Unsent messages to RYAN

we literally snapped for 5 months and then you stopped replying. now i only look for guys like you... i don’t even remember what you’re like, but every night i wish i would’ve said yes to you. i’ll say it now: yes

I don’t know the whole event, but hon, that guy is so lost. I’ll have you know, that man is so lost without you.

you are home to me. we always find a way back to each other. falling asleep in your arms is my favorite thing i have ever done. you keep me safe and for that night i forgot we were just friends. your laugh and smile and your sleepy voice:( i miss it. all of it.

I hope you're doing well. I miss you, but I don't think I love you like that anymore. You'll always be special, but it doesn't feel the same. Thank you for the memories, I'll always think of you fondly

my angel, i miss what we had. of course i am happy on what we have now, but fuck, i’ll forever miss the feelings we had towards eachother, we would’ve been such a power couple, i’ve never felt that way with anyone before, and i don’t think i ever will. you were my fantasy, you are my yellow. i still have every screenshot of when it all happened, for memories and because they still bring me joy, and honestly, i don’t think i’ll ever regret that time we had, not even a close, not even a little bit, not even at all. in the end, i’ll always want you to be happy no matter how i feel. that’s what always mattered, i hope one day, we could be that power couple, and do everything we want to. fuck, sometimes i can just picture ourselves sitting on the roof, smoking cigarettes, talking about life, and falling in love. i loved every moment that we had, the flirting,the joking, you showing me off. sigh, i wonder if we will ever get a part 2.. sometimes i look at the moon at night, thinking about what we could’ve been. i cant thank you enough for those memories you gave me, you made me feel nothing but happiness and loved. i just hope i’ll get it back. i miss it so much. i hope one day, we can see eachother in person, forget about everything, just the two of us. i hope my gut feeling is right and i get my second chance. i love you for infinity. ily ry, eres mi ángel para siempre okay ?

I don’t want us to hate eo anymore, I’m hoping we bump into eo on the street, say hi and even at that i’ll be content.

you brought me out of a dark place and i will forever owe you for that. you make me feel so safe and i love you infinitely. the idea of losing you scares me constantly. i know it will happen eventually and that will be one of the worst days of my life but i will hold onto you until that day. i am lucky just to have you for the time i do now. i love you forever. i pinky promise i will always be here

I will never stop loving you, I hope the next girl you choose will show you endless amounts of love :) even though I want to be the one doing that I won't be selfish because I want you to live a happy life

You’re everything I ever wanted. I love you more than anything and I’m sorry we’re going through this tough time my love. X

It’s fucked that I’m terrified of you leaving me, but you’re more scared of letting me get too close.

I feel such an intense motivation to find you. I truly believe that you are my soulmate and that we will meet again.

i just think we were an example of "the right person, wrong time". we used to be so close. what happened?

When you text me or call me asking how I’m doing, it lets me know you are one of the people in my life who truly care about me.

idk what to say. I still miss us. what we had, or at least what I thought we had. It feels awkward now, but if you talked to me I would 100% be happy to be friends again.

i saw your little brother today for the first time since February. it made me realise just how much i miss you

Originally we both said that we weren’t looking for anything serious but you changed that for me. I want to be yours more than anything.

I really think you were the right person at the wrong time. I know it wasn't your fault, but I cried over you for so many nights and I hoped I would still have you as a friend when it was all over but things didn't turn out that way. I still wish we could be friends. I miss you. I have him, and he makes me so happy, but we were so close. You always said you liked me first, and I was never sure. The last time I was though, but you weren't, I don't blame you and it wasn't your fault but it crushed me. You started talking to me again out of the blue a year and a half ago, but I think it was just to end things on good terms. We had both moved on and I think we both wanted our friendship back, but both of us knew it just wasn't going to be possible. I still wish we were still friends, but I know it won't happen. I know you were going through a lot when we were friends but I hope you're through all of that now. One of your friends told me there were cuts on your wrists and I hope you're ok. I want you to know that I will always be here for you if you need me, no matter what. I'm sure you both love each other and I hope everything works out for you two. I miss you as a friend and I wish you all best. We never said we loved each other but I think we both knew.

Hey Ryan,
You were my first “love”. I was obsessed with you and I wanted to be the person to make you happy. I hope you’re still doing well.

