m not and i hope that you will fing your way back to me one day.??

Even though I’ve moved on I still think about you. You showed me what it’s like to be loved and for that I’ll always love you.

I'm sorry for being clingy. Maybe I was too selfish. I'm sorry it I caused you any stress. I just want you how much you meant to me. I still remember you and I'll always be here.

I’d do anything to be with you. But you don’t even notice me I’m just a good time for you and that’s what broke me.

I actually loved you and it scared me. I’m sorry I couldn’t stay. I wanted you to be enough and you weren’t.

I will always love you. You were my first love and will have a part of me forever. Until we meet again xo

I'm sorry for everything I put you through you didn't deserve it. I still love you but I'm glad you are happy now.

God, you were the love of my life and you left like it was the easiest thing in the world. I will never ever stop caring about you and I hope one day we can reunite and start over and have that magical feeling all over again. You truly are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and until we meet again I wish you nothing but the best and I hope you find happiness and success with everything you do. I love you. so so much. thank you for making me feel so special for the first time in my life. I truly believe we are right people at the wrong time and I am not giving up on us yet. I can't. You're so perfect, inside and out and idc what anyone says. You were and will forever be my person. Even if I'm not yours.

i wish you felt the same:( you make me feel something no one has in awhile. i love talking to you and hearing your cute laugh and amazing voice followed by your perfect smile..i just wish you felt the same :(

I was is a good place. I was happy being single, that was until I met you. But then you left me and I went back the the dark place which I had finally gotten out of right before I met you.

y were u so ok with letting me go? i miss u but dont want to go back to someone who wont fight to keep me

i made like 2 of these already but all i wanted to say is that i miss u a lot and hope u come back to me

i just dont want to get hurt again and idk if i can forgive u fo what u did, u didnt even apologize back or seem to care that i left and thats all i wanted was to feel wanted and u barely did that at times

u meant so much to me and i cannot stop thinking about u. it hurts that u were so ok with letting me go. u couldnt even admit what u did wrong and makes it seem like u dont even care. all i wanted was some reassurance that u still wanted me bc we were being distant, but it backfired, we were both in the wrong and u couldnt say sry back

you know we both still love each other. i’ll wait for you but please hurry, life is hell without you.

i wish things didn’t end that way. i miss you but i know i deserve a far better love. i just wish i knew why you hurt me the way you did and if you ever truly loved me.

i loved u and u took advantage of that. u manipulated and mistreated me for months and i overlooked it bc of who you were in the beginning. i miss the old you.

Since we are the same age and neighbors, I wish we would get along so we could create so many teenage coming of age memories.

i like you and i’ve always liked you. i was never enough nor will i be. it’s too late to tell you everything now

So much time spent on you. Everything about you is amazing. I wish things would have ended differently. Love u

I loved you more than I loved myself. I hope one day we can go back together and do things differently.

I’m sorry. And I miss you. I wish things had ended differently. There’s so much I still have left to say. Sending you love always.

You’re hurting me right now. But I know that I would be friends with you if I knew that sometime in the future we would be a couple again. That might kill me. But I have a feeling that this is right person wrong time. I love you to the moon and back. I mean that. I just wish you knew how much I missed talking to you everyday...

even tho its been 2 years i still wait for your name to pop up on my phone everyday, call me. i miss u.

man we havent talked for months, but the three years ive known you have been great and i know ill always miss you but at the same time im glad were not friends anymore

i can tell by the way you talk to your mum on the phone that you have a heart of gold. i hope i have a son like you. i wish you only happiness.

tomorrow marks a year since the day we started talking.the way i felt about you , i had never felt that way before. i miss you but i could never tell you that.

Im happy you found yourself. Im just dissapointed that you used me to find that out. We lasted 6 months. I still love you.

I wanna say that im completely over you but I just don't know if I can. Ive thought about you recently, even though ik you don't ever think of me. I had a dream last night I was with you and your family. Now all I can think about is how tf could I screw up and leave you. You chose not to give it another shot bc of all the "bad" stuff that happened. But what bad stuff really happened? Our childish and stupid arguments? We were young and we've both grown. In a 4 days it'll be 2 years since the day we met. I can't believe it's almost been a whole year without you. I feel like im over you but just everything still reminds me of you. How tf am I supposed to get through this week trip if our families decided to go together? Like were about to go on vaca together and you don't even talk to me. Obviously I wasn't too important for you to ever talk to. The only time we got into a deep convo is the night after I called you drunk and you said we should be good friends like before again. What happened too that? I still think your my twin flame, or at least my soulmate. My mom still thinks were gonna get married lol. Okay well ily 3000.

I don't know if I love you anymore. Ever since you did what you did I feel my heart breaking more, my feelings have been fading because of that. I wish I never met you. If only you chose level English sophomore year.

I'm aware the deeper feelings are probably unrequited, but you mean a hell of a lot to me. thanks for being in my life man

We had the exact same conversation at my house. About people liking you because of your dress. I knew you way way before. People are dumb. You were so thrilled.

if i can be honest..
i think i wasn't in love with u. i was in love with the idea of loving you. it wasn't all your fault. i'm sorry

u said u'd proudly show off our pics. yet despite all we said and did for each other we ended without a single picture.