Unsent messages to RYAN

I wish I could remind you how much I love you. I think of you every second of every day. I've gone from being the most important thing to someone you used to love. But you're happier now so why should I complain.

Nothing is worse than seeing the person you want to be with more than anything in the world move on from you.

do u wanna know something? the first time someone said 'i love u' to me was u. and u ruined it for me bc it was all lies.

i never got closure i still wonder about you, i hope you’re doing well. do you ever think about me? i wish we could get closure

when u stayed in the call to hear my mother yell at me about u i cried afterwards bc i knew i wouldn't find anyone as dedicated as u.

i wish we still talked. i'm happy with mine, and you're happy with yours, but i miss you in ways i can't begin to describe. i'm glad you were my first love, you were a better boyfriend than i ever deserved.

i wish i could have just said how i felt about us before you left the country for your futher studies.

you made me think you loved me with your words. when actually you tore me apart every time you talked

i’m sorry. i’m sorry you feel like you have to wait for me. i don’t know how long you’ll be waiting because i don’t know when i’ll ever be ready. you’re one of the best people in my life i can’t lose that

i’m sorry. i’m sorry you feel like you have to wait for me. i don’t know how long you’ll be waiting because i don’t know when i’ll ever be ready. you’re one of the best people in my life i can’t lose that

Everyday I hope that you'll realize you miss me too and come back. A piece of me is still waiting for you. Come back.

It hurt when you pushed me away. Having someone there for you when you need it most is better than having none.

I wish we could go back to the morning of 1st September so I could wake up to you kissing the back of my neck again.

I regret the way we did things, I wish we could start all over again. You was the right person at the wrong time.

listen i know u probably haven't thought about me since the last time we saw each other. i'm sorry that i did it not once but twice... i don't have the guts to ask for a third chance. i know you probably wouldn't give me one anyway, but i can't stop thinking about you. i had a dream the other night that we ran into each other and it felt like no time had passed. if u ever decided to want me, i'd be there. lol i might even make u a meme about it ;)

I’m sorry things didn’t work out between us. I still love you, I always will. You really didn’t understand how much I meant those words and how much I cared for you. I’d sacrifice everything just so you’d be happy.

One day we were joking around and playing games but you said I love you I know it was a joke but my heart skipped a beat.

i miss you. so much. i think i do anyway. i just miss how you made me feel, and how everytime i seen you i would get butterflies and instantly smile. i miss your touch on my skin and your kisses. i miss loving you. please come back, i’m willing to leave what u did in the past and i forgive you. we both did wrong, it wasn’t just you. we spoke for the first time in over a year in person a few days ago, and it’s brought everything back. don’t leave again. please.

you walk past everyday now, you bet i stare. you look at me then you look away, i know you don’t care.

the depression is unbearable but if it wasn’t for you it probably would’ve had me dead by now so thank you for saving me when i feel hopeless.

I fucking hate you you little shit, I know what you did, and I wish you received reprucussions for your shitty behaviour towards women, I can't wait for people to find out about what you've done. fuck you

i know this isnt going to work. you won't tell me what you want so how am i supposed to know if i should move on? i really like you but if your'e not going to put any effort into this i'm going to leave. you just seem so uninterested in the thought of me and you. i don't even know what happened either. from now on i'm not going to put in any effort unless you do. i'm not going to waste my time on someone who's bullshitting me. it hurts.

You really fucked me up and did me dirty, I hope I never hear from you again and you never put another girl through what I went through.

i like you a lot which kinda sucks, but i think you’re genuinely such an amazing person and i hope you find someone who makes you very happy :)

i know ur a lot older than me, but i wish we could be together, you're the only person i feel safe with, please stay

I don't think I can call this a first love but rather a first mistake. I wish I could start things from scratch so things didn't end up in this big mess! I hope your girlfriend sees your good side.

I thought I could do no wrong with you. you said you where different. I no longer believe people when they tell me they think am special. I hope she is worth the pain you caused me. I honestly believed you loved me and that you would never leave me

Breaking up was awful but it helped me to grow as a person and learn to rely on myself for happiness. I genuinely wish you the best.

i always think abt that one moment where we both got lost on one another’s eyes. what happened? now we’re strangers.

i’m literally so in love with you. i hope we can be together in the future. if it’s not you, it’s no one.

You really hurt me. I’ll never recover from this. We could of been friends, but you got me drunk and you hurt me.

Hi! It's been 5, 6 years. I hope you're happy now. Don't wait for me. You know that I loved you right? But it's just not the same. I just hope for your happiness, cause I still care for you, and I will always care for you.
Forgive me for ghosting you, I just didn't know how to tell you that I fell out of love. I didn't want to see you crying so I chose the easy way out. I'm sorry.

Thank you for being my first love and teaching me what not to do in a relationship. Your manipulation made me stronger.

i liked u for like what? almost 3 years? and sometimes i still think about u but i know i’m better off w/o being ur special someone :”) take care n stay safe tho!

The beginning was so perfect and I think that's why I'm still holding on. You were such an amazing person

i still pray for your safety every day, i hope you're doing well. i'll love you always and thank you for everything

Hey. I know we haven’t talked in years. But I just want to say. I wish you had told me how you really felt rather than making me feel an absolute fool. I would of understood and never would of held it against you. I’m glad you’re now free to be who you are and don’t have to hide anymore. Although I do sometimes feel everything was a lie, I get it must of been difficult for you to admit.