It's been 8 years. I still remember our first kiss. You lifted my chin and that night my heart became yours. I never really moved on.

you’re not my first bc but you’re my first love. i want us to be together forever. fuck everyone else. it’s us against the world

how can you listen to the music I showed you? the movies you love because of me? I can't enjoy anything anymore because of you and you don't care at all that I'm gone.

do you still think im beautiful? do you miss waking up and holding me then falling back asleep? will you ever come back?

Still think abt you and that night sometimes...I wish you would message me, even now, after 5 years...

You taught me real meaning of happiness. It was that of patience, kindness, random laughing attacks. It was love. I miss you!

It's still hard not knowing if you left me because you didn't love me anymore or because something happened to you.

did u ever go to bed thinking about me? did u ever just start having random thoughts about me? bc i do. and its so unfair bc i am trying to move on but u make it so difficult. its been 6 years. i need to let u go.

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

Thought about you today at work. Missing you and our mems and jokes. Sometimes I sit back and think how this could even be real without you. I’m so strong for letting you go. Hoping you miss our crazy deep talks and all the other dumb shit we’d do. I love you always Ryan

I wish you were the man I know you could've been.I would've never done to you what you did to me.I hate you.You made me feel unloveable.

Some days I don’t even want to live in this city anymore it causes too much pain knowing you are down the street from me

Some days I don’t even want to live in this city anymore it causes too much pain knowing you are down the street from me

i still think about you. you said you really liked me and i did too but i’m sorry i was too scared to get into the relationship with you. i’m sorry

You said you wanted to marry me. You said you never wanted "us" to end. And yet you left me all alone. Now I don't know if I'll ever be over it.

i don't blame you for leaving. we we're so young. i noticed this whole time. i was falling in love. you gave me happiness. now i wish you happiness. even if it is with someone else. that's ok. as long as your happy love.

i don't blame you for leaving. we we're so young. i noticed this whole time. i was falling in love. you gave me happiness. now i wish you happiness. even if it is with someone else. that's ok. as long as your happy love.

fuck you, dick. you ruined so many songs for me. i still miss u sometimes tho, so please dont come back.

thank you for the late night talks, pizza deliveries and the kitchen slow dances. i'm still betting on us.

I will always have love for you but I know its not the right time. I will always be here for you though no matter what

I'm not saying I like you, and I've known you for way too long for anything to happen between us, but I always have this weird feeling around you. If you asked me out, something in me says to reject you and keep you as one of my closest friends, and the other part tells me to say yes because I think we could make it work and not hurt each other in the end. Though, you've never been one for relationships. Sometimes I wonder if you ever liked me because I feel like at one point we were a bit more than just best friends. After not talking for months on end, we can still laugh and talk as if we hadn't been distant for so long. I will never think about you in a romantic way, but if you confessed I would certainly feel something that I didn't notice before. (I'm praying you don't know about this website)

you were so blindingly bright and I lost myself in your light. It was the most I ever felt, but I never want to love that way again.

Whenever we cuddle and you fall asleep, I whisper "I love you" over and over under my breath because it just feels right.

I want to message you. I want to see you, talk to you, or even stand by you. I don't think you like me so I'm not going to bother you. I just wish I had the guts to message you before you left.

You said you'd never go back to her, now here you are working things out, and I'm left alone to carry myself through

Dude, you were my best friend . But you want the truth? I never got over my crush on you. Never even after 2 years of going to a different school and not seeing you once. And I never will get over you because you’re like this drug that I never want to replace you with. Even though trying to hold on to our friendship is harmful for me, I refuse. And that’s the problem.

I went from liking the attention you gave me to falling in love with you, I'm sorry you got bored of me

You're a terrible person. You're the reason i want to cry any time anyone raises their voice. fuck you.

Was she really worth it? you put me into the darkest hole and for what? To lose the one person who would've done anything for you.

i’m not sure exactly what happened that changed your energy towards me but i rlly enjoyed the friendship we had before. i don’t think it will ever be the same tho cuz i don’t think i was as interested in you as you were in me. i’m sorry. i’ll always remember those who severed on 9/11 :)

i’m not sure exactly what happened that changed your energy towards me but i rlly enjoyed the friendship we had before. i don’t think it will ever be the same tho cuz i don’t think i was as interested in you as you were in me. i’m sorry. i’ll always remember those who severed on 9/11 :)